Mcyt -autistic- oneshots

College sucks more than you do (Tubbo and Ranboo)

The request for this chapter was: I enjoyed the school one a lot although it was a while ago

As the author, I then proposed this: What do you think about a Tubbo at college one? Like maybe part of the reason he stops going to college in the story is cause of a massive meltdown he has at college? 

TW- kissing? (I don't know????), ableism

Tubbo's POV:

My alarm blared in my room and I sloppily put it on snooze. I hated the sound it made. It made my teeth hurt and gave me a headache, but at least it woke me up. It's pretty hard to sleep when you're teeth are hurting.

I was on a reduced college timetable anyway, and that was because of me streaming. Well supposedly it was because of that, that's what we had told the college. My parents and I both silently knew it was because I wasn't coping all that well with going back to school.

Although I'm autistic I don't struggle that much with changes to my routine and I tend to adapt to things semi-decently; I'm a go with the flow sort of guy. But college was a different ball game. Having gone from not doing any work for march to the end of the summer holidays because of covid, the prospect of homework or anything that wasn't streaming daunted me a little. I felt like I was no good at it.

The first day I met up with a friend of mine who was taking the same course as me. And whilst going through all the things for our course, going round visiting studios (and all the boring stuff they had decided to do with us for the first day) I just stuck with him. It was easy enough, and he knew I was autistic (cause I'd somehow found the courage to tell him over the summer, not even Tommy knew about it yet). But the next day -and our first day of actual 'lessons'- he was not in. I got a quick message that morning saying sorry and that he was sick.

It wasn't the fact it was a change of routine that got me. It was that I honestly didn't know who to talk to, how to get around and so on and so forth that made me anxious. I texted every friend from secondary school that I knew was going to the same college as me, just so I could meet up with someone during lunch. Luckily a friend said she was free and we agreed to meet at a local subway.

With that in mind, I did go to my course that morning. In the few hours I was there I was given 16 different pieces of paper (all of which I've since lost), and mostly just become very overwhelmed. I had a bit of free time, which I spent messaging Ranboo who was up late because he both couldn't sleep and wanted to make sure my day went okay. He didn't know I was autistic, he just cared about me no matter what. It was nice to have someone care about me like that, but for some reason I was still scared to tell him. Being dyslexic kind of slipped out, and I needed an excuse for the fact that my reading and writing was nothing short of atrocious (big, fancy word, I know). But I had been taught at a very young age to mask by occupational therapists and it meant that most people couldn't work that second part of me out.

Then it was lunch and I mumbled my way over to the subway and sat having a sort of decent time. It was nice to catch up with my friend who I hadn't seen for 6 months or so by that point, and it was cool to hear about the courses she was taking at college. But the afternoon only really got worse from there.

I felt too awkward to leave the conversation to go to the toilet (I'm well known for it), so whilst sprinting back to my classroom I had to go to the toilet on the way. And that only made me later than I already was.

"Nice of you to join us," the teacher mumbled as I made my way in and got out my laptop. We were doing something about a beginning project, I was too overwhelmed to concentrate on it. I made awkward smiles with my group members and put my airpods in, trying to forget college even existed. This sucked.

"Tobias, headphones out. This is a group project not a concert for one." There was at least a sympathetic smile this time, he was supposed to know I was autistic. I nodded weakly and turned to the girl and boy next to me. They laughed before shortly turning to each other and talking. I just typed away on my laptop, making it look like I was at least doing work.

"So what did you want to do it on?" I said quietly and waited for a few seconds. No answer, no response or acknowledgement either. I spoke up a little louder, "hey, what are we going to do the project on?"

The girl answered me curtly, "I don't know. We're busy."

The boy turned round and said, "just leave us to it yea?" giving me a wink. I didn't know what the wink was for but soon found out when the two of them began to sit closer, pushing the chairs so that they could barely move. Be assured I move my chair in the complete other direction.

I began texting Ranboo again, "morning boss man." I started with.

"Morning Tubbo, u still at school?"

"Yea wanna leave tho cause its so loud, and now some kids are like kissing next to me." Oh I definitely blew it when I said that it being loud was bothering me.

"Can you ask to be moved or smth?"

"Teacher is kind of weird, idk if i like him or not."

"Just ask."

"Hey, can I do the project on my own?"

"Ummm, well, yes. But only because you're well, you know? If you weren't special needs, I'd have to treat you like everyone else." I nodded, with a sour taste in my mouth and shuffled even further away from the other 2.

"Doing it on mh own now."

"Good. Talk later?"

"Sure :)"

I closed my phone and began actually researching for my project. And at that point I managed to zone out all the noise and everything I hated about college: becoming hyperfocussed on my project instead. So focussed in fact that I totally missed the hushed whispers and giggles of my classmates. The teacher really had to tell everyone I was special needs didn't he?

A/n HEY, I'm back! I hope you're well! And thank you so much for reading. The support whilst I was away was amazing and I was shocked by it, so thank you for that too! I hope you enjoyed this one and tell me:

How have you been?