Mcyt -autistic- oneshots

Shut down (Tommy and Ranboo+Tubbo+Wilbur)

A/n Hey. The request for this chapter was: Tommy in shutdown with Ranboo and Tubbo? Like Tommy has a really hard day and goes into shutdown leaving Ranboo and Tubbo to figure out how to help?

Tommy's POV:

The trampoline park vlog was fun. I might have been exhausted afterwards, but it was fun. And the sounds of all the entire place made me feel overwhelmed but yea. George was acting like a kid as per usual, Tubbo was doing tricks but Ranboo made sure to check in on me. Making sure we had breaks at different points. Elodie (my editor) knew that edit out all the parts where someone had to calm me down, or me stimming. They didn't happen a lot, but I didn't want them online. Only my close friends and family knew I was autistic, and even then, I masked so much, that only my parents really saw it all. And I have talked to all my friends about what to do, if I had a meltdown or a sensory overload. But to be honest, when I was around them, I would just go into a shutdown instead of a meltdown. And there isn't much anyone can do for me during a shutdown. I'm kind of left to work it out for myself, and I always do, but it can take hours.

Like I was saying, the vlog was good. Sure, my chest hurt a little from where my heart had been beating so fast the entire time. But I found ways to enjoy it. And Tubbo, Ranboo and George all seemed to enjoy it too. Tubbo was really sarcastic the entire time, and it got to me. It got to me far more than I should have. I couldn't work out his sarcasm and kept thinking he was being serious. I tried not to get upset, but how was I supposed to just continue jumping like nothing had happened. The more he had to explain he was being sarcastic: the more frustrated I got with myself, and the more anxious I became surrounding my social skills. But the vlog was important, so apart from the breaks Ranboo kept getting me to take, I powered on through.

I was exhausted by the time we had finished doing all the courses. On the way back to the train station, in Russ' car, I leant up against the window, and tried to focus on the music playing in my AirPods. I could hear them talking and breathing. And I could hear the tyres on the road, and the engine. Everything was just getting too much, but I couldn't do anything about it. I breathed a sigh of relief when we got to the train station. Then I remembered we were getting on a train, and I tensed up again.

I was going back to Tubbo's to hang out with them for a day or so. But trains were just as loud as cars, if not even louder. And there were more people, and everything was just getting worse by the second. We said bye to Russ and George, which I did force myself to say, because I didn't want it to be awkward. Whilst stood waiting for the train, Tubbo and Ranboo talked to each other. I could see their mouths moving, and hear their voices merging with my music. I couldn't work out what they were saying, but it was loud enough to the point where it could still overwhelm me. I wanted to talk, I wanted to spend time with my friends. But I just couldn't. Going non-verbal sucks, and I knew I was heading straight for a shut down. I was exhausted and overwhelmed, and the day was only going to get worse.

The train pulled into the station, and I sat opposite Ranboo, who had Tubbo sat next to him. I brought my legs up to my chest, and rested my head on them. We had a few hours on this train, at least, and I just wanted everything to stop. 

Ranboo's POV:

Tommy curled up on himself when we got on the train. He had been uncharacteristically quiet since we finished the vlog. And we had to take more breaks than usual. I was pretty sure he was overwhelmed, and I didn't want to bother him by asking him, when I already knew his answer. He was listening to music, and Tommy had always said there wasn't much we could do for shutdowns. I pulled out my phone, and brought up the notes app.

Would you like me to sit next to you? You can lean on me if you like? I won't talk to you, and everything's going to be fine

I put my phone in front of him, and gently tapped his shoulder. I knew to be careful with what I did, because I didn't want to make anything worse. He nodded once he finished reading it. I was going to ask Tubbo if he could move quickly, but when I turned to talk to him, he was asleep. Typical Tubbo, but I couldn't blame him. We were all exhausted. So instead, I had to awkwardly shuffle around Tubbo, and sit myself down next to Tommy. I tapped my shoulder, and he moved his head from his knees and rested it on it. He looked exhausted, which we all were, but he had had to mask.