The friend from Uni.

What?!

I was pacing back and forth in my apartment waiting for the knock at my door.
'He should be here by now. He said he'd be here in 10 minutes, it's been 30 dude! I feel like a fucken parent worried sick about their child. And I fucken know what that's like and this is still somehow worse! I'd call but if he's in danger and then people can use me to hurt him and I don't want that. Oh god this is like the time Spencer thought it was a good idea to get coffee and forgot to leave a note for me on where he went. My god that gave me a fucken heart attack, and Mike did not help calm the situation down.... Or when Shawn had thought it was a good idea to pretend him and Gus were working for George Takei's assistant to get into that fan convention, or when Shawn was going to have us help him get into an outfit designed for a girl while also wearing protective gear at Lassies civil war reenactment. I'm freaking out man! I'm freaking out!'
Before I could get more lost in my thoughts the door was knocked on making me rush to go and open it. Except when I opened it I was greeted by my Aunty.
"Oh it's you."
"Your usually more cheerful seeing me." She told as she came in.
"I am excited to see you Aunty, I really am. But it's not a good time."
"Your boyfriend coming over?"
"No. One of my old work friends."
"You didn't have other people working with you Ash. You owned your own company."
"It's someone that I would work with on cases."
"This the green eyed ex?"
"..... yes. But before you say or think anythin'! We ended off friendly.... 'n he is goin' through some thangs right now and he has no one else to talk to talk to 'bout it. You know how he gets with his emotions Aunty. 'No chick flick moments.'."
"So you want us to talk another time?"
"If possible. You scare him a little.... Only cause you work in an fbi buildin' is all."
"Fine. But I really must talk to you about this soon. It's important we do."
"Cross ma heart and hope to fly!" I told as I began to lead her out of my place.
Just as I opened my door for her to leave, Shotgun was standing there with a duffel bag and with his hand in the air from when he was going to knock.
"I'm not going to get arrested am I?" He asked
"No. I'd never hear the end of it from this one. Besides, legally you are dead so no point." She stated before turning towards me. "Take care Ash."
"Will do Aunty."
"Also no funny business." She told walking away.
"ERIN!"
"I got pie and beer." He told showing the bag he had that I completely missed.
"Oh that's why you were late." I stated as I let him in.
"Yep."
I looked into the hallway expecting his brother to give me a hug only for him to not be anywhere is sight.
"Is Sam still coming up the stairs or somethin'?" I questioned as he put the things down at the small dinner table I had.
"No. He's in a motel room. I decided it would be best if I had one on one time catching up with my favourite gal." He told before coming over to give me a hug and a kiss on the cheek.
'What's happened to you Dean?'
"Dean are you ok?" I asked.
He didn't respond and I could feel his body was shaking as he held onto me, making me hold on to him tighter.
'Jesus this must be real bad.'
"Come on. Let's get you to the couch so we can eat, drink 'n talk." I told pulling away and wiping his eyes from the tears that were forming. "You can even stay in the guest room tonight if it's too tough to talk about today. Ok?"
"Thank you." He quietly told before giving my forehead a kiss.

"So what happened. Tell me everything that you can." I stated.
"So Sam got taken by the yellow eyed Demon. Where he and these other psychic people with powers had to kill one another to lead this army. Sam didn't kill this army dude because it's Sam...."
"He doesn't like killing other people. It's understandable, like how you didn't like me being around when you were arguing with your father or when Sam was arguing with him."
"Exactly. And me and Bobby, we found him. We went rushing to him but that's when the army dude came and stabbed Sam in the back.... He died in my arms."
"But.... But you said Sams at a motel.... You'd tell me if Sam died, you know how much I love and care for him but you didn't and said he's at a motel."
I began to spiral making Dean take my hands into his so I would focus on him.
"Sam isn't dead. I sold my soul to a crossroads demon, and I was given one year on earth for Sam to coming back from the dead."
"You went to hell...." I stated as I recall he said it but I thought it was just something he said to describe a place.
"I went to hell. I was dead for 4 months, but to me it was 40 years."
"Sam didn't tell me you died.... Why would he not tell me you died?" I asked as tears formed on my face.
"He didn't want you to hurt. I was angry he didn't tell you as well when I found out." He explained as he wiped the tears away from my face.
"What happened?" I asked knowing there was more to the story.
"Everyday a demon called Alastair would ask if I'd trade my place for another soul and help torture it. I told him no. Each time I did so, he would chop me up and kill me before putting me back together and did it over and over again. I said no for 30 years, Ash... 30 years of that cycle. It was some of the worst pain I have ever felt."
"You were there for 40 years though Dean.... What happened for the other 10?!"
"I couldn't handle the pain anymore. I couldn't handle it after 30 years. So when he asked me again... I said yes. And he taught me how to torture souls for 10 years.... And I liked it. I liked hurting them." He confessed making me move closer to him and pull him into a hug with his head on my chest as he cried and I knew I was crying as well.
"I'm so sorry you went through that Dean."
"You wanna know the best part about it was?"
"What?" I gently asked making him sit up and look me in the eyes.
"Sam was off getting high off demon blood."
"What?"
"He actually is still getting high off it to help make his psychic powers stronger and allow him to exorcise demons with his mind and do a bunch of other crap."
"He decided it was better to drink demons blood then to fucken give me a call to tell me you were dead?!" I exclaimed standing up.
"Bunny!"
"No no! He knows how much we love and care for one another and how much it hurt when we parted. I had to pretend everything was fine when doing that stupid thing when all I wanted to do was go back to you! And I understand you not wanting to tell me you were dying.... I do. But the fact he didn't call me to tell me you died and instead got high off of blood from demons.... Hurts so fucken much! I mean.... What about Abigail?! She adores you Dean, and what happened if I went to call you so you two could talk only to find out you died and had to tell her through tears you were gone and not coming back?!?!"
"I know Ash. I was going to tell you but I didn't want you to drop everything when you were living your life." He told as he stood from the couch to try and calm me.
"Dean.... I get why you didn't tell me. I would have jumped back into the life to spend every last moment you had together, which isn't what you wanted. I get that. But it hurts me that Sam never thought to fucken call me and tell me you were dead. Who fucken does that?!" I exclaimed as I grabbed the empty beer bottle and threw it to the ground smashing into pieces before falling to the ground to cry. "I thought he cared enough about me to tell me if something went wrong."
He didn't say anything and came and sat next to me, pulling me into a hug.
"I here for you Ash. I'll stay the night so we can catch up with one another." He told as I nodded.
'I'm going to most likely get a noise complaint.'

Before I could settle any more my door was knocked on very loudly making me have Dean hide in my room, incase cops were called. Once he was out of sight and I heard the door lightly shut, I wiped my eyes knowing it wasn't going to make a difference and opened the door. At my door was not the cops but Penelope, Jj, Emily and Derek who was being held back by Spencer who also look pissed.
'Fuck a duck.'
"Guys please. Now is not a good time." I told.
"We heard arguing." Emily stated.
"Oh you've been crying." Penelope told as she reached a little towards me making me pull away.
"I'm fine. Just some personal shit."
"We heard glass breaking." Jj added.
"Empty beer bottle. Was mad so I threw it to the floor myself."
"Spencer I'm beating the hell out of whoever was hurting her!" Derek exclaimed as he pushed past. "Where the hell are you?! No one hurts our girl like this and gets away with it!"
"Derek! It's just me here!"
"There is a bag and food here."
"I'm catching up with a friend who I haven't seen since his father passed away. Shits going on in his life at the moment so I'm here to listen. He realised he forgot to get some drinks for later that weren't alcoholic so he went out to get them as a thank you gift. No one is here." I told.
"You were yelling to someone."
"I was on a phone call from a mate. He told me, he was close to death. And while he was in a 4 month coma, his brother who I treated like one of my brothers and who I love and would protect and give my life to make sure he didn't die, decided it was better to not tell me and instead got high off of some drugs. So yeah I'm pissed off and crying because someone I care for was dying and pretty sure he actually did die for a bit and I wasn't fucken notified! It's why I threw the empty bottle and it's why I've been crying. Hence it not being a good time."
"Ash." Spencer gently spoke before pulling me into a hug. "It's ok. I'm here for you."
"Thanks Spence. But I really want to be alone right now." I told before I gave him the signal that my friend was still over and that I wanted them to all be gone.
"You sure?" He asked pulling away.
"I'm sure."
"Call me if you need me at any time. Ok?"
"Ok. Thank you."
Reluctantly the others all left and I locked the door before heading to my room to see where Dean was. I walked over to my closet and opened it up to see Dean was doing well at hiding in the clothes I had just lying about in there.
"They are gone. But I'd suggest not leaving anytime soon." I stated causing his head to pop up from in the clothes.
"Good thing we agreed I was staying the night." He told giving me his signature smile.
"Good thing indeed. Now I gotta clean up the broken glass before either one of us hurts the other." I told walking away.
"Ash! I might need some help getting out of this!" He exclaimed making me chuckle as I kept walking away. "....BUNNY?!"
'Glad hell didn't fully change him.'