misjudged the notion of love

trying to figure it out

After two weeks, gulf was bent over to breathe and heavily to then straighten up to then eye his wrist, clock to furrow his brow in anger.
Damnit! Why can't I get that time again! I have been doing everything single thing from the last meet and I cant get that.....
Gulf then slowly lowered his arm to shake his head to take in a deep breathe to then start to run again to not to think about mew maybe being the reason.
Going about again, gulf hunched himself over to breathe very heavily, he then looked to his wrist to then sign to then walk over to the grass to then get down to lay to his back to look over the starry night to shake his head back and forth.
That disgusting piece of shit it not the cause of me being able to she'll off those 2 seconds!
Gulf then rolled to his side to dart his eyes trying to deeply think, to grit his teeth, he had done everything right since the last meet, every single thing, he then groaned to sit to stare at the grass..
You..... Haven't had sex with.....
Gulf immediately got up to then run again.
Trying to get to that time again and also trying to out run his thoughts.
Hunched over and shaking a bit, he looked to his clock to sign.
"Fuck!"
He then rolled his eyes to then strightened up to head to his car, to then get in to slam the door to take in a deep breathe.
"He is not the cause! Maybe.....I need to...... Empty my...."
Gulf raised an eye brow to then reverse the car to then go to his home, going in, he then went to his kitchen to go to his cabinet to then grab a cup to then turn to place it under the water to fill to take, to then go about to sit where his computer to then place the cup to the desk to then look about.
His ears turned red when he went to a site, to then look up how favorite porn, it was the only thing that really got him through his early years and now has he planned to just stay alone.
Gulf took in a deep breathe to lower the volume to then lean into the chair to then take a hand down to move his member out to then stroke has he watched and heard the moans.
Gulf then bit into his bottom lip has the scene started to get more intense, he started to breathe hectically.
"Ah faaaa......nnn..... Take that big cock! Aaah.... Take it hard......ah you know you like it you little....nn.... Little....aaah!"
Gulf then leaned his head back to climax has the two guys did on the screen.
Gulf breathed shaikly to then reach over to his tissues to then clean himself to then shut of the computer to then get up to go to his bathroom to take off his clothes to then go in to let the warm water fall through him to take in deep breathes.
Please...... Please..... Let this be it.....I have my meet tomorrow, have to try and get this same time......
Gulf took in a deep breathe to then clean himself to then get out to leave to go to bed to lay to his side to sign, closing his eyes hoping this was it.
The next day at the track meet, gulf was doing the same stretches and high jumps to get him limbered to then go to the starting point to then look up to the stands to give a small smirk to then raise his hand up to wave.
Kirka was there, alone, looking to gulf to clap.
After the other meet, gulf really gave the two what for, then later mew really laid it to kirka, thus the two didn't meet after work for the last two weeks, they mainly stayed away from the other, mew was beyond livid.
Gulf then slowly took his hand down to then go into position, to then raise his butt up to take in a deep breathe.
He then ran to be to the finish line to hunch himself over to breathe heavily.
Gulf then straightened up to eye the man to make a face.
He still won, but did not shell off anything.
After, gulf went to kirka who had a giant smile to his face to then walk to gulf who had a bag to his shoulder to then wrap an arm about to then pull him along.
"Congratulations, I am so proud of you little brother! You won!"
Gulf took in a deep breathe to then shrug.
Kirka really eyed him.
"How are you not happy about this? You haven't lost a meet yet."
They stopped for gulf to turn his head to fully eye.
"I need to be better, if not I will never ever achieve my dream."
Kirka nodded.
"I know, you want to run in the Olympics, I know gulf, just keep doing whatever you did to accomplish what you did last time."
Gulfs lips parted to then sigh heavily
He then shook kirka off to then go forth.
I don't really want to try that though! I don't want to be anywhere near that raping son of a bitch!
Kirka watched gulf go to sign.
My best friend wants nothing to do with me and my brother is having a hard time, always in the middle.
Kirka then went forward to go to his car with gulf to the passenger side to take in a deep breathe.
"Listen gulf, Maybe what you need is some....."
Gulf gritted his teeth harder to then sign heavily to interrupt kirka to ask him a question he thought he never would before.
To his apartment, mew was sitting down in front of his television to then sip at his beer to then take it down to sign, he was missing kirka, however what happened last time and his betrayal, mew knew he needed to stay away from him.
Going up a bit, mew then turned his head to look at the back of the door, has he heard the door bell.
He took in a deep breathe to then take a large sip of his drink too then get up to then go to the door to answer to believe it was kirka who had been coming every night to apologize.
Mew lowered his eyes to look to the nob to open.
"Listen Kirka, I just need some time...."
Hearing nothing, mew furrowed his brow confused to then slowly peer his eyes up to widened them to who he was looking at.
"Gulf? What in the hell are you doing here?"
Gulf with his arms wrapped about himself took in a deep breathe to gulp.
"We..... Need to talk!" He said through gritted teeth.
Mew raised an eye brow.
This should be real interesting.