misjudged the notion of love

can't tell yet if this is a good thing

Taking in a deep breathe, mew smacked his lips to then slowly open his eyes to awake to his back, turning his head he then looked to gulf who was sleeping soundly to his side taking in deep breathes.
Mews eyes then widened to then get up and quick, to sit to breathe heavily to look about the darkened room, to then gulp has things perviously started to come back into his mind, he then placed his hands to his forehead to then take in a long breathe.
Feeling the bed shake, gulf furrowed his brow to then slowly open his eyes, to then look up to see mew there to then freeze, has things perviously was to be coming to his mind has well.
Mew then moved his hand down to place behind him to then look to gulf for the other to stare at the other.
Mew then gritted his teeth to turn his head to the other side to then dart his eyes about to then turn his head forward to then start to get off the bed, when the silence started to become to much for him.
Gulf looked to the emptyness to then start to breathe heavily. He then got quickly up to then sit to eye mew who was sitting to the edge, to hang his head to look down to try and find his clothes.
"W..... Where are you going?"
Mew took in a deep breathe to grit his teeth.
"I...... Think I should leave."
Gulfs lips parted to then look down to take in a shaky breathe. He then peered his eyes to the side has the tears started to well up.
"So...... Everything that um..... I'm guessing it was a lie then mew....."
Mews eyes widened to then turn his head to look back.
"I..... Didn't say that but......I think you and I need time apart to..... Really give this some thought and....."
Gulf gritted his teeth.
"Just go."
Mew signed.
"Gulf....... Right now we really need to....."
Gulf shook his head to then grab at the blanket to then cover his lower to then move his legs to his chest to wrap his arms about to keep his head turned to the side, for he knew if he looked to mew he would cry.
"I want you to just get out mew."
Mew made a face to then turn to then hang his head once more to look down in sadness.
"Gulf, you and I are feeling a lot of things and......"
Mew then rolled his eyes to then squeeze them tightly shut to then shake his head.
"Damnit, don't cry!"
Gulf moved his head back to then look to mew to breathe in shaikly.
"Ex..... Excuse me?"
Mew then turned to then crawl to gulf to then eye him to place his hands to either side of his head to then move it up, he then placed his thumbs under his eyes to then wipe away the tears that spilled over..
"I know when others are crying gulf and are holding back, I'm an expert on it."
Gulfs eyes darted to then push mew back to then lay to his other side back to him.
"Do not worry about me, just go, I..... Can't do this arrangement anymore not with how I'm feeling...... So just go mew!" Gulf lightly shouted.
Mew started to breathe heavily has he looked over gulf, he then made a pucker face to then place his hand to gulfs body to then turn him over, to then take the blanket down and away to then wrap his hands to his wrists to then place them too either side to dart his eyes over his face.
"Why can't you just let me leave, so you and I can really think about what has happened and has been said!"
"Because I am sick of being alone! Aren't you?!"
Mews lips parted to then look down.
"Is that why you said what you did, it's because you feel alone?"
Gulf rolled his eyes.
"I told you why I felt that and your questioning it, really mew? Fuck, just let go and go away!"
Mew then held onto him harder, to then start to breathe rapidly.
"Your a prick gulf?"
Gulf scoffed to then eye him directly.
"Your an asshole! We both said we love the other and your just running away, some older you are! Just let me go and leave!"
"Damnit gulf, I'm only 5 years older I don't have all the answers! I also never ever wanted to fall in love again and yet here we are you little....."
Mews eyes widened has he felt those warm lips to his. Gulf had leaned up to place his upon, he then moved back down to breathe heavily has he eyed mew.
"I..... Never thought in a million years I would either mew, especially with what has been occuring with us, but.....I do......I..... Love you, but you can't just run away from this, or me and....."
Gulfs eyes widened has mew went down to give him a deep kiss to then move his hands up to place his fingers through Gulfs, he couldn't help it.
Gulf closed his eyes to then let the kiss intensify, after a very sweet and glorious round, mew was to his back again, eyes closed, to have gulf upon him to have a hand to his head to lightly stroke his hair.
Gulf shuffled his head up and down that bare chest to then slowly open his eyes to then take a hand up to place two fingers to a scar to then trace it has he eyed.
Mew couldn't help but to coo, gulf was the only person he had ever let see his true self.
"So...... What is going to happen now mew?"
"Mm......I..... Don't know......"
Gulf signed.
"Are we...... Going to...... Become boyfriend's?"
Mew slowly opened his eyes to look across the way.
"I'm..... The older, think I'm suppose to be asking that."
Gulf lightly chuckled to then move his head to look up.
"Then do it."
Mew then looked to gulf..
"You don't want me has a boyfriend gulf."
Gulf shrugged to then look to the scar to then go to it to start to kiss them lick.
Mews body bucked for him to take in a deep breathe.
"I believe I do, or I wouldn't be bringing it up now would I."
Mew looked to the ceiling has he felt gulf go about to then start to kiss and lick his body, especially the scars.
"Let's...... Just take it slow gulf, no labels..... Not right now o......nn!"
Mew then looked down to furrow his brow a bit
Gulf had nipped a bit to hard to then lean up to give mew quite the glare.
"So, we will just stay to this arrangement, to where I keep feeling like I'm your personal......mm..... To do what you please for you to tell me you love me to then just leave?"
Mew signed.
"I really don't know gulf, this is all new to me has it is for you and....."
Gulf then sat up, to then spit to his hand to then lather mews hardened member to then slowly place it inside himself, just like mew had taught him, to fully take, to then twitch a bit to then grab mews hands to hold to start to grind, mew moaned to then lift his head back has he felt his cock in that unbelievable tight ass.
"Mmm.... Damn gulf!"
Gulf lifted his head back a bit to smile, he loved mews encouragement.
"Then mew.....mm.....will you at least.....aah.... Move in with me?"
Mew hung his head to eye a bit in surprise and shock.
"What..... What did you....."