misjudged the notion of love

alone to think

Shuffling his head up and down, gulf felt the coldness of the bed to then turn about, full n his stomach to his side to then move his hand up and down to then slowly open his eyes to then feel a piece of paper.
Moving up he then grabbed it to eye..
Gulf, I needed to go to work, I did turn off your alarm so you can sleep, I will be back after.
Gulf smiled a bit to then take in a deep breathe to then go to his back to look to the ceiling to then dart his eyes over it while he placed that note to his stomach, he then signed has he felt a growl.
Getting up he then placed the piece of paper to the side to then go to his bathroom to relieve himself to then go about to go straight to the kitchen to then start on some breakfest.
He eyed down to then mix things about, to then start to chew at his inner cheek.
Once the food was done he then plated to go to the table to sit to then eye the food to take in a very deep breathe.
So......mew and you are dating and he is going to come back after work.
Gulf darted his eyes to then take a hand to a piece of food to then start to make it crumble to then eye the pieces.
So.....I don't see him has my rapist, I don't see him has a bad person, I do see him has a friend and someone I have fallen in love with.....
Gulf then leaned back to then wrap his arms about to keep staring at the food to think about everything that had occured between them.
Does he really love you though gulf? Is it just because of the sex? You are apperently unusual in your ass and mouth so...... Could that be the reason he is doing this? Eventually I am going to go to the Olympics, should I wait after that? Should I tell him no more sex until I know for a fact he loves me?
Gulf took in a deep breathe to slightly shake his head.
No...... But do I love him because of that part? Gulf shook his head to then reach a hand over to grab a fork to then dig in to stab his food to then place in his mouth to chew a bit irritated with himself.
I know when I fell for him, it was when he opened up and told me about his life, I fell and harder when he should me his scars. Mm, has he shown those to my brother? Told him about it? How important am I to him?
Gulf stabbed more for to then place to his mouth to chew and a bit hard.
Damnit! I didn't want to fall in love again! Didn't want to really think of another in this way!
Gulf then turned his head to eye the clock to watch the minute hand go about to then nod.
A few hours left..... Will he come back?
I honestly don't know, I also don't know what to do about my brother.
Gulf slowly turned his head back to the food.
What is kirka going to think about this? He accepts mew but what about me? Ugh, if we tell him I may have to tell my team and could I kiss the Olympics good bye?
Mew, your right, I didn't really think everything through, I just want you to be here and be with me.
Gulf made a face.
When did I get like this? So dependant? I'm like a whining little girl.
Ugh!
Gulf then ate all his food to then get up. Hi to his bedroom to then down on some clothes to then go to the cloest to then grab a bag to then go about to do what he always had done and that was too go to the track and run from what he was too be thinking.
To the field, gulf was hunched over with his hands to his legs to then breathe and heavily to then straighten up to look forward.
Am I.....running faster? Feels like it..... How many seconds am I going to shell off now? Will I since my routine has been disrupted?
Gulf turned his head to then go to the bench to then grab his water bottle out of his bag to then take it to his mouth to then down the water, to then bring up his wrist to then widened his eyes has he looked to the time.
He then placed his water bottle away to then grab his bag to then turn and run has if he didn't just do a few laps.
Before his door, gulf was breathing heavily to then open it and quick to then go inside to then place his bag to the bed to then hop in the shower to take a very quick one.
After, he then dressed in comfy clothes to then look to the wall, his face faltered a bit.
He's..... Late......I don't think he is going to come.
Gulf took in a very deep and sorrowful breathe to then widened his eyes to then look to the back of his for when he heard a few knocks.
Gulf couldn't help but to rush to the door.
Opening it in haste, he then looked over mew who smiled at him to hold up a suite case.
"Sorry I'm late, needed to go home and get a few things if you were to be serious I could bring some."
Gulf looked to the suit case to then look to him to then step forward to then wrap his arms about his neck to then place his lips to his for a very deep kiss.
He then furrowed his brow.
Damnit! I feel in love with mew...... So very hard.
Moving there heads back and forth, mew then placed his head back to really eye him.
"I would love to keep, but I missed lunch, let's make something together?"
Gulf looked mew up and down to then let him go, to then turn to be stop, he looked to the ground confused, to then turn his head to look back to see mew with his free hand placed his fingers through his. Gulf then slowly looked up to part his lips.
"We're...... Dating right gulf?"
Gulf then pulled mew in so they could make something and fast, because he wanted him so very much.