misjudged the notion of love

now it's our time

Gulf and tiru looked to the ground away from the other not really knowing what to say or do.
Tiru gulped to then turn his head.
"Maybe..... It's just not our time to talk, we can go back and say we did....."
Gulf signed..
"I don't lie to mew."
Tiru nodded.
"I don't lie to kirka, was merely a suggestion, since we're not really talking."
Gulf then wrapped his arms about.
"Well..... Let's start at the beginning, I..... Was a bit in shock that one night and......I do need to know, how much you had taken part in what happened."
Tiru took in a very deep breathe to then go back to sit to the edge of the bed to then look down.
"What happened was this, mew saw I didn't have love in my eyes when he saw us that one night in the kitchen, we talked, I told him everything, told him I didn't want to ruin our friendship."
Gulf took in a very deep breathe.
"Then..... What were we? Did you just lead me on? We're you into my brother? We're you just using me to get to him?"
Tiru made a face.
"Honest?"
Gulf slowly looked up.
"You owe me that."
Tiru looked up with a sullen face.
"I did have feelings for you. But once I met your brother, they just werent strong anymore and then when you wanted to lose our virginitys together and you said you loved me....... I'm sorry gulf, I handled everything wrong."
Gulfs whole body shuttered to look back to the ground.
"Did you also know what mew was going to do that one night?"
Tiru shook his head.
"I honestly didn't. He said he was just going to talk, make sure we were going to stay friends. If I had known, I swear it would never have happened."
Gulf signed to keep looking to the floor.
"What..... Does my brother have the I don't?"
Tiru widened his eyes to look to gulf.
"Please don't tell me your still in love with me? You have mew and...."
Gulf looked up to roll his eyes.
"I don't, the only person I love is mew, I know now what I had for you was infatuation. It....... You were the first I felt those feelings for. It.... Still hurts."
Tiru made a sullen face to look down.
"I felt those feelings for you once gulf, especially with how you used to smile in high school and was always there to aide me. However, that one day you introduced me to your brother, I..... Honestly can't describe it. And now he is wanting to one day have 4 to 5 kids, that's a lot."
Gulf lightly chuckled to then go to tiru to sit right next to him to continue to eye the ground.
"He has always wanted a big family, still can't believe you two are talking about kids, haven't even dated that long."
Tiru nodded to then turn his head to eye gulf.
"Mm.... It's because we're thinking about our future, I'll give in though, it's because I love him, but gulf, can I ask you something?"
Gulf turned his head to eye.
"Mm.."
"How did you and mew get over what happened to be dating now?"
Gulf shrugged to look forward.
"Time and patience, hated grew to love, and now I can't imagine a life without him."
"But gulf, he did rape you."
Gulf made a hard face.
"I...... When I think about that day, there were times I really could have gotten out of it but never did, my body seemed to know what it wanted, even then. Something I won't really admit to him but, I am happy he did that for me, I don't regret it."
Tiru looked him up and down, to then lean his head back has gulf looked to him.
"I.... Do need to apologize to you, never should have made a big deal when you came out, especially when I told those one boys. I really do feel bad about that."
Tiru took in a deep breathe to nod..
"I do feel partly responsible for what mew did. Kept me a virgin for your brother though." Tiru lightly chuckled.
Gulf joined in.
"I guess you and I are with who were suppose to be with. You love my brother and I love mew. Mmm, why didn't you ever tell me or him sooner?"
"Embarrassment, also just like your mother, I believe kirka and mew were dating."
Gulf rolled his eyes to then look forward..
"Kirka did have feelings for mew......."
Tiru signed to look forward.
"Still hate that...... But you had feelings for me, kirka knows that. We're all in a very odd situation, but has you said we all love the other so..... That's life. We just..... Need to try and move on, can we?"
Gulf took in a very deep breathe to then look back at tiru.
"I.... Don't know if I want to be your friend again."
Tiru Took in a deep to then look forward.
"I..... Can understand that."
Gulf looked him up and down to then look forward.
"Guess will just have to see."
Tiru nodded, the two then looked up to see mew and kirka come in.
"Did you two talk?" Mew asked.
The two looked at the other.
"That we did." Tiru stated.
Gulfs eyes darted over tiru to then get up to go to mew to then place his hand to his to smile.
"Let's go."
Mew nodded to then turn with gulf to then leave, kirka watched them go to then eye tiru to then go and sit where gulf had to eye.
"Is everything okay?"
Tiru took in a deep breathe to then turn to the side to then wrap his arms about to hold him close.
"Think I've lost being friends with him but.....I do have you."
Kirka then wrapped his arms about to hold and tight to close his eyes.
For now my tiru, if you want you two to be friends, I'll try to make it happen, I don't want you or my brother to be sad.
Kirka took in a deep breathe to then make a face, him and gulf still needed to talk.