misjudged the notion of love

can't believe this

Going home, gulf placed himself to the door to hang his head to take in deep breathes, he couldn't fathom what he just heard.
Tiru.... And..... My brother? How did that happen? Why did that have to happen? Why did my brother and him.....
Gulf closed his eyes, he couldn't help but to shed a few tears, tiru was his first love and how everything went about this really did hurt him and to his core.
Gulf then took in a deep breathe to then take his shoes off to then go forth to crawl right into bed to then grab a pillow to place under his face to scream a bit into it. He couldn't believe this was happening.
Tensing he heard a knock to his door.
Groaning he then turned to his back to then look down.
Making a face he then got up to go to the door to place his forehead to it.
"Mew......I need some time."
"Gulf, please open the door, I only found out about it when we talked, I didn't...."
Gulf signed.
"Mew..... Please go home. I want to be alone."
"Gulf, we need to really talk. Please open the door."
Gulf flexed his jaw to then do just that to then go back to the bed to sit criss cross to have a pillow crushed to himself to look forward to take in very deep breathes.
Mew slowly opened the door to then go in with his head hung to then take off his shoes to go forth to then look to gulf.
"We really need to talk this through."
Gulf gripped the pillow.
"I really want to be alone."
Mew flexed his jaw to look down.
"I know but......I don't want you to be alone especially with what you just heard."
Gulf made a hard face to close his eyes.
"Did..... Did he tell you how it happened?"
"He was drunk gulf, went to where we grew up, ran into him and...... One thing lead to another."
Gulf shook his head.
"Can't believe this is happening and with tiru of all people!" He said through gritted teeth.
Mew made a face to look down.
"Mm......I know you wanted your first time to be with tiru and not me, I can understand why this is......"
Gulf opened his eyes to then turn his head to look to mew.
"This is hurting me because he was my first love mew, he didn't want me and I was such an asshole to him and now my family has drug him down even more!"
Gulf then threw the pillow at mew for him to instantly catch it to look to him with widened eyes has he went to his knees to watch gulf breathe heavily..
"Also even though it was...... In the way it happened, I'm happy I lost my virginity to you and not to him, because I know tiru did not love me! But for him to lose his in that way and to my brother, I can't help but to feel bad....."
Gulf then went into his knees to bring up his hands to then cry into them.
Mew placed the pillow down to then go to gulf to wrap his arms about to give him a tight hug.
Gulf moved his hands away to then cry onto his shirt to then wrap his arms about to grip his back.
"I hate my brother!"
Mew placed a hand to gulfs head to stroke to shush him.
"Shh......shh.... This is just a messed up situation, we will get through it......"
Gulf took in deep breathes.
"I'm happy you came mew......I love you."
Mew smiled a bit to then lean his head back to place a kiss to his forehead to then hug him close once more.
"Knew my man needed me, I'm not going anywhere gulf."
Gulf then moved his head up to place his lips to mews for a crushing kiss.
He then placed his hands to his neck to then pull him down needing a lot more.
After, mew was to his back with his eyes closed to stroke gulfs head has he laid to his body to take in content breathes to move his head up and down has he listened to his heart.
"Mew?"
"Mm?"
"What are we going to do about this?"
"Well..... It's done, there's nothing we really can do, eventually we all need to sit down and talk, but we need to give him time."
"Mm.....I..... Need to..... Call tiru."
Mew slowly opened his eyes to look forward.
"Gulf?"
"Yes?"
"Do you..... Still love him?"
Gulf took in a deep breathe to then open his eyes to then look up.
"I will always feel something for him, I'm sure you still feel something for your first love."
Mew made a face to then nod.
Gulf then manuvered himself to then lay upon mew to move his head down to then move his lips about his chest.
"I don't love him mew I did when I was young, but the person who has my heart is right here."
Mew couldn't help but to smile wide to then place his hands to his face to then move his head up to stare intently.
"You have mine has well. Please for me, can we give kirka time before we try to talk to him, can you please not call your ex until we talk to him?"
Gulf stopped kissing to they look up to raise an eye brow.
"I am thinking I'm picking up some jealousy."
Mew nodded to move his head forward to place his mouth to his.
"Of course. I really do wish we were others first loves so we wouldn't be dealing with this." He said between kisses.
"Mm, may not be the others first, but can be the others lasts."
Mew then moved them about to lay upon to keep kissing..
"Sounds like a great plan to me."
Mew then moved his hands down to open gulfs legs to then re connect them to thrust deep and hard blissfully.