misjudged the notion of love

I was thinking......

Taking a deep breathe, gulf slowly opened his eyes to look across the way to his curtained closed sliding glass doors, to move his head up and down has he was too his side, to then move about to his other, to then look at mew, who was to his back, head turned to the other side to breathe in and out slowly still to be deep sleep.
Gulf then eyed him up and down to then look up a hand that was too his stomach to fully look at it, it was where he has those two numb fingers.
Gulf then slowly brought up his hand to place to mews to cover, to then look quickly up.
Mew took an quick intake of breathe but did not wake.
Gulf then retracted his hand to then turn to his back to look to the ceiling to start to really think, after what mew had said to him last night, it resonated with him, also made him feel like the jackass, rather to what mew had done to him in the past, for mew to take on what he did in almost silence, his character spoke volumes to him.
Gulping, gulf turned his head to see mew toss to his side to groan, he reached his hand out to turn off gulfs alarm to then place his hands under his head to keep his eyes closed, he felt very tired.
Gulf then sat up to sign a bit.
"Mew?"
Mew signed heavily.
"Why do you have to get up so early?" He groaned a bit.
"It's part of my routine."
"Sucky routine. Maybe you would do better if you slept in."
Mew then turned to yawn to then slowly move up to sit to place his hands to his eyes to rub, gulf tilted his head to the side to watch, he then saw him to get off the bed to stretch to then bend over to gather his clothes to then start to get dressed.
Gulf then pulled his legs to his chest to take in a deep breathe to then eye down.
Mew got his pants on to then place his shirt about to then button to have his head hung.
"Gulf?"
Gulf looked to mews back.
"Yes?"
"Now, this is a compliant, so don't throw a fit, but your mouth really is something."
Gulf rolled his eyes has mew started to chuckle a bit.
Gulf then let his legs go to then edge to then place his hands to it also to grip has he looked down, he thought about something and he wanted to implement.
"Um mew?"
Mew kept his head hung to keep buttoning his shirt.
"Mm?"
Gulf took in a deep breathe.
"I..... Want us to stop having..... Sex."
Mew stopped to the last button to then look up to dart his eyes a bit confused.
"Excuse me?"
"With what you told me.... Last night, I have been thinking a bit about it this morning and...... Until my next meet, I don't want that of you, I..... Was wondering if..... You could be here..... Um.... Everyday after work, and we can just.... Talk?"
Mew furrowed his brow to then turn to eye gulf.
"Why?"
Gulf signed to then look up at mew.
"Just...... Want to know you a bit more."
Mew raised an eye brow.
"But why?"
Gulf shrugged to then look back down.
"I'm..... Curious, also my brother knows all of this and I....."
Mew signed to then look to the floor.
"Thought with this arrangement, it was only to be about the..... Sex gulf, why are you wanting to know more?"
Gulf shrugged.
"You once said you wanted to do something nice for kirka, well, the way you went about it, was wrong so too make up for it, just do this."
Mew looked to gulf to then shrug.
"Guess.....I can be here everyday after work, so we can I guess talk and know the other better, if that is what you are really wanting."
Gulf nodded to then turn his head to look to the wall.
Why am I wanting this?
He signed to not really know.
Mew then eyed gulf over to then turn, gulf turned his head to watch him go.
"Well, Im still very tired and I want to go home since you have your strict routine."
Gulf widened his eyes to then get up to follow.
"So....."
Mew went to the door to place on his shoes.
"So after your meet, I'll start to come over I guess."
Gulfs eyes darted.
"Are you.... Going to come to my meet?"
Mew widened his eyes to hear a bit of desperation.
"Mm, will see."
Gulf took in a deep breathe to nod.
Mew then placed his shoes on to then turn to chuckle a bit, good furrowed his brow to then raise an eye brow..
"Why are you laughing?"
Mew then slowly peered his eyes down to smile and wide..
"Seems someone is happy."
Gulf looked to mew confused to then look down to widen his eyes to then turn to run to his bed to cover his erection to breathe heavily.
Mew laughed again to then turn to leave.
"See you later gulf, think of me when you take care of that."
"Screw you!" He shouted.
Mew laughed again to then close the door behind him to look to the floor to grit his teeth.
Why is gulf wanting to know more about me? Is it out of pity for what I let out of my mouth yesterday?
Mew signed to then leave, he never wanted Pity, not from anyone.
To his bed, gulf then flopped to his back to look to his ceiling to then shake his head.
Why am I wanting to know more about him? Well, I guess I don't hate him has much has I used to and from what he told me, I feel he said it in confidence, maybe the two of us can be friends after all of this, mew he really isn't a bad person, an asshole at times yes and yes he did rape me to my first time but he did do it when he heard from....
Gulf groaned to then get up quick to then go to his kitchen to start on his health shake before he was too get dressed and go to the field.
Gulf did what he has always had done when he didn't want to think, to stick to his routine to then run it out and quick.