misjudged the notion of love

both to think the same but to act differently

After getting the 3rd degree from kirka when mew finally was able to show up for work, he was before his computer to look at the screen to take in deep breathes, he couldn't stop to think about everything that had gone down with gulf.
Can't believe I showed him my actually body with all of my, can't believe I told him. Kirka yes knows but not to this extent. Damnit what is happening? This is not right! We can not get close! He is just using you for your cock to get to the Olympics and then that is that, even if you two were growing a bit a deeper connection to maybe become friends after this but......
Mew then closed his eyes to ball his hands into fists, he had to many thoughts going through his head.
Taking a long deep breathe he then slowly opened his eyes to look to the computer.
Why did I show him my body? Why did I tell him about my father? Why did I tell him things that I haven't even told kirka?
Mews eyes slowly widened to then shake his head.
No...... No no no no no! It can't be what I think it could be? Fuck no! I don't believe in love! I did when I was with my first but after what he did, I don't believe in that messed up emotion! Every one uses the other for selfish reasons and gulf is one of them!
Mew the turned his head to fume a bit to eye his clock.
After work, I'll go to your place gulf, to end this and for good!
Mew gritted his teeth to then start to get back to work even though for reasons he didn't want to think about, his heart started to sink with that plan.
To gulf, he was too his kitchen, dressed and showered, to hang his head to then chop the vegetables to then chew at his inner cheek to question everything that had been happening for the last few hours to sign.
He then placed the blade into the chopping block to then scoop the vegetables to then place the bits to the pan to then start to move them about to cook.
What is the matter with me? What is going on? Why did I kiss him? Why did I show him all of me when tiru begged me so bad when we were going out? Gulf made a face to shake his head a bit has he stirred the vegetables about.
Could it be pity? Mm.... No.....I have to be honest with myself I feel nothing but worry and concern for him, and I feel horrible that I didn't know any of that or even tried to.
He would always try to get out going to the beach with us, wouldn't take showers at our home, never really took off his shirt, the signs were there and I was just being so self involved.
Gulf signed to then move the pan to then plate to then place the vegetables upon the meat that was cooked to then turn to place everything to the sink to then take the plate to then go to the table to sit to eye, to then pick about.
Back then I was nothing but a teenager under his first loves curse to then go through what I did, but even before tiru I never really gave why mew was always coming over any real thought, I just always envied him for having the balls to come out and be who he truly was and not to hide like I did, that's why I was always so aweful to him, now I can understand why he always was like that right back at me, I really am a snot nosed brat.
Gulf signed to then place the fork to the side to then place his hands to the back of his neck to hang his head a bit to look down.
Whatever that is going on has to stop. Going to the Olympics maybe my dream but I can't keep doing this when it's making me feel a way that I really can't understand right now.
If he comes over, I am going to end it.
Gulf took in a deep breathe to then grab his fork to then dig in has his heart started to fall.
After he ate, before he could get up to take the dishes away, he turned his head to hear his door.
Turning his head the other way, it was 8.
Gulf made a face, has did mew to the outside of the door, the two were thinking the same thing, this needs to end.
Outside the door, mew had his head hung to breathe in deep.
Gulf, I am sorry, but I cannot help you anymore and we need to end this and now.
Mew nodded.
He had been practicing what he needed to say all afternoon.
Looking up, mews eyes widened has the door opened, gulf was there to breathe heavily, has he got up, he couldn't help but run to the door, even though he knew he needed to end this.
The two looked at the other, the thoughts of ending this was not there.
Gulfs eyes then darted a bit quicker to then let go of the door to then rush a bit to mew to then jump, mew immediately wrapped his arms about, to then place his hands into his sweatpants to then grip at his cheeks has gulf had wrapped his arms about his neck to then have placed his mouth to his for a very deep kiss, gulf couldn't help it, he missed mew even though they were only apart for a few hours, and the mere thought of ending this that plagued his mind still was making gulf want mew and bad.
Mew moved his mouth with Gulfs to then step forward to take them in to then lift up his foot to then kick the door closed, gulf then started to move up and down has mew then took them to bed.
Flopping gulf down, they're lips stayed to the other has mew moved his body a bit from his has gulfs hands went to his belt to undo has mews hands went to Gulfs sweat pants to pull down.
Mew then wrapped his hands to his Wrists to then place to either side of gulfs head to lay his very hard length to his to then thrust upon has the two didn't leave the others mouth to kiss widly.
Mew then moved Gulfs hands into one above his head to then leave those sweet lips to then move to his chin to place a kiss upon to then go to his neck to leave more, gulf turned his head to curl his bottom lip inward to then bite into it has he moaned.
Mew then went lower to lift up gulfs shirt to then nibble a bit to his chest to then go to his nipple to then suck, Gulfs body bucked from the extreme pleasure.
"Ah mew.....mm...... Why are you....nn..... Just put it in....."
Mew stopped sucking to then place his lower lip to the nipple to move it about.
"No.......I want to devour you, want to give you so much pleasure.....mm.... Want all of you."
Gulfs eyes opened to then smile and wide, no one had ever said that to him.
Being able to get out of his grasp, gulf then placed his hands to mews upper shoulders to then push him up to then place his hands to his shirt to open wide to then look about to place his fingers to a scar.
"You..... Didn't place any make up on did you?"
Mews lips parted has he looked down to shake his head.
"No."
Gulf then placed his hands to his waist to then move up to place his lips to a scar to close his eyes.
"Mmm......I want to devour you has well, I want all of you."
Mew lifted his head back to then go to his knees has gulf went further down to then place his length in to then suck, mew couldn't help to place gulf to his back to then tower over to then thrust fully in having his whole cock into that mouth to moan and loud in pure Bliss.
"Ah god gulf! All your holes are just so incredible!"
Gulf looked up to mew to then close his eyes to give him everything he had, he loved new encouragement.
Mew then thought of something, he then took his cock out to stand to take off his clothes.
"Take off your clothes gulf."
Gulf nodded to then do that, to then see mew turn about.
"What are you doing?"
Mew lightly chuckled.
"69."
Gulf raised an eye brow.
"What is that?"
Mew chuckled again to then place his tip to his mouth.
"I am going to teach you so many things gulf, would help if you didn't watch such basic porn."
Gulf rolled his eyes.
"Don't make fun of....."
Mew then placed himself in to then grab ahold of gulf.
"I'm not."
Lick.
Gulfs whole body quivered.
"Yourll just learn a bit of new things from me, that's all."
Mew then swallowed gulf, for them both to then thrust and deep into the others mouths to then climax.
Gulf twitched has mew took his mouth off his cock to then go to the side to breathe heavily.
"You suck so very well gulf, no gag reflex is...."
Before mew could finish gulf then pounced to place his lips to his once more to then reconnect them to ride mew into another climax.
A bit later, gulf had his eyes closed to have mew on top of him, stroking his hair with a smile to there faces.
Mew then shuffled a bit.
"Mm.....I think I should go to the couch."
Gulfs lips turned down.
"Why?"
Mew then moved his head to look up.
"I'm sure you know why."
Gulf shook his head to turn it to start to drift.
"I'm cold..... The new couch isn't has comfortable has me and my bed, just stay here....."
Mews eyes darted over gulf to then move his head to the side to then close his eyes to then fall under gulfs warmth.