misjudged the notion of love

that is quite something

Widening his eyes, mew looked over kirka who had his head hung, hands over the back of it to shake here and there to quiver.
Mew then turned his head to make a face.
"So..... Okay... Um...... So from what I am getting from this, you stayed a virgin for me, your in love with me, you went to our home town, got drunk then had sex with Gulfs first love for revenge?"
Kirka gritted his teeth, he felt like a real bastard.
"Uh huh...... When I woke on top of him..... He was dead asleep, I couldn't remember a bit towards the end, but when I.... Um.... Pulled out, I could see I really.... God I am such an asshole."
Mew turned his head to eye.
"Did he bleed?"
Kirka signed to move his hands away to look up to motion for another drink, the bartender eyed to then go over to pour him another shot to then go away, kirka looked soberly down at it.
"He was very red..... Didn't see any blood....a person's first time shouldn't be that way......"
Kirkas chin started to quiver.
Mews face fell to then place his hand to kirkas back to move it up and down.
Kirka signed.
"I should have told you a long time ago that I had feelings for you, that I loved you and I was just trying to be patient since what you went through with your father."
Mew flexed his jaw to then look down.
"You were really good at hiding it, never ever thought you had feelings for me but kirka, I have never ever seen you in such a light like that, you have always been my best friend and now...."
Kirka then shrugged his body to get mews hand of it, mew then took his hand away to continue to eye.
"Are you really in love with my brother? Is he really gay? When did this all start?"
Mew made a face to then turn to eye forward to not really know what to say.
Kirka turned his head to eye.
"I want the truth mew. You owe me."
Mew signed to then bring up his hands to cup them before his face.
"Your brother was closeted, that's why he was such an asshole to me, he experimented a bit with tiru but I found out tiru never loved him but wanted to be friends so...... When you suggested Way back when to be nice to him I......."
Mews eyes darted.
Should I really tell him the actual truth?
Kirka turned to fully eye .
"Mew?"
Mew signed.
"Well.....I went to gulf told him I knew tiru did not love him and...... We..... When he was 16."
Kirkas eyes widened.
"What the fuck is the matter with you! You were 21 that's rape!"
Mew gritted his teeth.
"It was......" Mew gulped and hard..
"Consensual."
Kirka rolled his eyes to then turn to look forward..
"Mm..... Now I can understand why he turned from a happy kid to a depressed one, can't believe you allowed that."
"I just wanted to help, however since it was not in love, we stayed away from the other then when he turned 21 and I took him home, one thing lead to another and now...."
Kirka signed and hard to then grab his drink.
"Are you two dating?"
Mew nodded..
"Yes."
Kirka breathed in shaikly to then down his shot, mew turned his head to eye to make a sober face, he hated to lie to his friend however mew and gulf never spoke to how they wanted to handle the actual truth with Kirka, so it's something mew couldn't say either to.
Kirka then slammed the cup down and hard.
"I hate you both then."
Kirka then got up to leave. Mew watched him go to breathe heavily. Shaking his head from that sting he needed to make sure kirka was not going to drive, to the parking lot kirka was by his car to try and place the key in, mew went quick to him to then grab the key away for kirka to they turn his his hand out.
"Give me my key!"
Mew looked to kirka in anger.
"I am not going to let you drive home drunk are you nuts!"
Kirka scoffed to place his hand down to look to the side.
"I raped my own brothers first love, my only love is dating him, so what the fuck do you care!"
Mew furrowed his brow together to then place the keys to his pocket too then step forward to place his hands to either side of kirkas arms to eye him in anger.
To the far side gulf was there to part his lips at what he was seeing after just getting there seconds earlier, not enough to have heard what kirka just said.
"I still care about you kirka! You can hate me all you fucking want but I am not going to have my best friend kill himself."
Gulf then flexed his jaw.
Kirka's eyes darted to then turn to give mew another kiss for mew to then push him away.
"Kirka damnit! I don't love you in that way, I never have! Now I am sorry about that but I am so very much in love with your brother!"
Gulfs eyes widened to then smile, he couldn't help it.
Kirka made a pout, to then step forward and quick to place his lips to mews to then pass out in his arms.
Mew held kirka to look down in anger.
"Fuck!"
His eyes then widened to then turn his head to look at gulf in horror.
"Gulf it is not...."
Gulf shook his head has he came about.
"You drove here right?"
Mew could only stiffly nod.
"Then let's put him in your car, take him to your place, think he'll be more mad if he was to wake up at mine."
Gulf then turned to look about for mews car, mew breathed in shaikly not to know how gulf was processing this.
Going to his car, gulf opened one passenger side to then help mew lay him down to eye. Mew then looked up with a depressed face.
"Gulf..... Nothing happened and..."
Gulf smiled and wide to then look up to nod.
"Mew?"
"Yes?"
"Mm, I love you too."
Mew watched gulf lean back to then close to the door to then go about, mew then quickly straightened up to then eye gulf has he came about.
"But...."
Gulf shook his head.
"He's drunk mew, it's okay, just means...."
Gulf then stepped closer to wrap his arms about to then tilt his head to the side to then give mew a very deep kiss.
Mew wrapped his arms about to hold gulf tight, amazed with all of this.
Moving his head back he looked to gulf a bit confused.
"What all did you hear?"
"The very tail end, and you telling my brother how much you love me."
Mew made a face to then nod.
"Okay, well..... Let's get him to my place then we can figure the other things later."
Gulf nodded to then place his lips back to mews to then part to then go to the passenger side.
Mew signed and heavily to place his hand to his mouth.
This is not going to end well.....fucking, damnit, shit!