misjudged the notion of love

talking it out

Standing to the other side of the door, mew came back a bit later to look down to then take in a deep breathe, has he was out, something happened and it was life changer for him, mew really wanted to go to a store to buy a pack of cigarettes, but thinking of gulf he couldn't, kirka had tried for years to get him to stop, but nothing seemed to work, however just a mere thought of gulf, the destain to his face, mew couldn't fathom to buy any, that is when he knew gulf was becoming very influenced to his every day life.
Mew took in another deep breathe to then place the key in to then go forth, taking off his shoes he went about to then eye gulf who was fully dressed, sitting to the edge, head hung, with his hands clasped together to be eyeing the action to be taking deep breaths.
"Gulf?"
Gulf signed.
"I want to go home."
Mew made a face to hang his head to look at what he was holding..
"We..... Haven't even tried the tub, that was the whole reason why I booked us this hotel." He lightly chuckled trying to change the tension.
Gulf scoffed.
"I am not in the mood for...... Just take me home."
Mew signed.
"Will you at least look at what I bought you?"
Gulf rolled his eyes has he looked down.
"Mew just take me home."
Mew took a step forward..
"Gulf just look what I got."
"If I do, yourll take me home?"
"Mm."
Gulf signed heavily to then look up to then widened his eyes.
"How do you know these are my favorite flowers?"
Mew then got on his knees to go further closer to then place the bouquet to his side to then place his head to his leg to look to the side, gulf eyed down a bit confused.
"Even though back when, we did grow up Together, things like this, for whatever reason stayed to my memory. Maybe I always knew we were going to end up together, I really don't know. Gulf......I love you, I experienced my heart break knowing my ex a bit more then you knew tiru, it defined me, I honestly never ever wanted to feel that again, but I do...... Right here, right now for you."
Gulf gritted his teeth to then slowly place his hands to mews head to start to stroke.
"Then why do you want to keep an us a secret?"
Mew took in a deep breathe.
"You and I haven't really began gulf, we could end before we could really evolve, I'm used to the hurt, the pain, you have only had glimpses here and there, your almost still pure to it, I..... Don't want that to ever change. I..... Love you too much to drag you down and....."
Gulf tilted his head to the side, to then start to shush mew.
"Shhhh......"
Mew then moved his head up and down his leg.
"Gulf, could we just be us, a bit longer before we tell your brother? Before we tell the world?"
"You know it is going to happen mew."
"That's not what I'm afraid of."
"What are you to be scared about then?"
"We start to tell everyone, then I lose you."
Gulf stopped moving to freeze then a goofy smile appeared to his face.
He then started to stroke mews head, everything he was too have been thinking that this man didn't really love him, all washed away with that one sentence.
"Then...... I'm sorry for how I've been, I just..... Don't care what anyone else may think, I want to be able to hold your hand in public, be close to you and even to kiss you. I'm scared mew that if we remain a secret I'll lose you."
Mew moved about to then look up.
"Why would you think that?*
"Tiru and I never said anything, maybe if we were more public...... But I honestly don't know."
Mew rolled his eyes.
"Tiru was an idiot, you two were very yong to this."
Gulf nodded.
"I know, but just like you mew, I'm scared of losing you, you have had a very big influence on my life, I also don't think it's entirely about the arrangement we were in."
"I still don't think we should tell anyone, least not yet."
Gulfs eyes darted to then move forward to wrap his arms about..
"I'm not going to be a secret forever mew."
Mew then wrapped his arms about to look up.
"I'm not asking you to, I'm asking for a bit of patience."
Gulf signed.
"I don't like patience." Gulf made a funny face.
Mew lightly chuckled.
"Neither do I, however right now, could you try, for me?"
Gulf leaned a bit closer to bait mew a bit.
"And.... Why should I?"
Mew raised an eye brow.
"Because you love me."
Gulf smiled and wide.
"Oh right."
Gulf lightly laughed to place his mouth to his.
Mew then took his hands down to then manuver himself up with gulf wrapped about, to then turn them to go to the bathroom.
Inside, mew placed gulf into the Heart shaped tub to take a step back to eye.
Gulf placed his hands to the edge to then look about.
"This is huge."
"That is what you are starting to do to my heart. Mmm..... Making it whole."
Gulfs eyes widened to then look at mew, he then got to his knees to then start to take off his clothes to then throw them out of the empty tub to then stand to place his hands to mews neck to then move him near until he had to get in, gulf then took off his clothes to throw over, to take a hand back to start the warm water to fill the tub, to then sit upon mew to wrap his arms about.
"The tub filling, this is what you are doing to my empty heart."
Mew then grabbed ahold of gulfs waist to then place him upon to moan and happily, has gulf pressed his chest to good to wrap his arms about has he went up and down with the friction.
"Oh god gulf! Mmm.....I love you, so very much!"
Gulf smiled and wide.
"I love you..aah...too...... Don't.....mmm..... Think I can live without you anymore mew."
Mew then wrapped his arms about to go faster.
"Neither....... Can I.....mm.....will you..... Move ah in..... With me?"
Gulfs eyes widened for him to move back to eye mew.
"What?"