misjudged the notion of love

this can't be love..... can it?

Gulf went to mew and quick, to breathe heavily.
"Wait!"
Mew shook his head to then place his hand to the nob.
"Damnit mew you fucking wait! You owe me at least that!"
Mew started to chuckle which made gulf stay a foot back to look over him.
"I don't owe you shit anymore gulf! I have been in this arrangement for you for so long, what I have done to you I have paid it back and then some, espacially with what I am too feel......"
Mew hung his head to shake his head a bit.
Gulfs lips parted to take a slow step forward.
"What..... Do you feel?"
"No! Never fucking mind! I am done gulf, that is where we are at now! Good luck for your endeavor in getting to the Olympics."
Gulf gulped has he heard mew start to turn the handle.
"Damnit mew just wait a moment! What are you to feel! Either you tell me or I will bring kirka into this and....."
Mew lifted his head up to look to the ceiling to take in a deep breathe.
"You are such a snot nosed idiotic self involved......."
Gulf flexed his jaw to then ball his hands into fists to stare in anger at mews back.
"Fine! I am those things, I don't care if you keep calling me them, but you need to tell me what you are feeling! And why you wanted to go and do something. Please!"
Mew then hung his head to clutch his teeth and hard.
Gulf then went to him to then push him a bit in his back.
"Damnit! You fucking tell me! You god damn rapist, faggot son of a...."
Hitting mews trigger points, mew then turned to then push gulf back to eye him in extreme anger.
"I fucking feel love for you!"
Gulfs lips parted, his whole body froze has he looked to mew.
Mew then gulped and hard to turn back around to shake his head.
"No.......I...... Um...... Mean...... No I don't feel that way! I can't and......"
Mews eyes widened to then slowly turn his head to then look at gulf, in shock and surprise has he eyed him with his head hung, hands balled into fists by either side of himself, to be breathing heavily.
"What....... What did you say?"
Gulf took in a deep inhale.
"You....... Heard me......"
Mew then turned fully around to step to be right in front of gulf to eye.
"Your saying that for my dick, aren't you gulf? This is just a waste of time and......"
Gulf looked up at mew in anger.
"No! I said I love you too because I idiotically feel that has well, it started after you showed me your body, when you finally told me what your asshole, prick of a sperm donor did to you! I love you, not for your dick, not out of pity, but because of who i can see you has, which is not the rapist, faggot, asshole who tormented me all these years, but the man I know who is standing in front of me, who has tried everything to make it up to me, after what he did, and I pieced this other thing together, you weren't with another on that phone call I heard you when back then when you called my brother, you were recovering weren't you? You purposely pissed off your father because of what you did to me, didn't you mew?"
Mews chin started to quiver a bit to then hang his head to look down.
Gulf then took a step forward to then place his hands to his neck to dart his eyes over his face.
"Fine......I am self evolved, but I know you are not, I really wish back then I could have been there for you and for that I am sorry."
Mew took in a deep breathe to then place his hands to Gulfs chest to then push him back.
"Don't!"
Gulf took in a deep breathe.
"I'm sorry."
Mew gritted his teeth.
"I said fucking don't!"
"Mew..... I'm sorry, for calling you those slurs, I did that too cover up the fact I am gay and....."
Mew then went to gulf to then shake his head.
"Damnit gulf! I said fucking stop! I already knew that about you and you need to just shut up! None of this is your fault! I caused it all, so fucking...."
Mews lips parted to then sign, he then brought up his hands to place his fingers to Gulfs lids to then wipe away the tears that started to fall.
"Gulf....... Stop..... Don't do this...."
Gulf slowly brought up his hands to wrap them about mews wrists to then look to him.
"I'm this way, because I never thought I would fall in love again mew....... But.....I know what this feeling is...... But..... Do you actually feel it for me or am I nothing but my body to you?"
Mew rolled his eyes.
"Do you truly think that way?"
Gulf shrugged.
"I'm nothing but a snot nosed brat to you mew and....."
Mew then took in a deep breathe to then place his mouth to his forehead to kiss.
"You are more then that gulf, you are also not self centered, I have seen all that you have done for your family, rather they saw it or not but I saw it, when your brother didn't have any money and then you placed your own to his wallet, or when you're father forgot an anniversary you had bought flowers for your mother to have it be addressed from him, and I saw how you treated tiru and I can understand why you don't have any friends or not much of a life beyond your routine, you feel bad for what you did, I can see that, you and I are so much alike, these are also reasons why I...... Moronically have fallen..... Even though I have told myself I never would again! Not after what my first love did to me. Damn you gulf!"
Mew then moved his head back, to then pull Gulfs lips upon his for a very passionate kiss.
Tears fell down both there faces, has the kiss started to intensify, mew then brought his hands down to make gulf jump up to wrap those strong, powerful, sexy legs about his waist to then take them to his bed.
Gulfs lips turned down to then place his hands to mews chest to then push him back, there eyes Darted over the other.
"We..... Don't need to do this mew, we can..... Go out and do something and talk more about....."
Mew shook his head.
"We are both to be feeling this way, I need you gulf, I need to be deep inside of you."
Gulfs lips parted to then place his hands to mews neck to then in haste place his mouth to his to give him an incredible kiss of the tongues.
"I want you too mew! Want you so very bad! I don't want you to go anywhere! Mmm."
He said between there harsh kissing.
Mew then flopped them down, to not fully believe in his feelings, but for the moment they were controlling them both at that moment, heavily.