misjudged the notion of love

this is bad but.....

To the bed, tiru was on kirka to grind upon, kissing him and deep, to then move to his neck to plant hard kisses, kirka turned his head to then finally open his eyes for the first time in a bit to make a face.
Shit! What am I allowing? Damnit, why does all of this have to feel so good?
Kirka then placed his hands to tirus chest to then push him gently away to dart his eyes over him.
"We need to.... Hey?"
Tiru lightly laughed to then move up to to then place his hands to his shirt to then move over his head to then throw to the side to raise an eye brow.
Kirka then started to breathe heavily has he looked over his sleek and muscular body to then take his hands shaikly to each side to then start to move about.
Tiru twitched for kirka to immediately stop to look up.
"Sorry.... That tickles....mm... Take off your shirt."
Kirka took in a deep inhale to then place those hands to his eyes to rub..
"Tiru...... We need to talk."
Tiru signed.
"I can already guess what you want to talk about, can we after, I'm really hard."
Tiru then grabbed kirkas hand to then place to his crotch.
Kirka removed his other hand to then look down to feel that.
"Tiru...... You were my brother's first love....... I'm sure you are still in love with him and just getting back at him so....."
Kirkas lips parted has he looked over tiru's facial expression.
He then looked down to have Kirka help him undo his pants.
"Kirka......I only ever liked gulf, it......I don't know I never felt anything for him....... Not like I'm.....mm...."
Tiru stopped the action to sign..
Kirka furrowed his brow.
"Like what?"
Tiru took in a deep breathe, to then slowly looked up to then re start the action until he was out for him to take kirkas hand to his member to wrap about.
"I..... Have Had a small crush on you for the longest time, you were always so...... There for you friend, always smiling, always there for gulf but I could see the pain you held, didn't know it was because you were in love with....."
Tiru's eyes widened has kirka leaned up to place his hand to his neck to then grip a bit to then bring him down to lock in a passionate kiss has he started to stroke tiru off, the two started to grind there bodies with the others.
Kirka then placed his hands to either side of tiru to then move him to his back to then move up to then take off his shirt to throw wherever to then go back down to place his mouth right to his.
Tiru placed his hands to his waist to grip has he was being devoured kirka then made a face while his mind started to work again he signed to go back up to then place a hand to his forehead.
"Ugh...... We can't do this...."
Tiru then went up on his forarms to look to kirka in distress.
"Why?"
"I raped you, you are my brother's first love, I still have feelings for..... This is a lot to......"
Kirka moved his hand away to then look down has tiru had gone up to start to kiss kirkas stomach.
"Kirka, you did not rape me, please get that out of your head."
"But your.... Was so swollen and...."
Tiru lightly laughed.
"You were a bit rough, that's all, if I didn't want it wouldn't came to a hotel, then and now...... Also even though I'm your brothers first love that doesn't mean I can be with anyone else, we never even really dated, and I can tell your still hung up on mew.... It's fine...."
Kirka flexed his jaw to then look forward darting his eyes.
Tiru then started to lick about to nip.
"Tiru....."
Kirka then moved away to then stand up to place a hand to his forehead to rub.
"We need to really talk before anything else is done tiru....."
Tiru signed to then look down..
"The reason why I never with your brother kirka was because I had feelings for you, I tried to move in with him but it just didn't work I also just wanted to be friends, that's when mew helped me and...."
"Ugh.....I don't want to hear it, I know!"
Tiru then slowly got up off the bed to go and step towards him.
"He told you?"
Kirka signed to place his hand down to look to the floor.
"Mm.... He did...."
Tiru widened his brow to then look to the floor..
"Never thought he would tell anyone about that...... especially the way he just took Gulfs virginity."
Kirkas eyes widened to then eye tiru.
"What?"
Tiru tensed.
Shit..... What all have they've told kirka?
Tiru then looked to a very confused kirka.
"Mm.... This is something you really need to talk to them about, but they right now are not important, what is going on right here right now is, you want to make it up to me after what happened the last time right, then....."
Tiru trying to make up for what he almost said stepped closer to kirka to place his hands to his waist to then start to move upon his very evident hard on in his pants.
Kirkas eyes narrowed to then place his hands to tirus shoulders to then move him back .
"I want you to tell me what happened, I believe mew lied to me."
Tiru took in a deep breathe to then grab one of kirkas hands to eye to then start to kiss.
"Can we please after, not fair I made you cum and you have....."
Kirka made a face to sign.
"Tiru..... Please."
Tiru took his hand away to eye with a bit of sadness.
Kirkas lips parted, he hated to see anyone like that, he signed once more to then place his hand to his face to then move it up to rub his thumb to his lip.
"Promise, after?"
Tiru have a wide smile to then nod.
Kirka gritted his teeth to then move his thumb away to then move his mouth closet to place his lips to his to start off slow to then intensify the action.
Taking his other hand from his, kirka then placed his hands to tirus pants to undo to take them down and his boxers for tiru to do the same with kirkas to come up slowly with his eyes to him.
Kirkas heart then started to beat unevenly, he then placed his hands to his neck to then give him a very deep kiss to use his body to push them to the bed, to then take his hands down to spread tiru's legs to then go in to thrust hard and deep to love the senation to breathe hard with tiru.
Damnit why does your body have to feel so fucking good!? Shit! I can't stand it.
After, tiru took in a content breathe to then eye down to an asleep kirka to smile and wide to then look forward to sign..
What did I let slip? Even after all you have put me through gulf, I never told anyone what you told me....... Fuck! What is going to happen now?