hard to love

chapter 106

Taylors pov

I watched as my dad kissed Alexis. I couldnt be that mad, he loved her. I just hated that she left us, he was so alone. He may randomly hook up and fuck the croweaters but he hasn't actually had someone by his side.

My dad looked at me as I walked over. "Hey baby come here." He held his hand out for me and pulled me into a hug. "I love you so much Taylor I'm going to tell you every chance I get, I died thinking I would never get to tell you again." He whispered and kissed my head. "I love you to daddy. You know I'm tough. Do we have a burner phone I can use, I need to call my babies. Is Lyla okay. I hope I didn't hurt her making her jump."

"I think happy had the burner last. She is okay, still pregnant when we left said she was holding the baby in until we got you back, you have to be there when she gives birth."

I laughed "Its only fair I return the favor. When can we go home? I miss them daddy, I was worried I'd never see anyone again but the last thing they would remember was me being upset."

"We have something to handle tomorrow then we head out tomorrow evening, hopefully."

I looked until I found Happy talking to Juice. Chibs, his wife and daughter were sitting by them.

"Hey sorry to interrupt, my dad said you probably have the burner."

Happy nodded and held it out to me. "Itll be quieter where we're sleeping at." He started walking towards the door to go outside. I followed behind him without a reply. I felt awkward, it wasn't like anything changed between us. Even though I wanted more than anything to tell him how I really feel and have felt for a couple years now, but I cant. Just thinking about him not feeling the same way twists my stomach, makes me nauseous.

As soon as we got to the loft Happy went to the kitchen so I sat on the sofa and called Pineys number, he didnt answer so I called Jax.

"Do you get her?"

"Yeah I think they did."

"Shit taylor! Are you okay? Damn sis I've been so scared."

"Im okay Jax. Is Ly okay? Baby isn't here yet right? I tried calling Piney he didn't answer where are my babies."

"Yeah she's okay, no baby. Ly says she's waiting till you're home then we're allowed to have the baby, we she's having it but you know what I mean. Holy shit I'm so happy to hear your voice Tay, I thought we lost you man. They're in the clubhouse with Ly making lunch, Piney is in the shop."

"I hope I'm back in time but babies will come when they're ready, you keep a close eye on her for contractions and keep her hydrated, she needs to only drink water."

"I know she yells at me with how much I refill her water cup, it's like a gallon jug I carry around for her. Here they are Tay, you want it on speaker?"

"Yes please, hi babies! Mama misses you so much."

"Mom! Mama!" They both yelled and began talking at the same time I couldn't help but laugh. They did that when they were real excited, or in trouble. I laughed for a minute while I listened to them telling me about their time staying with Ly and Jax then Pop when everyone had to leave. They couldn't wait for me to come back from my trip.

"I love you mama" they both said making me cry. "I love you both so very much, I will see you soon okay."

"Tay." I heard Lyla say quietly

"Youre okay Ly? I'm sorry. I-i couldn't let him hurt you."

"Dont be. I'm so fucking happy to hear your voice. But he hurt you Tay."