hard to love

chapter 34

tigs pov

i couldnt believe my baby girl, my princess had that school interested in her. she was so amazing and didnt even realize it. it didnt matter to me where or what she done with her life just as long as she was happy and safe. yeah i would love if stayed here where i could make sure she was safe, it would be amazing if she chose to stay close and went to the college in LA, but if she decided to go to New York i would support her and make sure she made it no matter what it took. 

we were watching some comedian she liked. i looked over at her and she was laughing so hard tears were streaming down her face. that made me so happy to know that she could laugh until she cried. we may argue and i know she thinks im strict sometimes but im so glad with how shes turned out so far. i wish dawn and fawn were around i regret not seeing them grow up that much. i should have faught harder against that bitch taking them away. but im so proud to be taylors father she was always so smart and talented. she definately got that from her mom, god was she such and amazing woman and mother i miss the hell out of her. taylor looks at me and breaks my thoughts

"whats up dad." she asks leaning forward 

"nothing baby just thinking. i want you to know how much i love you and am so proud of you. dont you ever forget that." i told her 

"awe dad you going all soft on me?" she said sarcastically "i know daddy. you tell me all the time, i wont ever forget. dont you forget how much i love you, how proud i am to be your daughter, youre the best. im so thankful for everything you do for me. youve made sure ive been taken care of and more. you make sure i have everything i could want without me turning into some uppity spoiled bitch. you push to be the best person i can be and to follow my dreams. thank you. i know i can be tough sometimes and make them gray hairs pop out but youve done good so far old man." "HEY i do not have gray hairs princess." i yelled out we both laughed. 

"when do you want me to start training again. i got a few weeks before my college classes start back." she said taking a swig of her beer. sometimes i wonder what type of father i am to let my sixteen year old drink and smoke. but then again all teens do it they just normally hide it from their parents. i would rather know what she does and know shes okay than her be out with other stupid teens and get hurt or in trouble. plus in this life, we live to break the rules. 

"ill call chibs and hap real quick. see if theyd be up for it in our free time." i told her pulling my phone out 

"dad i dont care if you tell chibs or hap everything. but if we tell clay hell tell gemma who will tell jax and then opie will find out. i dont want to tell jax or opie yet. can we wait a bit to tell everyone else so i can think about everything?" she asked dropping her head 

"princess dont you worry. you can yell whoever, whenever. but baby you should tell opie sooner than later he deserves to know." i told her "yeah dad i know. i just dont know how to say oh yeah i just got offered a full ride to one of the best schools. oh but hey its in new york. or maybe LA. he already talks about not wanting to hold me back that would really make him leave me just so i would go." she said almost with a broken voice 

"oh no baby. when you decide what you want dont you think about me, him, jax, lyla or anyone in our dysfunctional family. you do what YOU WANT and what is best for YOU. and if he breaks up with you cause that ill kick his ass. you will make it with or without college baby. ill make sure of it. but if going to new york or LA or wherever is what you want i will make it happen." i told her kissing her head before i went to call happy.