hard to love

chapter 63

taylors POV

me and opie are getting married in one week! i was starting to get nervous. everything has been amazing. me and opie haven't been fighting like we use too and we were still just as crazy about each other.

ive had the past few weeks off and havent booked anything after the wedding. i wasnt sure when i was going to get back in the studio. i wanted to have time to be opies wife and once i got pregnant i was going to cut back on how much i worked.

jax has officially made lyla his old lady, she got his crow a couple months ago. i had both of mine drawn up, i was going to get them the night of our wedding. the only people who knew about my second one was me, opie and happy. even though happy went nomad six months ago he was still going to come to the wedding and was still going to do my crows.

i threw my birth control away yesterday morning. i felt nervous afterward and especially when we had sex last night.

i pulled into the lot at TM to get lyla so we could go pick up my dress. i walked into the clubhouse and noticed the guys were in church so i sat at the bar next to lyla and waited for them to get out.

about an hour later they piled out of the chapel. i knew i seen happys bike when i pulled in, he walked out of the chapel talking to my dad. opie walked over to me and kissed me.

"hey babe yall going to get your dress today?" he asked me as he grabbed a beer.

"yeah were probably gonna go shopping before we get it. youll probably have to get take out for dinner." i told him as i hugged him

"okay babe i think i can manage to find my own food for one night. let me know and ill order something for you too." he kissed me again.

"i hope. be careful if yall ride anywhere. i love you opie." "i love you too taylor. be careful. see you tonight." we kissed again before me and lyla left.

we decided to just get my dress and head back home. lyla wasnt feeling that well. we were almost to charming when i seen opies bike at a hotel. i pulled over across the street.

i seen him walking towards the building then i seen donna walking towards him. hell no. he pulled her into a hug and kissed her. my whole world shattered. i grabbed my camera and took a picture.

lyla woke up "why are we pulled over? you jeep broke down?" she asked sitting up.

i couldn't even answer her i just kept staring at them. she followed my gaze "no. that stupid mother fucker." she all but yelled im surprised they didnt hear her. i watched as they walked to a room i took a picture of them at the dolr his hand was up her shirt while hers undone his pants. i felt my heart literally break. i couldnt fuckin breathe. i felt so disgusted. i couldnt fucking believe this. i sat there for a minute before i started driving towards the my house.

the house that i shared with that piece of shit. i couldn't help but wonder hiw long this has been going on. i should have left him the first time this shit happened when she came to the clubhouse that day or even the second time with that sweetbutt. but no i was so fucking stupid to think he could be faithful.

"GOD FUCKING DAMN IT!!!" i yelled as i punched the roof of my jeep. i pulled into the garage. i turned to lyla "dont tell anyone about this or what im about to do okay?" i asked her as i opened my door "okay but taylor are you okay?" she asked me as she followed me into the house.

"hell no. im no where near okay." i said as i grabbed the roll of trash bags from under the kitchen sink. i passed her a few "will you help me put all my clothes in these while i pack up the rest of my shit." i asked her as i walked into the garage to grab a empty tote.