hard to love

chapter 37

taylors POV

after grabbing a drink from the bar me and happy walked to his dorm. he grabbed the desk chair and turned it around so his hack was towards the desk as i grabbed the first aid kit. i stood in front of him and poured some rubbing alcohol on a cotton ball.

"thanks for training me hap. that was fun." i told him as i cleaned the cut under his eye.

"no problem taylor. you did good. but youre gonna be a beast once we're done." he told me as he placed his hands on my hips.

we have always been close since he transferred from tacoma he wanted to be closer to his mom. just like jax im sure it seemed like weve been together before but we havent.

"i told ope about the college in new york earlier. he said he would help me get there no matter what and figure it all out. but i cant help but feeling in my gut that he doesnt want it or we arent gonna last past the time for me to possibly go. maybe im just being paranoid i dont know hap." the words were out of my mouth before i even thought about it. i cant believe i just told him that.

"im sure he just wants you to just follow your dreams. i think your wrong y'all will make it. and if not fuck him. if he doesnt do right by you dont stand by his side little girl." he told me as he unwrapped my hands.

"i done told him im not doing that run rule or any cheating. he told me he wants me to get his crow but we both figured dad wouldnt go for it until i was eighteen." i told him. he froze for a second which was weird but okay.

"thats good. youre dad will probably be pissed either way youre his little girl. you gonna draw it?" he asked me. we both loved the draw. ive been trying to convince him to teach me how to do tattoos but hes keeps rejecting it, eventually i will break him.

"yeah of course im gonna draw it. was hooijg you would do it? i dont trust anyone else to give me any tattoos especially my crow." i asked him he shook his head yeah.

"well he wants it to where only he sees but i want it to where everyone else can see it so we was planning on probably doing two." i told him as i packed up the kit.

"where you thinking? how big? two really thats uncommon but as long as yall agree." he said standing up and lighting a cigarette.

"well i want it under my collarbone. and the other one well where ONLY opie would see it when were ya know." i said glancing down toawrds my hips

"oh fuck. thats really marking his territory." he said as he chuckled and shook his head.

"yeah i guess it is." i said taking his cigarette. "you sure you want me to do both of them? that ones a little personal." he asked taking a drink.

"yeah i trust you hap. i mean as long as i dont say the D word were good right." ive always flirted with hap but we both knew there was nothing behind it, most of the time. the D work im talking about was Daddy.

"little girl youre playing with fire and you know it. better be glad a brother has his claim on you." he whispered back me up against the desk.

oh shit this was definately new. maybe the flirting wasnt so innocent as i thought. "maybe i like to play with fire. i mean i love to blow shit up everyone knows that." i said putting my hands back on the desk. i probably shouldnt have said that and i probably shouldnt allow him to get this close or us even been talking like this.

he shook his head, i heard a low growl escape his lips. he pushed himself off the desk and stepped back from me. "yeah ill do them. just let me know when."

"sounds good thank you hap." i said standing up and putting my cigarette out.

i walked out to the bar and seen tara standing next to jax, they were clearly arguing. opie and lyla were sitting at the bar talking to half-sac who was behind it. i walked up and wrapped my arm around his waist from the side. "youre all cleaned up. hows youre knuckles feel?" he asked after giving me a kiss. "little achey but im good babe. where is everyone?" i asked him as i sat at the stool next to him.

"club business." he turned so he was facing me.

me him and lyla were talking for a few minutes when tara stormed past us with jax on her heels, both of them yelling. we all looked at each other and just shrugged.

a few minutes later jax stormed back in grabbed a beer and climbed up to the roof. i turned back towards ope and ly, they were noth just looking at me.

"what?" i asked them. they didnt say anything just looked at me "oh what am i supposed to go see whats wrong with him?" i asked raisong my eyebrow. "yeah babe you are. he aint gonna talk to anyone else." opie said slowly shaking his head yeah. "fine but this shit is gettin to be too much. they just need to make up or fuckin break up." i huffed before grabbing a beer half-sac was holding for me.