hard to love

chapter 30

taylors POV 

its been six months since i got into that fight with Ima and me and opie making up. me and ope are amazing. ive been taking college classes on top of my regular high stuff. my college classes count for college credits and towards my high school credits. i was constantly studying, i planned to have my associates in business with a minor in photography done by the time i graduated high school. i spent half of my day at charming high and the other half at the college in stockon. i was currently sitting at the clubhouse with lyla while she quizzed me for my finals tomorrow. the guys were in church, they had been for a while now. half-sac brought me a beer "thanks sac." i mumbled not looking away from my book and notes. 

the guys came out being all loud i glared at them as they walked out the doors. jax laughed "if looks could kill we would all be dead." he said sitting down next to me "what you doing tay?" he asked "im studying for my final. no please go away." i asked him "maybe i can help." he said lookikg at my book "oh no last time i let you "help me study" i got drunk and didnt study at all. no go the fuck away. talk to me in two days when im done with these classes." i basically yelled "alright TNT good luck. im here if you need me" he said holding his hands up and backing away. i went back to studying, luckily the guys went outside so it wasnt so loud i got alot done. 

we havent seen or heard from kyle hobart since the week all the pictures came to surface, he fell of the face of the planet. they guys gave me some more freedom but i still had to have a escort to and from college. i made sure i always had a weapon on me, like i always have. im pretty sure they guys still follow me but i quit trying to fight it a while ago and just accepted it as a way of life. 

i studied for another hour before i decided to take a break. me and lyla walked outside and all the guys cheered. i heard "shes alive" "you learn anything new?" "is it time to party yet?" i laughed and lyla shook her head. i noticed jax was across the lot with tara, it looked like they were arguing. opie was sitting on top of the table and i sat on the seat in between his legs "jesus maybe i need to get jax drunk that shit looks intense." i said stealing happys cigarette "watch it taylor" he rasped snatching it back "sharing is caring hap" i told him which made all the guys laugh. opie handed me a cigarette "thanks ope."
 

we all sat there watching tara and jax. it seems like that all they done was fight later. i had a feeling she was going to break his heart but i tried to tell him once a couple months ago and he got so mad at me we didnt talk for a week. i havent said anything else about his relationship good or bad since. i was pulled out of my thoughts by tara slamming her car door and jax storming into the clubhouse. i hated how she was doing him and he only deserved the best and i never thought tara was good enough for jax. i was always nice and would hang out with her for jax but i didnt trust her much especially since she still talked to donna. 

"wanna go for a ride before you jump back into the books babe?" opie asked me rubbing my shoulders. "you know im always up for a drive." i said standing up holding a hand out for him to take.

we got on his bike and rode around the back roads of charming before he went to the cliffs. we got off and say on the picnic table looking at the view. this was one of my favorite places in charming and i loved coming here with opie. 

"you want kids tay?" he asked me. we never talking about this before. 

"yeah eventually i want to finish school first thought." i told him leaning into his side. 

"what names would you want to name them?" "um what about for a boy Jameson Colt and a girl Mackenzie Lynn. or Callie Leigh or Lynn." 

"wow you already got it figure out? i like them all taylor." "i just thought of them, we will figure it out when we get there. what about callie marie or callie nicole?" he asked me. "i like callie marie but not nicole alot of yall call me that and i dont want to confuse the kid." i said laughing and ope laughed with me. 

"when do you finish school? what you gonna do once youre done?" he asked 

"well unless something happens ill be done my associates in business by the time im done with high school. i saving as much as i can so i can rent a place to open a studio." i told him "you want your own studio? what about that big school you wanted to go to?" he asked me "yes i plan to open a studio here in charming and maybe buy some land so i can take some outdoor pictures maybe open a wedding venue too. as much as i would love to go i couldnt. i love you too much. unless they can offer online i wont be attending it. i doubt theyll even pull my application." i told him kissing he real quick.

"you already applied? when?" "i applied the week before my birthday and just submitted some of my work i already done. dont worry im not going anywhere opie. i can always go to a college thats smaller and closer theres a couple decent ones around here. once we get there we will figure it out together. ill be just as happy working in my studio. that was always my main dream with or without art school." "ill help you make sure your dreams come true babe. whatever you want. hell i think im a pretty good model if you ask me." he said sitting up straight flicking his hair. "youre something else you know that right" i told him laughing. he laughed "so are you nicole." 

we sat there talking for another hours or so before deciding to go get some lunch at the diner. i ordered a burger with fries and a peanut butter shake opie got a burger with fires too but got a chocolate shake instead. we talked and goofed off while we ate before going back to the clubhouse.