hard to love

Chapter 18

i walked back outside to see my dad and happy in the ring fighting. even though hap is only twenty three hes good, already an unholy one. my dad is normally the only one crazy enough to fight him. i looked around tara is sitting in jaxs lap and theyre talking all secretive, chibs, bobby and clay are standing up by the ring. half-sac walks over to me and puts his arm around me.

"good birthday so far?" he asks "yeah its been fun fuckin complicated but fun." i said laughing. he leans in and whispers "so you and ope?" i hurried and turned to look at him i opened my mouth but nothing came out he threw his hand up shaking his head "im not judging just trying to talk." "same rules apply as earlier prospect." i said stern "alright taylor. just trying to get to know you after having to follow you around youre funny and chill." he said with a chuckle "dont get no ideas sac. but yes youve guessed right. i dont even fuckin know man." i told him finishing off my beer. 

"hey like i said no judgment here you gotta do you and figure out what you want and just live life. life is to short to not be truly happy TNT." he said as a croweater brought us some more beers i thanked her and sac winked at her. "when did you get so philosophical on us prospect?" i asked laughing "when i had my nut blown off in irag. it changes shit man. i hope you never have to see how." he said seriously i looked at him for a minute. "pretty positive ill never go through that or understand but ill do my best not to get a nut blown off." i said which made him laugh and spit out his beer i busted out laughing.

we laughed forever both of us hunched over red in the face. i was crying. "damn who knew you were so funny." he said sitting up straight "oh that was nothing get me drunk around jax or ope and we turn into comedians." i said as i wiped the tears from my eyes. i felt someone slam down next to me and put their hand on my lower back and started rubbing i instantly tensed up. i knew it was kyle.

i guess half-sac realized and stopped laughing he looked at me with a serious look. "didn't you hear prospect shes off limits." kyle sneered through his teeth "its not like that were just talking" "yeah right get out here i want to wish the birthday girl a happy birthday" kyle said glaring at half-sac who looked at me, i guess he could see in my face how uncomfortable i was, i thought i was going to puke with him touching me, by now his thigh was pushed against mine, he scratched his nails up my back and his hand was under my shirt with his fingers wrapped around my bra he was messing with the hooks. "you just did. we were about to get another drink and she promised me a round of pool." half-sac said as he stood up pulling me with him i pushed myself into his side. i dont know why kyle always tried to touch me i hated it. he creeped me out. we went to the bar and sac poured me a drink. we stood behind the bar, i was on the inside and half-sac stood towards the opening.

jaxs POV

i was talking to tara when i heard taylor laughing. i looked over to where he and half-sac were sitting at the picnic table both of them laughing so hard both of their faces were red. i seen tay wipe her eyes, she always laughed so hard she would cry. then she stiffened and stopped laughing out of nowhere, i noticed kyle sat down next to her. 

kyle looked pissed, taylor never turned to look at him i knew the look on her face. ive only seen it a few times in our entire lives, she was scared. next thing i know half-sac stood up and pulled taylor into the clubhouse, i noticed she was curled under his arm like she didnt want him to let her go. i stood up and pulled tara with me. i walked into the clubhouse to see them standing behind the bar. half-sac was to her side but to towards the opening of the bar in a protective stance, he was looking at her but she was staring down at her cup. 

i walked up and nodded to half-sac he nodded back but didnt move. i walked past him and stood in front of taylor and bent down so i could look at her face. she didn't even acknowledge me.