hard to love

chapter 64

opies POV

i got on my bike and drove towards my house. i couldnt belive i just let that happen. i went to the hotel to tell her again that nothing was going to happen and to stop texting me. i should have sent taylor to take care of donna. but my stupid as went and what donna said got to me and i needed to prove her wrong. i kept thinking back to her last text to me

"you really going to marry her? how do you know shes the one for you? thats the only girl youve had sex with. how do you know theres not better? how do you know im not better?"

i couldnt believe i fell for her mind games. i raced back to our house i was going to take a shower and wait for taylor. i would tell her what happened, how stupid i was and hoped she forgave me. i couldnt imagine my life without her. fuck. how could i be so stupid.

i pulled up and noticed her jeep wasnt in the driveway. good i had time to take a shower and figure out how i was going to tell her and how i was going to fix this.

i walked in and noticed everything was different. shit why was some of taylors stuff gone. i ran to our room and seen a letter on the bed. i slowly walked to it and picked it up.

Dear Opie,

Its so crazy to think weve come this far. from being best friends to you saving me when my mom died. to losing our virginities to each other. god was that amazing (just like any other time weve had sex). i love you so much and i cant wait to be your wife and the mother to your children. i love you with everything inside of me. if i could go back and change anything (i would bring my mom back) but i would also go back and make you mine sooner than i did. opie you make me the happiest woman alive and i cant tell you how you mean to me. youre the first thing i think of when i wake up and the last thing i think of before i close my eyes at night. i cant wait to say i do and spend the rest of our lives together. i cant wait until we have little babies running around all over the place. i wouldn't want any of this with anyone other than you.

Love Always,

Taylor Nicole.

i smiled. god i didnt deserve her. i seen another letter on the bed.

theres a surprise for you in the closet.

thats all it said. i walked over to the closet and opened the door. i noticed all her clothes were gone i looked down to see another letter with a big envelope.

i opened the letter

ope.

i really thought i could trust you. i cant believe i was so naive to believe it was only me and you. im so glad ive figured this shit out before we got married. enjoy your life. i really hope she was worth it.

oh no i wasnt following you me and lyla happened to be driving by from picking up my wedding dress. you know for the WEDDING we were supposed to have next week.

i really REALLY fucking hope that bitch was worth everything we had together. dont try to call me or come for me ill be long gone by time you get this.

have a great fucking life with your whore harry.

oh shit. no. i ripped open the envelope. there were pictures of me and donna at the hotel and going into the room.

i walked to her dresser and realized it was empty. i destroyed our entire bedroom before i stomped towards the front door. when i opened it jax was standing there.

he pushed me back into the house and punched me. "you fucking idiot" he yelled. i didnt even fight back i just let him hit me. once he was done he helped me get up.

"i fucked up jax." "yeah you did. you fucking idiot." he shook his head "i gotta fix it man." he scoffed "fix what. shes gone. theres not fixing it. i told you if you hurt her i gonna kick your ass. tig is waiting for you in the ring. once you heal from that i want you in the ring." he told me opening the door.

"what do you mean shes gone." i asked him

"bro she left. shes not coming back. everyone is pissed at you even piney. you fucking broke my sister and she fucking left cause she couldnt be in charming because if you. i hope youre fucking happy. dont you dare fucking try to call her either. if you wasnt my bestfriend and my brother id fucking you kill for making Taylor feel like you have. you dont want to know the shit she told me when she was saying bye. lets go so tig can kick your ass."

fuck. i wanted to sit in our room and lose it but i needed this ass kicking. anything to get my mind of the pain i felt.