hard to love

Chapter 6

taylors POV

i woke up and could hear everyone in the kitchen. i needed water.

"mornin yall" i said as i walked into the kitchen

"GOD DAMN TAYLOR!" jax yelled looking at me he spit his drink out.

"WHAT THE FUCK. STOP YELLING!" i yelled back holding my temples

"damn girl. you must have really had fun last night." tara said pointing at my shoulders. what the fuck was she talking about. i looked down and seen it. i had a few hickeys under my collarbones, on the top if my breasts, and a few bite marks.

"holy fuck." i told her to make sure they could be hidden but i was not expecting this

"damn taylor. did you not know they were there i seen them when i got up." lyla said laughing

"no i fuckin didnt know. i said to make sure they could could be covered but damn. i didnt even feel half this shit." "were you that drunk tay?" tara asked "no we wasnt even drunk. i guess i was just that into it." i said with a smile. opie was just staring at me with his mouth open. we heard motorcycles pulling up. "oh shit its my dad. lyla come help me now!" i grabbed her hand and took off running towards my room i slammed and locked the door.

"jesus taylor. you sure were busy last night." "oh my god ly im mortified. like a part of me wants opie to see and feel like shit cause how he made me feel. but a part of me wants to hug him because HES UPSET. a part me also loved everything that happened with Amber last night, like i just want to have her around me all day and night. then again i love ope. i barely know Amber were just having fun right now. whats wrong with me? what do i do ly?" i said as i dug through my closet looking for a shirt

"first of all you. are. single. second do what makes you happy. he is with donna and made that clear last night cuddling with her and kissing all over her. shit i woke up and they were coming out of the guest room, im sorry tay. i know youve loved him for years but you need to put yourself first and dont worry about him." "youre righ ly. i feel so torn. does this shirt work?" she had me move, jump and do whatever that could possibly make the shirt move "yeah cant see a thing. so are you ready for next friday? youre sweet 16!" "i mean yeah i guess i kinda dont want a SAMCRO party though" "why not its always how its been tay. you think your dad will buy you a truck?" "i kinda just wanna hang out with you, jax, and i guess tara. maybe amber." "nope. were having a fuckin party." we walked back into the kitchen.

"her daddy." i said hugging and kissing his cheek

"i make you stay at home and you throw a party, drink half of my alcohol." he said. chibs, bobby and happy were with him.

"hey atleast i was at home." he was looking through his cabinet "TWO BOTTLES OF JACK. SOME TEQUILA. THERES A GOOD THIRTY BEERS GONE TAYLOR!!" "im sorry daddy. ill pay you back." i batted my eyelashes at him "yall drank like it was a party at the damn clubhouse. fuckin alcoholics" everyone was silent. thanks guys. "my fuckin pool better not be messed up." he started walkin back there shit i left the pizza, empty beer bottles and jack bottle out there fuck im busted.I followed him knowing it was over. everyone else was right behind me.

"the fucks all this taylor! why is there only two towels out here? two shot glasses? oh fuck no! you better not have had some fuckin boy out here alone!!!" He yelled throwing  the empty bottle of Jack across the heard. "no daddy i didnt." i said back in such a small voice "then explain all this shit then!" jax spoke before i could "my bad tig me and tara snuck out here after everyone went to bed. i forgot all this out here." "oh fuck thank god. i was about to go to prison again." my dad said pulling me into a hug. "i want this house spotless before i get back and jax your paying my pool guy this week." he left and all the guys followed

"oh my god. thank you jax. ill pay for the pool guy." i said hugging him "i told you last night i always had your back. now next time be careful cause i probably wont be here to save you, atleast i hope im not around for the next time. hearing you have sex last night was a one time thing i dont ever wanna hear that shit again." "im so sorry yall" everyone laughed "yall can go ill clean everything up. i need some alone time anyway." everyone said nope. "me and ope have to stay well one of us your dad said so." jax said. oh great. we finished cleaning up, tara and donna left. "im gonna go take a shower." jax said. lyla left right after.

i went into my room to start putting away my clothes i just washed i had my head phones in so i didnt hear opie come in. i turned around and he was standing behind

"oh shit! dont do that you scared me opie" i said as i pulled my head phones out.

"what the fuck taylor. whats this shit?!" he said pulling my shirt off my shoulder pointing at all my marks. i yanked my shirt back up

"it doesnt matter ope." "the hell it dont. what about yesterday, was that all just bullshit!" "no it wasnt opie. but youre still with donna. i realized you probably werent going to follow through. im tired of being stupid waiting. you can't have your cake and eat it too opie. im single. i dont have to answer to anyone!" i yelled "yeah i guess youre right. you are single. but you had sex with me yesterday said you loved me everything then in the same fucking night went and fucked some guy thats something a whore would do." he said "IM NOT A WHORE ASSHOLE." i yelled at him "COULD HAVE FUCKING FOOLED ME!!" he yelled. jax slammed my door open "thats enough opie!!" opie shook his head and walked out. "tay you okay." Jax asked pulling me into a hug. "Yeah. But i gotta get out of here." "you wanna go for a ride" i shook my head "no thank you though thank you for everything. always." i hugged him then pulled my phone out

"hey where you at?" i asked amber "im actually in charming. i was gonna try to you ask you to lunch." "yes. can you come get me? ill be ready. see you soon." i was excited i was going to see amber again.

i walked out of the room a few minutes later in my black Johnny cash shirt, jean shorts and cowboy boots. "you know where yall are going" jax asked "no not yet." i walked over to the coffee table and grabbed a cigarette. "two things tay. you stay in charming, take a weapon and call me if you need me." "that was three jax" i said laughing he threw a pillow at me "okay wise ass." i heard amber pull in and jax walked with me outside.

 "forget what opie said im gonna handle that shit. have fun, be careful and remember call me. do i need to tell her the rules?" He asked turning his head towards her car "no dad i got it. thank you. remember if yall break anything you gotta replace it." i said pointing at him "if it comes to that well take it outside tay. have fun. go." i climbed in and we kissed. jax stood there as we pulled off.

opies POV

i watched taylor walk out with jax. i couldnt believe this was happening. once i seen that shit on taylor i was seeing red. i wanted to kill the guy. she was mine. i loved her and she loved me. i couldnt believe she had sex with me then some guy the same night. my thoughts were broken by jax

"youre a real ass you know that opie."

i scoffed "fuck off jax."

"no man. youve been a dick to taylor."

"im not the one fuckin other people"

"you. have. a. girlfriend." he yelled and prounced every word

"i told taylor yesterday i was leaving her! i fuckin love tay. and shes doing all this."

"what have you been doing this whole time ope. you have no right to judge her. she cried when we was outside by the pool you know. i pulled her in the pool so no one would be able to tell. she fuckin broke down because of you man. real dick move. she told me about a friend she had and wanted to invite over i told her to fuckin do it cause im tired of seein her so broken because of you man. grow up. either you want tay or donna. dont fucking treat taylor like some damn crow eater. next time you do im kickin your ass! the club would get over it ope. you just dont know what the fuck you want so youre playin games. im done sittin round watchin my little sister be broken."

i wanted to argue but i couldnt. he was right. i just go up and left.