hard to love

chapter 80

taylors POV

"okay next contraction and baby one will be here. push when i tell you taylor." the doctor told me looking up at me.

i felt like ive been pushing for hours, its so tiring. my dad and jax were holding my hands while lyla watched them come out. my team of nurses and dr didnt care if she recorded so that was her job. honestly i didnt want me dad or jax seeing that much of me thats just weird.

i felt the contractions started "ohh now?" i asked wanting to make sure i had the right now. "yeah push." she started counting.

it felt like hell like honestly it burned and i wanted to stop. "keep going baby one is crowning. almost there.... GOOD JOB!" my dr said as i felt my baby push through. jesus i heard about the ring of fire but dear jesus wow.

"shes here."

"is she okay? why isnt she crying oh no. please." i begged trying to see her

a second later i heard her cries "baby is just fine mama." the damn broke and i had so many tears.

they put her on my chest and she was so beautiful! "hi baby. im your mom. youre so beautiful and i love you so much. youre so perfect." i told her. i looked at every detail of her body. i couldnt be more in love.

"okay mama next contraction you need to push. gotta bring little boy into this world." they told me. i handed my daughter to my dad and the look in his eyes was pure love and joy.

a few more pushes and my boy was here. he didnt cry much which made me worry.

the nurse handed me my baby boy "oh my hello handsome. youre perfect just like your sister." i took in every detail just like i did his sister.

"okay mama time to deliver the placenta." the dr told me.

my dad passed his granddaughter to jax and i gave my dad his grandson. again nothing but love and joy when he looked at him.

it didnt take but a couple pushed to be down. "okay you need a couple stitches im going to numb you just a little." "thank you."

my dad and jax passed me my babies. i held them on my chest and just stared at them. i couldn't believe they were finally here.

i knew things would be hard but we would make it. i would do whatever it takes. if their sperm donor didnt want them that was his loss. i felt so bad for my babies though. i never thought opie would do this. even if we werent together i thought he would atleast want his kids. i would move back to charming if he did just so they would know their dad. but i wasnt going to try and force them on him for him to go in and out or let them know that he didnt want them. we would make it just the three of us.

"whats their names baby girl?" my dad asked

"jameson colt and nova marie."

"theyre perfect baby. im so proud of you." he leaned down and kissed my head.

"thank you daddy."

i told lyla to come hold them. she held jameson first and started crying.

"oh hes so perfect tay." she whispered not taking her eyes off him. "hey jameson im your aunt ly. i love you so much. ill always be here for you but especially when you get bigger and your mom is annoying ill be here for whatever. you, your sister and i are going to be partners in crime. were going to have so much fun."

she gave the same speech to nove but said she would always take her to get her hair and nails done cause mom doesnt do it that much.

they took my babies to clean them up and finish all the tests. i decided to take a nap until they got back.