hard to love

chapter 107

The guys had to go on run with Sambel. Opie and Juice stayed behind to watch the girls. When Taylor said bye to everyone she made sure to tell Happy to be careful while hugging him longer than normal Gemma and Alexis take notice.

Once the guys pulled off in the van following the local Sons they went inside to have a drink and wait. They were talking well Gemma and Alexis were Taylor just sat beside Juice and halfway listened. She was worried about the guys and was anxious for them to come back.

"T." Juice nudged her which made her look around. She noticed Opie closer to the door now she hadnt even realized he moved.

"I was just wondering how long you've cared for him?" Alexis asks

"What? Who?"

"Happy. You're in love with him, how long?" She whispered

"I don't know what you're talking about" Taylor nonchalantly told her then left. Opie hears and followed Taylor to ask the same thing. He didnt realize it until earlier and knew he wasn't the only one thinking it.

"So that's why you kept refusing to marry me. Not because you didn't trust me but because you love him? What has nothing been real since you moved back? You been sleeping with him to?"

"What no I have always loved you Opie! Thats the fucking problem no matter what you do or how bad you've treated me I've always had love for you. But now I think I was trying to keep our family together, my love for you stems from our kids."

Opie just leans against the counter "so why couldn't you just say that"

"I dont know! When we moved back I felt like I did love you and we could have made it work. The twins deserved it for me to atleast try."

"So what you haven't been happy with me? Try? I thought we were good tay."

"Yeah so did I back then and now then I get slapped in the face by Mary. Months with Donna Opie really?! You know what it doesn't matter. I already told you I was done so the past is just that. No I'm not in love with you."

"So you're in love with happy?"

Taylor didn't answer she couldn't tell him before she told happy. Hell happy probably didn't even feel the same so she wasn't going to admit it.

"Seriously Taylor. Happy. Another son. Do you even know him? What he does."

"You think I planned it! Yes I know him I know him better than I know myself. Better than I know you! And Jesus yes I know did you forget that I've done the same thing?!"

"So while he helped you hunt those bastards down what you fell in love with him for helping you. He was around my kids and knew about them from the beginning. He was there so that's who you chose. Juice was there to why not him? Or have you lied to us all and been with both of them"

"No that's not the only reason I care for Happy damn it! And gross no I haven't been with Juice. I didn't fall for Happy just because he was there, there's more to it and I'm not getting into you about it. I'm sorry that you feel some type of way about that but i can't help it."

"What are you going to do if he doesn't feel the same way Taylor. Huh just pine after him."

"Dont be a dick Opie! I don't know that's why I've hid it! Can you just stop."

"Alright I'm sorry. As you're friend and the father of your children I want you happy. I get it I fucked that up, I fucked us up. I accept the responsibility for all of that. And I'm sorry for it all. I get it Taylor. But happy? You think he's the one? You think he'd do right by you, yeah yeah I know I haven't. You truly do deserve someone to do right by you. That's me coming to you as a friend Taylor."