hard to love

Chapter 8

the guys were gone for four days. they left the prospect and kyle hobart behind. i couldnt stand kyle he always freaked me out. gemma made sure i was never in the shop alone with him. amber stayed every night my dad was gone. i convinced him to not make the prospect stay at the house or babysit as long as i kept my gun on me. i normally didnt keep a gun, only special circumstances and this was one. we had them hidden all over the house but dad didnt want me to carry so i always just had my knife. chibs trained me so i could do some decent damage with my knife if i needed to.

me and amber had a lot of sex over the past four days, all over the house. it was amazing. but we also had a good time. we walked around in just our underwear and shirts mostly. we never left the house, got drunk everynight and cooked breakfast together. my dad was coming home today so we had to stop everything. she decided to just go home she didnt think she wouldnt be able to not kiss me. 

i laid in my bed listening to music. jax texted me and said they was an hour away. he agreed to tell me any time they went away so i wouldnt get caught with amber. i wasnt trying to hide her i just hadn't talked to my dad yet. gemma was picking me up to go to clubhouse soon for their arrival. i got dressed. i had to wear pants for a while cause i had kickeys on my thighs and none of my shorts would cover them. i had on my dark skinny jeans, a willie nelson shirt and my cowboy boots. my dad loved bikes and rock my mom loved country and horses. i loved a good mix of both. i couldnt wait to see my dad.

"hey baby" gemma said as i climbed in her Escalade "hey momma gemma." ive always called her that all the guys did too or just mom. "what you been up to these past few days" she asked me. "i deep cleaned the house, went back and re-edited most of my portfolio. even got to start a project ive been wanting to do forever now." "oh yeah whats that baby" "cant tell you. not until its done." "youre always so secretive of your work. its always so amazing. you ever get out of charming that will be why taylor." "gem we both know i have no plans of leaving charming." "you say that now baby. you could do alot with your talents."

i knew she was right. after seeing jake getting all his shit together and applying for colleges it made me want to. i want to go to art school so bad but i didnt want to leave my dad. i always dreamed of making it big with my photography but i didnt want to leave charming. it was my home. my family was here. we pulled into the lot at TM i went with gemma into the clubhouse. if Kyle wasnt in the shop i would have went to sit with half-sac. we heard motorcycles pulling in so we went outside. i waited until everyone was parked to run to my dad.

"daddy! i missed you" i ran and jumped in his arms. "i missed you too baby." i then hugged everyone else except opie. we all went inside the guys went into church so i shot around on the pool table. they came out my dad told me it was time to go home. i said bye to everyone and followed him out.

"were having a pool party for samcro tomorrow. i need you to go with gemma to get everything."

"okay dad. can we talk." we sat down at the kitchen table. We had a small table in the kitchen and a hug formal table in the dining room. My mom loved our house because of how big the dining room, kicthen and living room was. She loved having everyone over and always said "my door is always open. I will always have coffee or water even alcohol if you need it. No matter youre welcome." She loved to entertain, her and gamma were best friends and were always throwing some party or dinner. For a long time dad wouldn't have they guys at the house until I told him I wanted to. I wanted to keep up her traditions kinda keep up her memory.

"you okay baby?" He asked looking worried. "yeah ive just been thinking and i really want to try and go to art school for my photography and videos daddy." "you dont need no school your photos are amazing already" "yeah i know it would just help me train better, learn new techniques and it would help with my pay" "okay baby if you really want this and get in ill make it happen. whatever you want baby." "oh my god thank you daddy! also i kinda have plans tomorrow that has to do with this.. the past few days ive went back on re-editing alot of my work, and started a new project. jake has agreed to help me especially since he knows what theyre looking for in peoples applications since hes done it all. but tomorrow the only day he can help me daddy." "hmmm okay baby. i hate that youre gonna miss this but i see you light up when you talk about your art. but no funny business young lady." "daddy no we broke up. were just friends. wasnt even like we dated we are friends who thought and decided we were wrong, just friends. dad i promise." "okay baby i still need your helping getting ready for tomorrow" "of course daddy always."  I said kissing his cheek. Then I got a list together of everything we needed for tomorrow.