hard to love

chapter 72

Taylors  POV

its been a few days since we ate at the diner with happy. well really me and happy ate at the diner since my dad had to leave.

i was going back to new york tonight. i spent most of the day yesterday with jax. he sat behind TM with me cause i didnt want to go on the roof still. then we went shooting and drove around charming before going to the cliffs.

we sat there for hours talking. ive been a shitty friend and havent called him much since i left. i packed my bags as i remembered our conversation.

"im sorry i havent called much jax. i promise ill do better." i told him

he wrapped his arm around my shoulders and pulled me into him "its all good tay. i havent called either. i was trying to not remind you of it all i guess. i wasnt sure if you were mad at me too or not." he admitted

i pulled out from under his arm and looked him confused "why would i be mad at you too?" i asked him

"i dont know. cause im a son. cause opes my bestfriend."

"jax im not mad at you. you didnt cheat on me opie did. hell i thought you were mad at me for leaving. after i got everything moved in and happy left i realized i didnt just leave ope, i left my entire family and i really hated myself for that. there has been days ive wanted to come back just to be with my family again but then i leave my apartment and im reminded how much i love it in new york. why im really there and i love art school i didnt think it would be this amazing but it is. i love it. and i love the friends ive made. but i really think once im done i will move back. i actually miss charming."

"tay none of us were mad you left. well maybe opie was but that doesnt matter. we all understood and were excited for you. youre making us all proud. even though we miss the hell out of you. i wish you were still here but i get you need this so ill wait until you move back. hell i think ma was just as sad as tig when you left." he told me with a chuckle.

"what. i thought gem was the one who was mad at me the most. what type of old lady was i for leaving? were supposed to support yall and stand by yalls side. but i told ope i would not put up with cheating anything else i could handle. he knew and he done it any way."

"i know tay. i dont shes mad i think shes sad youre like her daughter." he told me.

"damn. i didnt even think about that. ive been scared to face her cause i know shes going to yell at me."

we talked some more about me and ope. it was starting to not bother me so much hearing his name or talking about him. we talked about him and lyla. he was shocked just like lyla was when i said i would be able to co-parent with ope if we had to. but i told him not to die either.

"maybe i should take gemma to get ice cream like she used to do with us. we can talk." i told him as ee started towards his bike.

"what am i not good enough for ice cream?" he asked acting offended

"you got breakfast and lunch. but we can get ice cream on the way back if you want." i told him shoving him

he actually stopped for ice cream. when we got back to TM i went straight to the office.

"hey gem." i said walking in the office.

"hey baby. you ready to go back home?" she asked flicking her cigarette into the ashtray.

"gem you know this is my home. always will be. thats just where i temporarily live." i told her sitting on the couch

"temporarily?" she asked raising her eyebrow