hard to love

chapter 97

taylors POV

opie didnt let me leave his side the rest of the night. i played pool with just about everyone, opie actually damced with me a little which was mainly me dancing and him swaying and holding me close to him.

i played some speed with juice while a few guys watched. i was sitting in opies lap while jax and lyla sat next to us, my dad sat with a croweater next to him, same thing with happy and chibs.

"stop counting cards juan carlos." i told him

"im not the one who counts cards taylor nicole." he said laughing

"i didnt get us kicked out of the casino for it"

"woah thats wasnt me. that was jimmy. and he just got caught. we never got caught."

"i know but look who now sucker" i said beating him. everyone laughed

"that wasnt right lets go again. doubles"

"wait yall can fuckin count cards" jax asked

"some chick juice was fuckin in new york showed us. yall may call him an idiot and pick on him but i swear he could pull girls better than any of yall. ive seen it work in less than thirty seconds."

"30 seconds forreal" my dad said shocked

me and juice laughed "yeah. they used to make bets to see how long it would take for him to pick a girl up and how long it would be until i would send guys away. half the time theyd get mad cause id leave with him after turning them down."

"wait you got a girl but still went home with my daughter"

"woah not like that tig. the girl normally went home with me or walk tay home then wed go to her place but i always made sure T made it home or atleast was with our friends and they made sure she got home. there was only one night she was doing her thing at the college and she got jumped i always made sure she made it home after that."

"are we done yet? let me beat you so we can all play some poker."

"ohh lets play strip poker" the croweater with happy said

"fuck that. yall can play ill go do something not trying to strip with my dad right there." i said making everyone laugh

"lets go play our own round in the room" my dad said dragging the girl off "ew. thats so gross" i said shaking my head.

"tell us more about tay in new york" lyla asked juice

"what do yall want to know?"

"oh no thats not fair" i said trying to reach over and keep juice quiet. opie laughed and pulled me back into his lap.

"she hated the subway so we rode our bikes everywhere unless we could walk. until she got pregnant then she had to take the subway. when it snowed we just had to go out in it. i think she went to every museum atleast a hundred times. we had to try every random restaurant she found which most turned out amazing."

"she ever bring home guys"

i felt opie tense but he had no say or no right to get upset "nah no guys. just girls. except the guy i hit when she was in labor. but after she found out she was pregnant we stopped going out and everyone just came to our apartment or tyler and kates. we just kept that up after the twins were born except the few nights tay wanted to go out."

"oh so she eats weird shit all that time. she have crazy pregnancy cravings?"

"fuck yeah. i made sure we kept a supply of mustard and pickles at home. and it was either chinese, mexican, pizza or subs she wanted. and normally she wanted whatever we didnt have at 3 am. just know its hard as fuck to find a chinese place thats not shady and open at 3 am, in a fucking blizzard."

"you went out in a blizzard for chinese."

"hell yes. taylors scary anyways but her having crazy pregnancy hormones was way worse. i didnt want to anger the girl i made that mistake once and i thought she was going to kill me for the rest of MY food. i would come back with food, shed be at the door waiting grab it hug me and say thank you before she would waddle off to the couch and eat. sometimes she would cry when she got the food." juice said laughing everyone laughed

"yeah yeah funny. yall dont understand pregnancy cravings are bad. and pretty sure the time i got mad cause i couldnt get the food was cause he couldnt find one close i threatened to cut his dick off so he could never make a woman go through that. he went up to tylers and he had their moms chef make the food. him and tyler came in with like five meals of the same thing. i tried to make it up to him. id pay, have him get his own shit, bought him alot weed and beer. the farther i got and crankier i got, i got liqour and tried my best to calm down."

"man i miss some of vinnys pizza."

"hell yeah. i miss the subs. i can get some good mexican here but the subs were fire up there."

"so basically yall always ate and partied." jax said laughing

"im surprised i didnt get fat. i swear the food there is the best. i miss that and the snow."

we played a little longer and drank alot more. me and opie went outside after a while. some guys from another charter were in the ring.

"i missed this. i missed you." he said into my ear

"me to ope. you dont know how many times i wanted to come back and bring our kids. but i was scared you would reject them again and i didnt want that for them. i should have known better."

"its alright cant change it now. i wish i was there the entire time. hell i would have went to new york if i had to so you could finish school. i hated hearing yall talk about when you were pregnant cause i missed it all which its basically my own fault. but i love hearing it, it makes me happy to. i can imagine how you were. i wish i was there when they were born. jax and lyla said you did amazing. jax said hed never seen something so weird or creepy but so amazing. he said it was weird to see since it was you but he was glad he was there. gave him a new outlook on woman and babies."

i laughed "yeah i didnt realize he looked down there until after they were out. i slapped his arm how weird that was knowing hes seen me like that, thats my brother. but he told me it wasnt weird that it made him think i was braver than anyone cause that looked hard as hell and like it hurt. he kept telling me he was proud of me and shit. and we cant change it now opie. as much as i wish i could its alright."

"i bet you were hot pregnant." he said as he squeezed my thigh and his hand went farther up my thigh.

"i was until i became a whale about five months in." i leaned to where i could talk right in his ear "i was so horny the entire time. i loved all my toys. i cant tell you how many batteries i went through."

i felt him get hard under me. "fuck tay" he said as if he was trying to control himself "alot of the time i watched that video we made years ago. i couldnt have the real you but god did i imagine"

"im about to fuck you right now you keep that up" he said moving his hand higher and lifting his hips to push against me

"right here right now" i asked as i kissed his neck

"shit. i respect you more than that. i don't think we can drive. so that leaves TMs office or the dorm."

"is it clean?"

"youre still the only one ive fucked on the bed taylor"

"what are you going to do opie?" i said scratching down his arm

"fuck it. lets go. im about to fuck you so good and all night. youll feel me between your legs even after were done." he said kissing me then standing up. we went in the back way so there was less chance of being interrupted.