hard to love

chapter 39

taylors POV

we went to jaxs dorm and started coming up with ideas. we both wanted the reaper and a gun. we finally agreed on the reaper and a revovler. even though theres a gun in the design of the reaper we wanted a revolver too. i drew mine with flowers on both sides of the revovler, obviously jaxs didnt have flowers. mine was going to say "my brothers keeper" and his was going to say "my sisters protector". the banners would be on top of the barrel of the revolver. we added in each others initials on the handle of the revolver.

(the picture up top is what taylors looks like with the flowers. the reapers is where the skull is on this picture but instead of just the skull the entire reaper is there and the gun is at a angle pointing down liek it is in the picture. but under the reaper. this was the closest i could find to try and give you an idea.)

"theyre going to look great. you did good drawing them. now you just have to ask tig and we gotta get hap to agree to do yours." jax told me.
"ill convince both of them."

we went out to the bar area with my notebook. i told opie first since hes my old man it was only right. then asked dad and he said if i really wanted to get it, it was okay. i went to ask happy and show him the drawings.
"damn taylor these look great. of course ill do them. when and where?" he asked me.
"hell probably my side. and whenever you can." i told him.
"we can do them tonight if yall want." he told me. i jumped and hugged him and went to find jax.

all of guys wanted go see me get my first tattoo so i was on the bar laying on my side while the whole club watched. jax already had his done he got his on right side and i was getting mine on the left so when we stood facing each other you could see both of them and so when we was next to each other they were on the outside.
the croweaters came in trying to get the guys attention but they were all too focused on me.
"that has to be hurting you baby." my dad said i guess they were all shocked cause it wasnt hurting or uncomfortable. the ribs is a hard place to tattoo cause it apperently hurts too bad. "no daddy it doesnt it kinda tickles." i told him.
"she is your kids tig. maybe shes just as crazy." bobby said laughing then everyone laughed.

"alright litle girl all done." happy said wiping the last bit of ink off my side. i jumped down and went to look in the mirror. i walked back out and looked at jaxs.
"now we need a picture. and dont try to say no." i said turning my camera on. happy took pictures of them for us.
"thanks happy." i said giving him a hug. "yeah thanks now shell leave me alone about it." jax said giving him a guy hug. "no problem" happy said packing up his machine and everything.

its been a few weeks since me and jax got our tattoos. they have healed which means i have gone back to fully training. happy and chibs made sure they didnt hit my tattoo so they couldnt bust my skin or mess it up somehow. ive really toned up since i started working with them.

its saturday and most of the guys were on a run it was just jax, opie, and half-sac, and piney here. we were at TM playing basketball and "working the office" we werent that busy so gemma went home and left us to answer the phones. everyone was supposed to be back by tonight but i figured they wouldnt be back till tomorrow.

lyla was in shorts and a tank top. i had on shorts and a sports bra cause i was working out with half-sac right before we started playing ball and i didnt feel like changing. jax, opie and half-sac had their shirts off. tara hasnt been back round here since the day they got in a fight and its been nice having jax back to his normal self. we were jsut shooting around since half-sac joined in. the phone rang and sac took off to answer it.
"if i make this shot all four of us go to the cabin tonight when the guys get back." jax said before shooting the ball and making it. "if you wanted to go to the cabin you just had to ask jax." i said laughing.
"yeah whatever were going. yall better go pack a bag ladies." jax told us.

next thing i knew i was being spray with water. "OH MY GOD. THATS COLD" i yelled turning around to see opie standing there holding a water gun laughing. half-sac threw me, lyla and jax one. "oh its on now." i yelled squirting opie.

we ran around forever shooting each other with water. we were all drenched which im sure opie and jax loved. i noticed a car pull in but we all kept chasing each other. jax grabbed lyla and picked her up making her scream we all laughed. "jax put me down. im gonna get you." she yelled "in your dreams darlin. im so scared." jax yelled back putting her down and running. i ran into half-sac who was just standing there "the fuck kip." i said following his gaze until i seen tara standing there with her arms crossed and donna in the back leaning against taras car. she cleared her throat trying to get jaxs attention. "whyd you stop babe?" opie yelled running to me. i just looked at him then looked at tara and donna. lyla walked over to us. jax finally noticed her and walked over to her.

"well there goes our plans for the weekend. come on ly lets go get dressed and go home." i said shaking my head and started walking away.
opie grabbed my hand and turned me around "why you leaving?" he asked looking sad. "obviously she wants to talk to you. and jax is gonna do whatever tara wants like always. so im just gonna go home and spend the night drinking with ly." i told him "i dont care if she wants to talk. youre my girl taylor. ill tell her to leave. what do i gotta do to prove to you im all in?" he asked me pulling me to him. "its fine ope. i believe you but i dont feel like playing anymore." we hughed each other.

"YOU GOT A MATCHING TATTOO WITH HER??!!" we heard tara yelling. "TARA STOP!" jax yelled.

"is this bitch series. ill knock her the fuck out. ive tried to be nice and be her friend." i said pulling back from opie.

"I TELL YOU I WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE AND YOURE BREAKING UP WITH ME!! BUT THE PERFECT TAYLOR IS GONNA GO ALL THE WAY TO NEW YORK AND YOU GET A FUCKIN TATTOO WITH HER."  tara yells then slapped jax.
he said something else before she stormed back to her car slamming the door and flying out if the lot. jax stood there for a minute.

"whats she talking about tay?" lyla asked.
"please tell me youve told jax." opie asked.
"i havent had a chance hes been going through it and didnt want to add to it. plus im not going its just an offer. sorry ly i didn't tell you. im not going anywhere if anything ill do online and if i had to do anything in person i would drive to LA. i promise im not going anywhere."

we watched jax as he stood there for a minute. the guys pulled into the lot and jax went into the clubhouse. i gave my dad a hug when he got off his bike. i went inside to find jax.