hard to love

Chapter 19

***there is mention of sexual assault.***

tigs POV

i kept my eye on taylor after i heard jax yell at her. i didnt like how he was acting tonight. him or opie. taylor walked up to me and pulled herself under my arm. "hey baby you still having a good birthday?" i asked kissing her head "yeah daddy i am. thank you. lets go get a drink and clean you up hap got you good a couple times." she said which caused clay and chibs to laugh "if you say so. lets go baby." i said glaring at chibs and clay. we went to the bar i got a beer but taylor got some jack and a beer "damn taylor how much you had do i need to cut you off?" "not much daddy im sober. if i take my heels off then you need to cut me off." she said lauging.

 we walked back to my dorm she went to get some stuff out the bathroom she wiped my face and hands off then washed her hands. i was sitting on the bed and instead of sitting by me she leaned against the desk by the door, i could tell she was nervous.

"taylor whats wrong?" i asked walking to her. she gave me a hug "please dont be mad, please listen to me and let me finish." i pulled back to look at her she had tears in her eyes and a couple rolling down her cheeks. i wiped them off. 

"taylor whatever it is tell me, please." i pleaded i hated seeing her hurt. she grabbed my arms almost to steady herself. "im with opie." she told me i jumped back "WHAT!!" i said almost yelling. "please daddy calm down." "im gonna kill that kid" i said turning around she grabbed my hand "please daddy no. theres more." i turned around "you better not be pregnant." i said she laughed "TAYLOR NICOLE TRAGER" i yelled out "no daddy im not pregnant. can i finish please?" i shook my head yes. we both got a cigarette out i lit mine then held the lighter out for her.

so i wasnt the best dad or role model. but thats how this life is you start drinking and smokeing young. i just told her to be careful not to let outsiders see her do any of it.

"theres a reason opie just fought kyle. about a year ago me and opie--" "no. no. oh baby what no dont tell me that you're not supposed to being doing that." i said "im sorry daddy." "why are telling me this and not him?" i asked man was i mad. "he wanted to but i wanted to be the one to tell you. i didnt want you to hurt him daddy." "oh taylor im gonna beat the kid. he knew you were off limits." i told her as i started pacing "but daddy i love him. it wasnt some one night thing." "oh fuck i dont need to hear how many times damn." i said "hes been with donna and youve been with that jake kid what about that other kid you danced with earlier."

 "alright dad. yes thats all true. but we both was trying to hide how we felt because i was off limits i didnt want anything to mess with the club. me and jake are just friends dad we realized that. and the kid i was dancing with is tyler, just a friend. theres something else you need to know daddy." she said then took a drink of her beer, she paused for a minute. i looked at her waiting "out with it nicole." "umm please dont hate me but i like girls daddy." i frize she what "do what" "i like girls. well so far one girl. ive been wanting to tell you but ive been so scared you would hate me" i could tell she was about to cry i hugged her "baby i could never hate you. so what as long as your happy baby." "okay well tyler is just a friend but his sister amber is who taught me how to dance. and also who i had in the pool the other week. i hated laying to you. please dont be mad at jax for lying about that be was covering for me cause i was scared to tell you." "wow. you got my own brothers lying to me" "oh daddy please no. i never wanted that. i didnt want to mess up the club or cause problems." "then why you deciding to tell me tonight baby. im just gonna have a talk with them." "daddy i dont want the whole club knowing all this." i took a drink of my beer.

"daddy theres more. im so sorry. i wish so bad that was all i needed to tell you." i looked at her waiting. "can we go to opies dorm him and jax are there i dont want to repeat this all again please." "whats going on taylor?" i asked "please daddy. and please be nice or not beat them? " "ill try but cant promise anything lets go." i said opening the door. we walked up the hall, i barged into the room. "me and you are going in the ring opie." i said pointing at him, he shook his head yes. "no daddy please." taylor pleaded shutting the door. i just looked at her. opie and jax were sitting on the bed, taylor pulled the desk chair out and signaled for me to sit. once i did she started pacing.