hard to love

chapter 108

"How do you know?"

"I didnt know then who it was but I heard him say SAMCRO called about Cameron said they told you I wasn't there. I seen him the day Jimmy took me, they argued about you all finding out I was here. He's not the only one working with Jimmy though."

Taylor told them both the President and VP of Sambel were against them. She knew it would be hard since Mcgee was first 9. Taylor went with Gemma to Maureens while the guys talked and came up with a plan to handle their problem.

Opie wanted to talk to Happy but knew he probably wouldn't get much from the man. He found Happy sitting outside at a table away from everyone and walked over hoping no one else would join them.

"You good after that blow up?"

Happy nodded "im good, Ope."

"Good. You know Taylor was really worried about you when she heard about it."
Happy didnt respond. "She really cares about you Hap."

Happy just looked at him. "Okay?" He questioned.

"I think she's upstairs trying to make sure everyone's packed up and not leaving anything behind." Opie patted his shoulder before he stood up and walked away. He didnt want to take anything from Taylor telling Happy how she felt or even talk about what happened between them, he wasn't sure he ever truly wanted to know anything about what has happened between Taylor and Happy, he just knew she deserved to be happy.

Happy watched Opie walk off confused on why he even told him that, until Juice sat down.

"Go up there and tell her Happy. Now before it's to late."

"You tell him that shit." Happy snapped.

"Nah not me. I promised I wouldn't say shit to anyone. I was just there for a part of that conversation and you should go talk to Taylor. You never know with how shits been happening, you might not get another chance."

Happy shook his head. "No"

"What you worried she'll reject you? Grow some balls and just tell her." Juice walked away before Happy could say anything.

Happy took a minute before he want upstairs. He had never been nervous before and this shit was making him nervous.

"Oh hey Hap." Taylor said as he came in through the main door. She was putting Juices bag on the couch. "I was just bringing everyone's bags out and checking the rooms. I know you probably want to check yours I know how picky you are." Ahe laughed

She knew how he liked thing, how everything had to be in order.

Happy wasn't sure what to say "Yeah I was going to pack but I see you've done that."

"Oh God, is that weird? Everyone had most of their stuff in the bags already I just picked up random things and threw them in the bags. Figured it would be easier for everyone and we can leave soon and wanted to give you guys time to handle everything and Oh man I hope no one gets mad." She rambled all she could think about was the possibility of him being hurt and how bad she hurt not knowing.

Happy laughed "Its alright. I'm sure those lazy fucks will appreciate it." He went back towards the room he was staying in not even sure why.

Taylor came in a minute later "see I got everything. Don't trust me Hap?"

"I trust you more than most people."

Taylor was stunned he had never told her that.

"R-really?"

"I do."

Happy pulled her into a hug before she finished processing his words. Taylor tightened her arms around him while laying her head against his chest, she could hear his heart beat. This was the safest she felt in over a year. After he started sleeping in her room when he came to New york this was how she normally fell asleep, her head on his chest. His heart beat became one of her favorite sounds, it was a lullaby for her. She never told him that but that's why every time they hugged, cuddled or just got done fucking she would turn her head and lay her ear against his chest and listen. Anytime she dreamed of Happy she could hear it like it was real.