hard to love

Chapter 14

**there is sexual conduct and talk in this chapter

opies POV

so this is they guy taylors with i thought as i watched them dance. seeing his hands on her makes me so mad. apparently hes already met jax, lyla and half-sac what a traitor my brothers are. taylor and him stopped dancing and everyone cheered i joined in a little. i watched as tig walked up hoping he was going to kick him out but he didnt, they fucking shook hands. i watched as taylor lead him outside. i followed them if he tried anything i was going to stop it. when i walked outside she was curled against his side with his arm over her shoulders. i heard her laugh a couple times after a few minutes he got up to leave. i went back inside before she seen me. i walked to the end of the bar. taylor walked past me to jaxs dorm. i needed to talk to her and give her my other gift. i sat down on the bed and waited for her to come out of the bathroom.

Taylor's POV

"jesus christ ope you scared me." i chuckled.

"sorry Tay i have another gift for you and i couldnt give it to you in front of everyone else."

i just looked at him. this was the first time we spoke alone since our fight. the first time we were alone. all i could think about was how handsome he was. i walked to stand in front of him. he looked up at me.

"is this what you feel like looking up at everyone all the time?" he asked laughing

"no you didnt" i laughed and pushed his shoulder

"this is a whole new perspective." he said looking me up and dowdown slowly "i like it." "oh i bet you do." i turned around to walk out when he grabbrd my wrist and pulled me back towards him i stumbled and fell into him. i was now sitting on his lap with his free hand landing on my hip. "ope." is all i could say. he pulled a box out of his kutte with a blue bow wrapped around it. i looked at the box then at ope he smiled "open it taylor." i slowly pulled the bow until it untied then opened the box. there was a note on top

Taylor,

I hope you like the stuff for the jeep. i know how much you wanted that jeep. i know i messed up and i hurt you. i said and done some shit i didnt mean and i regret it more than anything. i will spend however long to make it up to you and prove to you that i do love you. youre the one. youre it for me taylor nicole trager. i love you with every fiber of my being.

-Love Opie.

i lifted the note and gasped. there was a necklace with two hearts locked together. it was so beautiful. if you looked closely on the back was engraved with "T" on one heart and a "O" on the other. i teared up and looked at him smiling. "i love it opie. thank you." he put his hand on my cheek and wiped my tear away. he turned my face so i was looking at him. looking into each others eyes we both leaned in and kissed each other.

i turned to straddle him and deepened the kiss. he tightend his hands on my hips which made me grind into him. he leaned back so we were laying down then rolled us so he was on top of me. he was in between my legs and i could feel him hard against me making me moan. he began to kiss down my neck which made me stop. amber flashed before my eyes. shit. what was i doing? then i thought of donna. fuck.

"ope" "hmm" "opie stop." i said pushing him up, he looked at me confused "we cant do this opie." he sat up. i stood up. "im sorry this shouldnt have happened. im kinda with someone." i said standing a few feet in front of him. he looked at me, then walked up to me. "oh youre kinda with someone." he gently walked me back until i was stuck between him and the wall. he had his hands on either side if my head looking down at me i couldnt look away from him.

 "yeah ope im with someone." he nodded "you may be with someone but you cant tell me what just happened wasnt real, what we feel for each other isnt real. you cant tell me you dont love me. i know you taylor. we are meant to be together. you and i both know it." he said tracing a hand down my side until it landed on my hip. "ope it doesnt matter. We're getting to know each other and i dont want to mess it up just to be second choice" "it does matter taylor. You have always been my first choice and always will be! i know everything about you. if i squeeze right here i know what it does to you (he squeezed my hip), i know that if i kiss you right here it sends shivers down your spine (he kissed right under my ear), i know if i kiss right here it makes your whole body tense (he kissed right above my collarbone), i know if i lick right here it sends shivers throughout your entire body and gives you goosebumps. (he licked right above my breast going towards my nipple), i know all of you. i know all your spots, exactly what buttons to push, and how to love you." i couldnt catch my breathe i was basically panting, i could feel and almost hear his smile. "i bet this is soaking wet because of me." he said cupping my heat. jesus he was right. i involuntarily grinded myself against his hand "see im right taylor." god was he so right. "doesnt matter opie." i said shaking my head "you can keep telling yourself that maybe youll start to believe it. no matter how many times you say it, it wont make it true and you know it babe." he said laying his forehead against mine. 

"it is true opie im happy." "keep saying it taylor. you know everything i just said is true." he stepped back from "opie no its not. im with someone, im happy. i actually care about who im with." "wow. that stung tay. you can be with him all you want but we both know you still think about me, you know you love me. i bet he doesnt make you feel what i do. i bet he doesnt make you cum they way i can." he snapped back. i laughed "wow say what you really feel. i can guarantee who i with satisfies me like ive never been before." "i dont believe that one bit. no matter what i will always be in the back of your mind." i scoffed he stepped back against me putting his hand by my head again. 

 "does your boyfriend know hours before he was in you that i was there bare and unprotected, you were screaming my name, that i was your first everything. the first person to kiss you, to explore your body, to know all of your spots, your tales, to know what it feels like to be inside of you, to cum inside of you while you cum all over my dick. no matter who youre with it will always be me and you know it." i was seeing red.

 "yes they know. none of that matters opie. please." "i love you taylor. you love me. were meant to be." "i believed that until you broke my heart." i said pushing his chest "yeah and you broke mine that night. when i heard you with him my world crumbled, i am so lost without you" "cant be to lost you have donna. i should go." i stepped under his arm and grabbed the door handle "i broke up with her. right after our fight i went and broke up with her. like i said youre the only one for me and the only one ive been with." "im sorry ope." i said as i walked out the door.