hard to love

chapter 26

opies POV
 

all the guys were outside even pop. me and jax were sitting at the end of the bar drinking. lyla and taylor were on the roof probably drunk as hell.

"ope you good man?" jax asked me i just sat there for a minute. "no man. i fucked up." i told him shaking my head, i pulled out a cigarette "when donna came by earlier she asked if that was it us just being done i told her i was with Taylor. when i went to open the door for her to leave she kissed me. i let it happen got carried away went to the bed, she said she loved me which made me snap out of it i jumped up and told her i was with taylor and loved her that she needed to leave she ran out crying tig was right there and threatened me. nothing else happened. after church earlier tay was in my dorm i told her about the kiss. (i paused for a minute to control myself i wanted to cry but i didnt want jax to see) kyle sent her a video of the kiss and me and donna on the bed but it stopped before i stopped it. even gave her this picture." i handed him the picture. he shook his head i could tell he was pissed. "damn you did fuck up. no wonder shes like this right now. how the hell did he see that we gotta deal with him." we didnt talk after that. 

after a few minutes we could hear taylor talking about that girl she was hooking up with. it broke my heart to hear her talk about her and how much she meant to her. i tried to stop the tears but the broke through. i guess jax noticed cause he got up, squeezed my shoulder and climbed up the ladder to the roof. i grabbed the bottle and went to my dorm. 

i wanted to tell tay the only reason i let this kiss happen was cause of the pictures i got of her and happy. but that wasnt an excuse i just fucked it thats it.