The Light Before Dawn (BxB)

Chapter 10

I am now stroking both of our manhood. I didn't hear any disapproval from him. We are just looking at each other while I'm doing it. I continue what I'm doing, pinaghusayan ko pa ito nang makitang kinakagat niya ang kaniyang labi, but what made me lose my mind is when he start moving his hips, feeling the rhythm of how I stroke both of ours at the same time

My room was filled with moans and curses. Masyadong masarap sa pakiramdam ang nangyayari ngayon kaya hinayaan ko nang kontrolin ako ng aking katawan.

"My love, I'm near." Fuck, the way Lucas said it was fucking sexy. I'm close too that's why I do it even faster.

We are both near our climax, but then,

"Sorry, Benj!" He said, ruining all the sexy things I have in my mind. 

He suddenly got out on top of me. Wala na siyang pakialam kahit kitang kita ko ang katigasan niya. Agaran na siyang tumungo sa banyo nang nagmamadali, muntikan pang madulas.

After that sexy encounter with him, I often get nightmares doing a lot of things like that with him. Then, I always found myself wet. If that didn't happen, I'll get tissue and lotion nang sa gayon ay mailabas ko ito at makatulog na. Ano bang ginagawa niya? This is too much! That nice body, that round and big ass, shit!

Today is Satuday, noong isang linggo pa nangyari ang presentation namin kaya naman we decided to celebrate it dahil hindi naman busy ang aming mga schedule. Napagkasunduan namin na dito naman sa resort nila Dylan ito gawin dahil malayo ito sa Bataan, makagala man lang kahit papaano. Kasama na namin siyang anim and I can see that they are all enjoying his company, specially Jayden.

Pinagmamasdan ko lang silang naliligo sa sa pool dahil medyo nilalamig ako, kanina pa nila kami inaayang tatlo ni Sam at Dylan. Ako ayoko, ewan ko sa dalawang katabi ko. Naglalandian kaya hindi matinag.

My relationship with Lucas shifted within a week. After the incident ay pinagtyagaan namin parehas na 'wag na pag-usapan ito, not that we compromised about it. Maybe it just so happens about the matter of our choices.

Sa buong linggo na iyon ay halos magkasama kaming dalawa. We enjoy each other's company kahit na ang madalas lang namin gawin bukod doon sa project ay manood ng pelikula o kali man ay mag-away. Madalas siyang matulog sa bahay noong unang mga araw ng paggawa, may pagkakataon pa na sabay kaming pumapasok kung wala siyang lakad o mga gagawin.

His presence is always enough. We never really talked about each other's drama or anything about us. I know that he already knows a lot of thing about me dahil na rin sa madalas niyang kakwentuhan sila Mommy, Charles, at ang tatay ko na hindi na ulit umalis sa bahay. Minsan nga ay nakikita ko na pati sila ate at manang ay kausap niya rin.

I want to know him more dahil ang tanging alam ko lang sa kaniya ay ang pagiging lamigin niya kaya madalas ay hinihinaan ko pa ang aircon para sa kaniya. Mahilig din siya sa mga itim na damit, dahil halos lahat ng nasa walk in closet ko na damit niya ay mas marami ang itim. Napansin ko rin na hindi ito madalas na nagccellphone, kapag may mga message ay doon niya lang ito tinitignan, ang madalas na hawak nito ay libro. Aside from those, he told me that he's claustrophobic when I teased him, covering him with the whole blanket. He also has these two bracelets that he always wore on his right arm and watch on his left. I noticed thousands of big and little things about him, but what I love the most is when he always falls asleep anywhere, madalas ay sa balikat ko pa ito ginagawa. King hindi nga lang niya ako binilinan tungkol sa contact lenses na sinusuot niya ay malamang hahayaan ko lang siya. To be honest, I don't think if I'll ever find a connection as deep as this, the comfort, the care. We rarely talked to each other but our actions towards one are already enough.

As I am looking at them, or most specially at him, I realized that he always makes me feel something that even I, cannot imagine myself of feeling, especially to him, my enemy. I'd rather not say it, it's better this way. Not that I am ashamed on what I will be, but because of how afraid I am of the world we're both going to face. I know somehow that he felt the same way too, but something inside me is saying that it's not. I don't want to give meanings on his every move. I just met him, he didn't grow up having friends or anyone to share the bond with. And that maybe the reason why he shows too much affection on me.