The Light Before Dawn (BxB)

Epilogue: Part Two

Benjamin woke up.

He's been asleep for so long that he didn't even realize that the five had already left. I already cooked him our supposed to be lunch, but I think that this will be an almost dinner meal.

I waited for him and sat on the floor right next to the sofa. I am looking at him as I admire his beauty and all of his characteristics which made me even fall for him. Even though he's a bully and grumpy at times, I can't help but to still fall for him. Sa'min lang naman siya ganito, lalo na sa akin. Now, I don't think that he'll do it again now that we're official.

As he realized that I am looking at him, I can't help but to laugh. I don't know why his face is so stunned because of the way he looks at me, but it didn't made me feel to love him any less. Kahit pa kumulubot ang balat namin, kahit pa matatanda na kami at halos hindi na kami makatayo nang maayos ay gusto ko na siya ang kasama ko. Siya lang ang pipiliin ko.

He'll always have me 'til my last breath. You are my home, Benjamin and I don't want to loose you. Let me sleep if that happens because that's better. I can't face the reality without you by my side. I don't want that, my love.

Still with a stunned face, his tears started to fell as he went straight to me and hugged me to the extent where I can't even breath that well, but I prefer this though. Ramdam ko ang pagmamahal niya, ramdam ko ang buong siya.

"Did you have a nightmare?" I asked him. His face was now buried in my neck as he is crying. What happened earlier, in the balcony, us talking, kissing, is still not sinking in. Dadagdagan mo pa ng ganito kahigpit na yakap. Kahit nangangamba ako sa mga nangyayari ay hindi ko mapigilan ang matuwa.

I got my dream, Benj. I got you.

"Yes." He said crying. "Don't leave me, Lucas. I'll do everything I can, please." Why are you pleading, Benjamin? I won't do that! We just started our relationship earlier and you're thinking about that?

"You'll always have me, Benjamin. I will be always here with you without any condition. You don't have to plead." I replied.

He separated from the hug. He is now looking at me, still crying. I smiled at him, assuring him that everything will be fine as long as we choose each other. 

"Are you real? Am I still dreaming? Please tell me the truth." After saying that he closed his eyes as he waits for me to answer that.

"Yes. This is real, Benjamin. I am real, this is the reality."

Then he hugged me again. Just like earlier, it's tight. It feels like he's craving of me, of my heart, of my soul. I feel the same way, Benj. I feel the same way.

"Lucas."

"Benjamin."

We are now here on top of the mountain, as the amazing view of Bataan at night is in front of us, celebrating our fifth anniversary. Time flies so fast that it feels like yesterday since we became official. Our relationship is not always happy. We always go through the tough times. Gaya ng ipakilala niya ako sa kaniyang mga magulang. It almost ended us when his Dad decided that he'll bring Benjamin out of the country without anyone knowing. As usual, Benjamin's stubbornness prevails. He almost got out of his home. Buti ay napigilan ko ito. Ayaw ko na ako ang maging dahilan kung bakit siya magtatanim ng sama ng loob sa kaniyang magulang. Bukod pa ro'n ay baka lumayo rin ang loob sa kaniya ni Charles kung sakali man na sa'kin na siya titira. Kaya hangga't kaya kong maipaliwanag sa kaniya ang lahat nang hindi ko naisasantabi ang nararamdaman niya ay ginagawa ko. Alam ko ang mga pinagdaan niya sa buhay pero hindi ko alam kung papaano niya ito naramdaman.

"Charles' calling." He said.

"Hey, Charles! Kumusta ang ginawa natin na project mo?" I said after I immediately get his phone out of his hand.