The Light Before Dawn (BxB)

Chapter 27

Years passed by. We celebrated our anniversaries outside the country. Our birthdays with the seven of us and a lot of holidays and special events together. When it comes to Benjamin, we did a lot of stuff except that we haven't really gave in each other's butt to wreck. We never really talk about it though. I am not ready for that and I know that he isn't too. Maybe what we have and what we do for each other is enough and having these intimate moments with him will not some up our whole relationship. It can spice it, but it won't be defined by it. You know, almost flipping up the whole grocery stores here in Bataan just because he wanted to have a "medyo sunog na skyflakes". It also adds how grumphy he is when he is really hungry and I like that. Madalas siyang masungit sa iba pero kapag gutom ay ako ang sasalo lahat ng ito. He has this face that will really made my lungs out because of how "magugulatin" he is and also how he laughs everytime I tripped because of being clumsy. It's insulting yet sexy. There's a lot of traits that he has which really made me fall inlove with him even more. It is maybe a small thing for other, but for me and hopefully for him also, it matters.

We never really display public intimacy with each other kahit na napilitan kaming sabihin ang lahat ng tungkol sa amin. We never hold hands in public anymore, kahit ang mga naughty things na ginagawa namin tuwing nasa labas ay tinaggal na namin. Lagi lang naming ginagawa ang pagsandal sa isa't isa kapag nasa labas kami bukod doon ay wala na. We are still being careful. He is not yet ready and I can wait for him. When it comes in social media, I can see that he always posted picture of us together in his Instagram. I find it really sweet especially when it comes with a simple caption. We never posted it on Facebook dahil mayroon ang mga magulang niya. Hanggang ngayon nga ata ay hindi ko pa rin inaccept ang friend request niya rito dahil hindi naman kami friends in real life. I always laugh at the thought. Napilitan tuloy akong gumawa ng instagram na tanging siya ang laman. Ang tanging picture lang na mayroon ako ay ang mukha ko sa profile. He doesn't have any clue about it though, baka kiligan siya at magpamilya na kami kapag nakita niya ito kaya hindi ko pinapaalam ito sa kaniya. Bukod pa roon ay ayaw kong mabugbog dahil puro stolen ang mga ito, ang iba naman ay nakatingin siya pero kadalasan ay ang mga nakatunganga siya, kumakain, o di kaya ay natutulog.

Now, we are both a graduating student, iilang araw na lang ay matatapos na kami sa kolehiyo. Tanging defense nalang ang kulang at gagraduate na kami. Mahirap kung tutuusin lalo na at lagi kaming puyat na dalawa. Halos ilipat niya na ang lahat ng ang kama niya rito dahil nandito na ang halos lahat ng gamit niya . Sabay kaming nag-aaral parati, nagtutulungan. Kung minsan ay kumakayod pa ako ng extra review dahil lagi niya itong nakakatulugan. Gigisingin ko nalang siya mula sa lamesa kapag naaral ko na nang mabuti ang lahat para kung may malilimutan siya ay ako agad ang tatawagin niya. I always make sure that we are both resting well dahil mahihirapan kami parehas. There are times that we are both breaking down and being there for each other is enough for us to both continue. We are a team and being with one as we go into these struggles is enough. He is enough for me kahit na may pagkakataon na nag-aaway kami. Madalas ay sa maliliit na bagay lang. Kung malaki naman ay uuwi siya sa kanila, ang akala naman niya ay hindi ko siya susundan. Lilipat lang naman kami sa kama niya. It's normal, we always choose to understand each other. We communicate, we always choose to forgive and show love in spite of not saying it.

"I couldn't ask for more." We both said this as we are now walking towards a fast food chain in the middle of night with us being alone having only the street lamps to witness how so much gratitude I feel towards Him and him.

"What are your plans after we graduated?" I asked him.

"Before, I really wanted to be in a firm outside the country. Like somewhere in Europe, alam ito nila Mommy, but now I have you. It's still my plan as long as you are with me. If you are not then it is not anymore." Pagsagot niya rito.