ADHD Dribblings: Poems & Thoughts From A Mind Lost In Motion

I'll Give It My Best Sir

I'll give it all until the candles run out.
I'll give it all until your taste is out my mouth.
I'll give it all until my giving's at the end.
I'll give it all until my heart will slowly mend.

I wished it wasn't over.
I wished it was just nerves.
I wished it wasn't you
I felt leave the earth.

I wished it was all just
My shaky disposition.
I wished it wasn't all
A sparkling intuition.

I wished I never said
To leave was not an issue.
I wished I never gave you words
That you could misuse.

I'll give it all until the candles run out.
I'll give it all until your taste is out my mouth.
I'll give it all until my giving's at the end.
I'll give it all until my heart will slowly mend.

When I said that I would
Let you go to give you space.
I didn't mean to plant
The seeds of last embrace.

I didn't mean that it was me
You could erase.
I didn't mean to bring
About our fall from grace.

I wished that losing you
Was never by permission.
I wished I reworded
My final admonition.

I wished it was me who could
bring your heart back in,
And heal the memories
That sent you all a packin'

Maybe it was you
Who became my only friend,
Who made me laugh,
And took my laughter all again.

I'd give it all to see you
smiling in the wake
Of all the threats
Of all these souls here left to take.

I'll give it all until the candles have run out.
I'll give it all until your taste is out my mouth.
I'll give it all until my giving's at the end.
I'll give it all until my heart will slowly mend.

I know for you that I would
Move the heavens and the earth.
I know for you that I would
Give it my best, sir. My best sir.

10/16/21