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Chapter 47

Felix and I were sitting in the stairwell, in front of my apartment door. We laid out something to sit on. We put on jackets because it was so cold here and I even took out a wool blanket in which we cuddled up next to each other. We warmed each other with body heat and words. There was so much I wanted to ask him that at first I didn't even know where to start. But once we started we couldn't stop talking anymore. 

We talked about our work places and I found out he worked in a children's home but only part-time since he wanted to help Blair around the house and that was more important to him than having a lot of money. Besides, he didn't need to earn a lot since he and Blair had a joint bank account.

Felix laughed when I called Blair his 'sugar daddy'. „Don't say that," he laughed. „It's not like that! I really love him."

„Do you have daddy issues?"

„Daddy issues?"

„How's your father?"

Felix thought for a second. Then he said, „I barely see him. Unfortunately."

„Daddy issues." Felix hit me softly with his shoulder and laughed and we laughed together and at the same time tried not to laugh since we were here in the hallway of the apartment building, in front of my door, in the middle of the night and every sound we made echoed.

I found out that his parents split up a few years ago and he moved in with Blair in his early age because he didn't have an own room at his family's new place.

I told Felix I didn't like to talk about my brother and he asked another question. But I did tell him about my parents and about how my mother hated me and Felix tried to talk me out of that, but I just shook my head. „If she doesn't hate me she definitely prefers my sisters and my brother."

„What about your father?"

„Oh I love my father." I immediately smiled again. „He treats everyone the same. He's an awesome person."

We talked and forgot the world around us until Felix leaned forward and looked at the transparent front door. „Oscar," he said. „It's getting lighter, isn't it?"

I checked my phone for the time and laughed a little in shock. „It's already past five."

He joined me. „Did we really just talk four hours?"

„And a half."

„I have to be at work by seven," Felix said.

„Maddie has to be at school by eight." We looked at each other and laughed. Guess we were just really tired. „Should we sleep a few more hours?" Felix nodded and we stood up. We squeezed carefully into bed, me next to Maddie and Felix stared at me and asked, „how should I fit there?"

I raised my hand. „Come here," I whispered and he slowly snuggled up against me. I closed my eyes with a smile on my face. My arms around his small and warm body. Felix shivered and mumbled, „It's cold" and I rubbed my hands on his arms.

„Sorry," I whispered. „I only have one blanket." And Maddie used all of it. I didn't want to wake her up just to get a little of the blanket.

„It's okay." He slid closer to me and I slowly drifted away to sleep, feeling way too comfortable as close as I was to him. „You're warm."

I woke up in the morning to voices and laughter. It took me a while to understand that it was Felix and Maddie and that I was alone in bed. The next thing I noticed was the smell. I sat up with half-open eyes and saw Felix how he put the fork in his mouth. Then his eyes met mine.

„Oscar!" he said happily. „You're awake!" Maddie turned around and her mouth was dirty.

I checked the clock. It was only six thirty. But when Felix had to be at work at seven... I wanted to enjoy every last second with him. I sat down with them. Felix probably cooked some leftovers together and experimented a little. „What's this?"

„This," Felix said, „should be an omelette. Apparently Maddie doesn't know how to make omelets. But there's still bacon if you like."

„Bacon?" I raised a brow. „I would know if I still had bacon."

„Well, actually it was slices of ham for bread."

„Oh."

Felix stood up and licked his fingers clean. „I have to go now."

„Already?"

Felix gave me an apologetic look. „I'm sorry," he said softly after I followed him into the hall while Maddie continued to eat. Felix put on his jacket and shoes and I brought him the scarf that he hadn't even taken off yesterday in his sleep. Then he just looked at me when he was done. „I'll text you later, okay?"

I nodded. I don't know why I didn't want him to go so bad. He couldn't stay here with me forever. But I think he felt the same. Felix glanced into the kitchen, but Maddie was busy eating. I told him yesterday that nobody in my family knew that I was bi. Now he stood a little on tiptoe, gently holding on my shoulder and pressing his lips to mine. It wasn't that long, but it wasn't just a peck either. I moved forward because I wanted more. But there was no time and Maddie was just a few meters away from us. 

„Bye Oscar." Felix's eyes were sparkling. Then he broke away from me.