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Chapter 60

I didn't know what time it was when I woke up but it was definitely too early to be awake for me. It was fucking hot, I could sense a lot of warmth behind me. The reason I woke up. I felt something heavy on me, on my waist. I blinked and turned my head to the right. „Shit," I whispered. „What the fuck..." I sat up und threw his arm away from me. He opened his eyes. Or one at least, half. „Don't touch me," I muttered and let my head fall back to the pillow. The sleep was still heavy on my eyes.

Blair turned around and yawned, then stretched his body a little. „Morning," he said softly and sat up slowly. That was when I saw that huge red hickey on his throat. Ops.

„That was fucking cheesy. Don't do that again."

„Oscar, calm down," he said and grabbed his phone on the bedside table, only to take a quick look. „I thought you were Felix." He put his phone down again.

I sighed when I thought of Felix and I turned my body around. And I thought about yesterday, starring at the ceiling. I didn't even know how to go on now. What was I supposed to do? There was no way I could save Maddie if not by kidnapping her to the police. „When's Felix coming back?"

„I'm not gonna tell you." He took on his underwear, then his pants.

„God, you're really enjoying this, aren't you? Keeping me away from him. Not telling me where he is and when he comes home."

„You should go home, Oscar."

„Why?" I asked, sitting up as well, even if my whole body was speaking against it, looking for my own pants and underwear. „Is Felix coming home already?" He didn't answer, he walked into the kitchen and I heard the coffee machine rustling. „Can I have a glass of water at least before I go?" I asked when I finally stood fully dresses at the kitchen door.

„Suit yourself," he said after taking a sip of his cup. „Coffee?"

„Nah. I'm just gonna smoke on my way home." I drank a full glass of water at once. I sighed in relish. „Where the fuck's my jacket?"

„Living room," he mumbled behind his cup, seemed to enjoy his coffee. I got my jacket, grabbed my helmet and walked to the door. „Goodbye Oscar."

„Yeah bye." I don't know why I was so relieved when I closed the door behind me and lit my cigarette on the way out. Guess I just hated early mornings and my whole body was aching and that asshole hadn't even offered me a heat pad. Blair had never just told me so openly that I should go home. Not that I had a problem with him sending me home, I was just damn tired.

I left my cigarette in my mouth to put on my jacket because it was freezing outside. My hair was still greasy and sweaty from yesterday and I brushed it away from my face with my fingers, walking towards my motorcycle.

„Oscar?" I stopped automatically when I heard his voice and looked to the left. My heart went from zero to hundred. Fuck. „Oh my god, hey!" I just stood there like an idiot when Felix walked towards me with a thick grocery bag. His cheeks and his nose were slightly red from the cold, his hair covered under a brown beanie. He was wearing mittens. Mittens. Fuck, it wasn't even that cold.

His hands clung to the bag behind which he smiled at me. „Sorry, Blair said you're already gone." He grinned. „I couldn't just ignore you." The bag seemed to slide down and he wanted to hold it up with his knee. 

„No, I..." I shook my head, shook the sudden shock of his smiling eyes and his bight voice away and took a step towards him. „Let me help you. That looks heavy."

„It's okay," he said, but I already grabbed the bag and lifted it. „Thanks. That's sweet of you."

God, I had to pull myself together not to smile too strong. I bit my lip to prevent it. Why was I suddenly so awkward? That boy was really doing something to me. „Sure."

„So?" He glanced over at me as we walked up the stairs I had run down just a few seconds earlier. „How's it going with your secret matter?"

„Uhm... Well, actually not very good. Yesterday was terrible."

Felix starred at me and I tried to ignore it, but my heart pounded warmth into my body and my cheeks felt like burning. „You look tired," he said and buried his hands in his coat pockets. Yeah, well, maybe because your boyfriend literally fucked me up half of the night. „Are you sure it's not too heavy? I can help."

„Don't worry. It's fine."

„Okay," he said softly. And when we arrived, he unlocked the door and took the bag from me. Then he looked at me with that kittenish, playful smile. „At least text me sometimes, will you?" I pressed my lips together, preventing a smile. Everything in my stomach was racing with adrenaline.

He clicked his tongue. „Look at you," he said, laughing a little. „You're so cute when you blush. Did you miss me?"

I couldn't help it now. I grinned. „God," I laughed. „Always flirting, aren't you?"

„Ah come on, I'm just teasing you a little." He kicked the door open with his knee. It was only one second but, god, just looking at his knee made me remember last time he was at my place. How he had slid his knee over my thigh... Touch me, he had whispered. My heart jumped only at the thought of kissing his neck. I flinched when he turned around to me. „Wanna come in again?"

Damn yes. „Nah. Gotta go now."

„Alright," he smiled and put the bag down, put his hand on the door. „Bye Oscar."

God, I thought and looked at his happy face for the last time. How I would love to just grab his arm and push him against the wall and... I swallowed. „Bye Felix."