I dropped my shoulders and my mouth was open. I couldn't even shape the beginning of a question, but I stammered the confused beginnings. „Wh... What?" I was so confused if I interpreted this right, I shook my head and wondered if I had misheard. Or where the mistake crept in. Was I so scared that I was clinging directly to this idea that Blair must have raped Felix?
I looked down and saw Blair's and Felix's hands intertwined. Somehow that stung my heart. „Blair immediately stopped when my brother said he's not me."
That didn't make any sense to me at all. „I don't believe that."
„My brother was in shock," Felix said. „He didn't know about Blair and me. He didn't even know Blair and I were gay. He said he wasn't able to move until he... until it was too late. Blair didn't intend to rape him."
„But..." But still. There was no excuse for rape. And every try to excuse rape was just a pathetic try to pretend innocent while you actually raped someone and destroyed a life. „It was still rape."
„Of course it was," Blair said. „But I never wanted to hurt anyone."
„It was a stupid misunderstanding," Felix said.
„It was still rape," I repeated louder. „It doesn't make any sense. How can someone be so stupid and not recognize his own boyfriend, seriously? And you believe him, Felix??"
„He was drunk, Oscar."
„So what?" I asked. „Not a fucking excuse."
Blair took a deep breath. „You're just freshening everything up right now. We've been doing great so far."
„Because you didn't talk about it and just pretended it never happened?"
„We talked about it. A lot. You're doing this more dramatic than it is."
„It is dramatic!" I shouted. „You raped someone, stop belittling it!" I wasn't sure anymore if I was talking to him or to my brother.
Blair touched his forehead. He looked stressed but I didn't really care about that. Then he just disappeared behind the door. Left me alone with Felix. And I looked at him for a few seconds. He sniffled and his eyes were sparkling with tears. I didn't know how to help him. I didn't even understand his tears. This was all too much for me either. But I knew before that Felix hated talking about it so I decided to stop it now.
„I should go," I said, my voice hoarse from yelling.
Felix suddenly grabbed my arm and looked at me as if he was scared. That's the point he started crying. „You're not leaving for good, are you?"
I could never, I thought and at the same time, I can't do this anymore. „I don't know." I broke away from him and felt a stab in my heart when I left him behind.
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