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Bonus Chapter 2

I kind of had a deja-vu when I opened the door and stared at Felix in surprise. I knew he wanted to spend the day with Blair and come to my place later that evening to stay over. His ears were reddened and the tips of his hair were wet. At first I thought it was raining, but there were flakes in his hair. „Holy shit, is it snowing??"

„Yep," he chuckled, stepping forward which automatically made me step aside to let him enter. He put his cold lips on my cheek, just a brief kiss. „I was also surprised."

„Wait, you said you'd come later?"

„Yep." He took off his scarf and lay it on one of the chairs in the kitchen. Then opened the buttons of his coat. „Why? Are you busy?"

„Well, no," I laughed. „Obviously not. Why are you here? Did something happen?" Felix suddenly threw his arms around me, his nose against mine, his breath warm on my face. „Felix..."

„Shh," he whispered. His hands were cold in my neck. And his hair looked even curlier than usual from the humidity. His lips touched mine while he whispered, „you're so warm..."

I kissed him passionately. I had no clue why he was here but it didn't matter now. All that mattered was his soft lips against mine replying my kiss, his slightly wet hair in my fingers and the way he clung to my neck, going on tiptoes to match my size. I knew exactly what he wanted. I lifted him up, took his left knee and he made a surprised sound as I pulled him up, clinging tighter, wrapping his other leg around my waist as well.

Apparently humans were heavier than I thought. I could barely carry him to the bed. I literally let him fall to the bed, leaning right over him. The lust made me forget everything that existed outside this bed. He shuddered as I ran my hand over the warm skin under his sweater, my hands were probably cold.

I put my lips on the crook of his neck. And when I softly sucked his skin between my lips he took a sudden breath, then continued breathing irregularly. I found myself grabbing for his pants without thinking. That's when he opened his eyes and looked at me with these hypnotic, half-open eyes. „Os," he breathed and held my hand.

„Let me try."

„No," he said. „I don't want that." Well, I accepted if he didn't want something. Of course I did. But what I didn't want to accept was him being scared or rejecting me just because he thinks he has to force himself not to get hard.

I put my arms left and right from his head and looked at him. „I think we should talk."

Felix grabbed my neck and pulled me down. „Not now," he whispered and kissed me again. I tried to talk between more kisses. „Felix, listen... mhh..." I was close to just go with it. Felix sure knew how to distract me so I wouldn't even realize how he escaped it again. I moved away from him when he raised his head like he wanted to kiss me again. „Stop avoiding it," I said.

He just looked up at me a little surprised. Then he sat up slowly, I copied him. „I'm sorry..."

„Why are you here, Felix?" I asked softly.

„I just... wanted to surprise you?"

„Does Blair know you're here?" He nodded. Then he stood up all out of sudden and a fear made me grab his arm. „Wait," I said and pulled him back. I thought he interpreted me wrong, I thought he wanted to leave again. „I didn't mean to reject you." We had talked about this before. He was too sensible to rejection. And apparently, Blair had rejected him quite often. „I just wanted to talk."

„I know." Felix stood up again. „Hang on." He walked, almost stumbled to the door where he had left his bag and rummaged in it, squatting on the floor. As he walked back, he looked kind of shy suddenly. I saw his hands surrounding something, playing around nervously as he sat next to me again. „I..." He pressed his lips together. „I know what you want to talk about," he started slowly, looking at his hands.