GRISHAVERSE X READERS

[KAZ BREKKER DRABBLE]

Prompt: "I was an idiot to ever trust you."

Warnings: angst, swearing, Kaz is very angry with you 😡

Word count: 721

It hadn't been your fault. One of the old ambassadors of Ravka, one of the men you had stolen from just a few years back before you had smuggled yourself to Ketterdam, happened to be in the same party where you had been holding a heist in. Seeing him had taken you off guard, and you had left your post after he had started to stare at you, which ultimately led to the whole plan falling down.

Now, you were standing at Kaz's office, listening to his scolding for the past fifteen minutes.

"I was an idiot to ever trust you." Kaz finished, glaring at you. "You won't be joining the rest of our heists, at least not in this month. I don't need you dancing around and messing up our plans again."

Your mouth dropped open. One mistake and Kaz was ready to throw you out? "You're being unfair, how the fuck would I have known that the ambassador would be there and recognize me?" you grumbled back, but Kaz didn't budge. He had made his decision and rolled the whole fault on you.

"How many times do I have to tell you? I'm not going to let you pull any more stupid stunts like that!" he growled. "If you can't behave yourself then you're off the team! I'll find someone who can keep up with my standards, so just... shut up and get out of here."

Your jaw clenched tight as you glared back at him, but you obeyed anyway, slamming the door shut behind you. You immediately felt tears stinging in your eyes and just made your way back to your room, and the whole Slat heard your footsteps.

Inej had been listening to your and Kaz's fight behind the window as she was coming back for a report, but instead being met with you and Kaz shouting at each other.

"Kaz, you're being cruel to them," Inej sighed as she slid in from the window. Kaz didn't answer, just browsing through papers on his desk and Inej slowly made her way closer to the desk. "They don't deserve to be talked to like that."

"It's none of your business." said Kaz.

"Yes it is."

He looked up sharply, but Inej wasn't intimidated. She was just looking at him with those brown eyes of hers. Kaz turned his gaze back to his desk, pursing his lips.

"I just don't want them to get hurt," Kaz muttered, staring at the paper in front of him.

Kaz's words registered into Inej's mind slowly, and her scowl disappeared as understanding took over. "You have feelings for them."

Kaz's eyes widened for just a moment, before he tried to hide it by rolling his eyes with a scoff. "No, I don't. A ridiculous thought. They're useful for the Dregs, irreplaceable, but feelings would be waste of time."

Inej crossed her arms and raised her eyebrows. "Then why are you so upset?"

Kaz groaned, as if Inej should have known how to read his mind. "Because they're going to get hurt if they keep acting recklessly, and that would be unnecessary."

Inej cocked an eyebrow at him. "You never are afraid of people getting hurt, as long as your plan works."

Kaz groaned. "I already told you. They're irreplaceable. I can't afford to lose them."

"Irreplaceable for you," Inej mumbled and then smirked slightly. "Kaz Brekker finally shows feelings."

Kaz's jaw clenched and unclenched, before he turned around and took a parchment from the drawer, silently telling Inej that he won't be talking about it anymore. So Inej left his office, slipped out from the window to Ketterdam's rainy night.

She had a temptation to go knock on your window and tell you to go talk to Kaz at the morning when you both had calmed down, but she knew that you probably were too mad at Kaz to actually listen to her, or believe her. And Kaz wouldn't be ready for a relationship, at least not yet. And making him talk with you too early could trigger his anxiety or one of his panic attacks, and it wasn't pretty when Kaz had one of those.

She just hoped you'd be willing to wait too, because you both deserved to feel to be loved, even if your relationship wouldn't be the regular one.