HOPELESS LOVE [CHOI SEUNGCHEOL]

CH: 4

Shasha

I entered our house and saw Jeonghan standing with mum. I smiled at him, trying not to cry. I took a deep breath before speaking "I'm back" and smiled, Jeonghan ran to me worriedly. His face said it all, how worried he was. He hugged me tight, I just needed this, his hug and his warmth. Jeonghan has been my comfort and warmth ever since childhood, and he knows it all, he spoiled me with love and care.

He parted and looked at me, "Why weren't you answering my calls and messages, are you okay Shasha? Were you crying?" he held my cheeks, carefully.

"I got a cut because of my heels" my voice was barely audible to myself, it was hard to speak of the tears forming and I couldn't look at him. I was scared I would break down in front of him.

"is it hurting a lot Shasha?" his voice was soft as usual.

"yes Hannie, it's hurting a lot, more than I thought" I broke down, I couldn't control my tears anymore, yes it was hurting, just hurting. I was a crying mess in front of him. He wiped my tears and picked me up. I was holding him tight, not wanting to see anyone, I don't want to cry in front of anyone. He carefully puts me down on my bed. I was still sobbing, unable to speak. I saw him bring the first aid box.

"Shasha, don't cry. Let me see how badly you got the cut" he was about to take off my heels.

"I am not a good sister, Hannie, I am not, see I am making you worry and work for me on your D- Day where you should be with Byeol." The guilt forming inside me because of this was getting heavy as well. I was just hurting myself more. He sat beside me and turned me to face him. "Shasha don't say like this, you're important to me. I can't see you hurt and sad. You were out for 5 hours, I tried calling you because I was worried. I asked cheol if you were with him or not, but he said he talked with you before you left. I was so worried, I know you're grown up but you're still younger than me. and it's normal for me to get worried for you. You're the best sister Shasha, you are one of the reasons for my smile then how can you say you're not a good sister. Remember your happiness matters to me the most, you are the first one for me, the only thing which I can't see is your sadness and tears."

I hugged him tightly, without thinking about anything else. I just needed him to tell me everything's going to be okay. He patted my back. "Shasha, it's okay, don't blame yourself and everything's gonna be okay. Trust me and now Seungcheol is by your side as well so just be happy and most importantly be happy with him. He's my bestfriend since childhood, Shua, cheol and me are best friends since Middle school and I trust them a lot, they are more like my platonic half, and my own brothers. I know he will keep you happy, he looked so genuine when he told me, he loves a girl and wanted to propose to her after the wedding; I had no idea it was you. I am just happy for two of you"

His words made me cry harder... the way he thinks Seungcheol loves me. I can't lie him but I can't break his trust as well, the trust he has for Seungcheol, I can't let him down. I can't let Jeonghan down. He will be disappointed if he finds out, Seungcheol said all these just because he had to and he had no option back then... and Soobin, everything will be turned upside down. I can't do this to them.

Guess... I can't run away.

"Shasha, stop crying, it won't hurt anymore" he wiped my tears again and cleaned the clotted blood. He put a band-aid very carefully. "It won't hurt anymore, okay?" I nodded and he looked up at me. he smiled, his beautiful smile will cure everything.

"I am good now, thank you Hannie, now go to Byeol, you shouldn't leave her alone today."

"Yes yes, going. I was going to check up on you once and then go back. Now don't cry like a baby and take care." And I saw him going out of my room, how could I tell him, this cut wasn't hurting me, but the one hurting me is Seungcheol.

Is this even real? Then I looked at my finger... the ring... his ring... the ring I am wearing right now, he gave me... and this is not a dream, if only this was a nightmare and I want to wake up but this was actually happening to me.

I unlocked my phone and opened Seungcheol's texts.

'Shasha are you okay?'

'Shasha where are you? Jeonghan is so worried about you.'

'Shasha reply to me as soon as you check these texts'

I left him on seen, I don't want to talk to him now. Not after all this, I will talk to him once I am stable enough to hold a conversation with him.

Author's Note:

DOUBLE UPDATE!!

did you like it? hope I am not disappointing you all, let's wait to know what will happen next.

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