HOPELESS LOVE [CHOI SEUNGCHEOL]

CH: 46

Seungcheol

My eyes were searching for her when I entered, then I spotted her wearing a beautiful lavender gown, holding her phone and talking with Hyun, I sighed. Hyun was with her the whole time after the wedding, I barely got some time with her and he would take all the opportunities to talk to her, and how could she not know that the way Hyun was looking at her, it was so obvious on his face and those words... I kept on thinking about it all day.

I suddenly saw Hyun leaning towards her, her facial expression changed from smiling to a very surprised one. She looked lost and hesitant, before I could think further, I saw Hyun offering his hand to her, more like he asking for a dance to her. I couldn't hold back myself anymore. Without thinking twice I walked towards them. There were lots of guests but I made my way to her.

I held her hands as soon I reached there, I admit I missed holding her hands, I missed her. She looked at me with surprise, "isn't it obvious for her to dance with her fiancé and I should be her first dance." Hyun gives a tight smile, and I could see the building tension between us, I don't really know what did he tell or what were they talking about but I could take guess what it was.

"fiancé?" he smirked looking at me.

"Seungcheol- she tries to speak, but he cuts her off by taking a step towards me and leaned towards me, "more like fake fiancé ?"

"Who said it's fake?" I asked him and I felt Shasha squeezing my hand as if she was telling me to stop but I won't let him take over and I will never let him take her from me.

"then prove to me, that it's not fake" he smirked at me. There were so many guests here, and he is Byeol's brother, I need to stay calm and not take my emotions over me or else I would've loved to throw him somewhere right now.

"Why should I prove you?" I asked him, I just wanted to go away from him, with Shasha, I didn't want Shasha to spend a single second more with him, what is he even to Shasha? A friend maybe or maybe a kind of family member?

"Hyun nothing is fake between us, we are engaged and it's reality." Shasha looked confident and her eyes were looking soft.

"Everything was fake since that day, he lied" he looked at me. I wanted to speak but then Shua's voice distracted me.

"it's time for the first dance of the maid of honor" I wasn't sure if Shasha heard it

"Prove me it's real" he was just persistent, I knew this was my chance to take her away from him and show him she's mine.

"there's nothing to prove you" I took her hand and walked to the centre of the room, I took the phone from her hand and kept it in my pocket, she was taken aback. I was looking at her and suddenly the lights were on us.

"I want to be your first dance tonight" I don't know why my voice came out that deep, it felt like I couldn't recognize my own voice right now. I took her hand and placed it on my shoulder and she placed her other hand on the other side of my shoulder. I felt her locking her hands behind my neck, I took a moment to admire her. She looked so pretty in this lavender gown. Her eyes looked mesmerizing and she herself was a beauty. My hands went to her waist. She looked at me, and I could see her being flustered but trying her best to give no reactions to me. I wanted to be her first dance today.

This is our first dance.

"Shasha" I called her name and she looked up at me.

"why would you do that?" she asked me back, my eyes softened at her voice. This was the first time after that night that we are having a conversation and I finally get a chance to talk to her.

"what did I do?" I asked her

"he was doubting us." her voice came out as a whisper but I could feel the emotions her words held.

"he was doubting me, you, us. Why didn't you prove to him that we were real, just the way you put up an act every time" she took a pause, "do you know how much it hurts, you have no idea, that day when I saw you with an unknown girl, it hurt very bad" her eyes looked hurt and it reminded me I never got a chance to explain her about that night and she doesn't remember anything that happened between us, not even the kiss. I didn't want to bring that up because it will make things awkward between us and I would never want that.

"what if everyone starts doubting us and gets to know it's fake, I've been lying to my own brother because I don't want to break his trust" she looked hurt at the mention of Jeonghan, I know she will fall apart if Jeonghan gets to know and I don't want to imagine further.

"about that night, I wanted to explain it to you. But you never gave me a chance" I told her softly, still holding her and she was not missing a single beat of the music, which told me she was well aware of her surroundings as well. We were moving on sync.

"because I don't want to get hurt anymore Seungcheol, is this even real? Is this even fake? I can't fake not being hurt." she sighed, the urge to hold her tight and tell her everything that's messed up inside my mind was getting stronger. I wanted to hold her tight, wanted to tell her how I kept thinking about her, how hurt I was when I couldn't talk to her the whole day, I wanted to tell her I was jealous when I saw her with Hyun and Kyung, I wanted to tell her she was taking over my mind and she ain't helping me figure out my own emotions at this point and once I am sure of this misery, she put me in, I wanted to hold her hands not because of people but because of us and want to make her mine.

"nothing happened between us. It was Shua's bachelor's party and I came out of that room but she followed me, she wanted to be with me but I refused, she was drunk and she stumbled down while walking towards me and she fell in my arms, that's how my shirt got the lipstick stain and she was insisting to clean it, and I was rejecting her then you came and saw that. It was very clear that you got a very wrong idea of the whole thing because you left just like that" she fell silent after I let go of the whole thing.

"you never gave me a chance to tell you or prove you." her eyes told me, she was feeling guilty and bad, and the way I could read all her emotions just by looking at her eyes.

I could feel the song was about to end, I leaned towards her and whispered "Shasha" the pressure of her fingers on my neck was very much evident in me because my body was responding to her actions as well. I leaned closer and this time, my lips briefly touching hers, the feeling I missed so much. "and about things being fake and real I want to tell you" I took a pause "when I will show you, that it's real. there won't be any doubt in your mind next time that it is real"

I retreated and she was still looking at me. I pulled her in my arms swiftly and I felt her breath hitch "I wanted to tell you this Shasha."

Author's Note:

So, this was a turning point? Right? Him telling her this, well let's see what happens next

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