HOPELESS LOVE [CHOI SEUNGCHEOL]

CH: 36

Shasha

The moment I opened my eyes, the bright sunlight was hitting my face. Realization hit I wasn't in my bedroom, and it's not my bed. Then, there was the surface beneath me. It felt different, softer than the one my body was accustomed to. Same went for my pillow where my head rested, too flat and low. It wasn't like that yesterday night probably.

I wasn't on my bed, not in my bedroom, and there was a dead weight currently resting on my waist. It was heavy and warm and felt a lot like an oversize limb that definitely didn't belong to me.

Blinking a few times, I tried adjusting my eyes to the brightness. My gaze went to the weight which was on my waist and then I realized.

An arm.

And then my eyes followed, the arm and then I saw the shoulder.

No way. I stopped myself from gasping too loud.

The arm which was resting on my waist moved slightly, his hand was on my shirt, all five fingers were stuck to my skin. My breath got stuck. I shouldn't move, 'don't move. Shasha no matter what just don't move' I told myself

His fingers felt so hot against my skin and they were doing things to me. My body wasn't listening to me. There was a negligible gap between us, we were just a few inches apart, I was just a few inches apart from Seungcheol.

Seungcheol

Last night

Nightmares, him waking me up, in the middle of the night. Telling me he's here and me bursting into tears after I saw him because I was scared, him pulling me in his embrace, me crying in his embrace then falling asleep.

I was shocked how clearly; I remember the way he hugged me tight.

No way, right? It was a dream?

Those fingers brushed my skin again and a deep groan left him. My heart was beating fast, I looked at him, he was looking so pretty while sleeping. I wanted to admire him, thank him for yesterday night. Then it snapped me, it was real, he was sleeping peacefully beside me. No matter how much my heart is insane, I shouldn't be doing this. I needed to get out of this bed before I did something insane, insane like, tracing his face with my fingers, touching his eyelashes, and giving a quick peck on his cheeks.

I tried brushing off all these thoughts from me, I needed to get out of this bed first. Very slowly, I tried to get out of his grip, lifting his arm very slowly, his body shifted a bit, causing me to stop. I was scared he would wake up, then I saw how deeply he was sleeping, probably tired because of yesterday. I thanked the universe for not waking Seungcheol up and I successfully got out of the grip. I tip-toed to the bathroom.

I locked the door and leaned on the door, I saw my dress hanging. Reminded me why I was wearing his shirt with shorts. His shirt smelled like him, felt like it was him. My heart was still beating fast, I didn't know how to face him after this, last time when he fell asleep in my room, somehow, I managed it but this time, how am I supposed to face him without feeling embarrassed and not to forget both the times he had seen me in my worst; it's always him.

After doing the morning routine, I changed into my dress and went out. I saw him full awake and he was talking on his phone.

"Yes, it will take some time for me to reach, and postponed the 10 am meeting to 11 am and the 4pm meeting to 5:30 pm" he ran his fingers through his hair, the way his hair looked so fluffy, I was suppressing my urge to run my fingers through his hair. I shut the bathroom door and his gaze shifted to me, eyes locked. "Yes, do that. I'll be there in time" and he hung up, but his eyes were fixed on me and mine were fixed on his.