HOPELESS LOVE [CHOI SEUNGCHEOL]

CH: 59

Shasha

I was about to say something but I was couldn't because of a kiss, his lips were on my lips. His lips felt soft against mine, his kiss was the softest. It felt he was telling me with this kiss.

"when I take your lips, when you're sober enough to know that it's not fake anymore. I wouldn't show you how it would be if I was yours. I will show you what it is to be yours. And this won't be for Hyun or Jeonghan or anyone else, it would be because of us. You and me."

I gave in and kissed him back. His kiss was calming me down, telling me that I'm safe with him, telling me it's okay. My hands gripped his t-shirt and I closed my eyes, feeling his lips against mine. He smiled in between the kiss and broke the kiss. My cheeks were burning and I couldn't look at him.

This was our first kiss, where I wasn't drunk and I was totally sober

"Love"

My eyes widen because of the word he said, I couldn't process and then he said "I started loving you Shasha, I love you."

"and when I finally kiss you, it would be because I am yours and you're mine."

Before I could respond to his words, he kissed me again. His lips were so soft, I felt like they were going to be addicting for me, his arm was supporting me, his hands were holding me, they were the only thing that were holding me together or I could melt here right now. I was holding his t-shirt tight and he let out a low groan and pulled me closer, our bodies were almost touching.

This was real, everything was real.

I felt the hand which were on my cheeks went down and held my hands, he interlinked our fingers and he was still kissing me passionately, he could end me right now with his kisses. He smiled again in between our kiss, I felt him, he was starting to tease me and he pulled himself apart. My breathing was heavy, I couldn't even look at him right now, because I was still flustered because of his kiss and I felt like my whole body was on fire.

"You're so distracting Shasha" his hand which was holding me was on my lips now, his voice was hoarse. He leaned towards me and I closed my eyes, unable to read his next step. Our forehead touched and his thumb was still caressing my lips, "I love you" his warm breaths were hitting me.

"I started loving you, I fell in love with you" he paused but I still didn't open my eyes, "I don't know since when but you made me fall in love with you. And here I am, in love with you" his thumb was urging me to kiss him right now, it felt tempting. I slowly opened my eyes. It felt so right to have him by my side right now, it felt right to tell him about how I feel, it felt so right to know about him and his feelings. It felt real and everything made sense about everything. He made me realise how it would be if he was mine, how it would be if everything was real.

"You thought I was going to kiss you? again?" and he smirked. I knew this teasing side of him, but his thumb never stopped caressing my lips, I held his face and looked at him. It felt like I could dive into his black eyes. He smiled at me, showing me his cute dimples. He doesn't know how much I waited this moment to be real and how much I wanted everything to be real. He doesn't know how much I wanted all of this to be real. He doesn't know how much I waited to kiss him or get kissed by him.

"What- before he could say anything else I gave him a quick peck on his lips and was about to pull away quickly. "Do you know I'm resisting to kiss you again right now?" I was surprised at his confession, "I waited so long to kiss you like this" then he suddenly pulled me closer and kissed me again passionately, if I could word these actions correctly, he is making new memories with me.

He pulled apart and my breathing was heavy. His warm breaths were hitting my face, "I love you" and finally I told him, he smiled at me and kissed my forehead, "I love you more Shasha. I started loving you more than I could ever imagine that I could fell for someone" he kissed my forehead again, and then he looked down at me, "I will give you more than you deserve love." He paused for a second, "so now get some sleep tonight without worrying about anything or else I think I would kiss you whole night because you just drive me insane at times" I was flustered because of his words, he was making me blush.

"I love it when you blush because of me. It feels good to remind myself that there's no one else who can make you feel like this and it's only me." his hands were on my hair, he was looking at me with eyes full of love. He pulled me closer and I could hear his heartbeat, "that night you told me, my heart was beating fast just like yours, and I wanted you to hear my heartbeat again, because they beat insanely for you and you should know this." I let out a small laugh and hugged him tight.

"I love you so much Shasha" I heard his small laugh, it was endearing to me. "So, love get some sleep now. You need to wake up tomorrow and need to go back home or else Jeonghan would be worried." I nodded and smiled. Wish I could actually tell this to Jeonghan but I can't everything feel so dreamy to me.

I couldn't believe that Seungcheol actually confessed to me and kissed me. "Why does this feel real and feels surreal at the same time?"

"This is real, and get used to this because this is how I am when I'm with you"

"Now, get some sleep and dream about us" I laughed at his words, "goodnight cheol"

"Do you know I love it when you call me Cheol"

"What?" and I lifted my head from his chest to look at him, "Only when you call it." and he pecked my lips quick and I buried my head in his embrace because of embarrassment how could he just do that? Everything felt so new right now. All of this. "So, keep calling me Cheol" I didn't know this, this side of Seungcheol is full of surprises, I let out a smile and nodded, "okay cheol"

"My love" he looked at me, his eyes looked beautiful under this dim light. "Now let's meet in our dreamland" and he cuddled, his arms were securely around me, holding me tight but making me feel safe. "I love you" I whispered those three words to myself, not sure when should I tell him again. I always wanted to tell him, how much I love him.

Author's Note:

How was it? I swear, I actually wanted to bang my head while writing this because wdym by I was writing a fictional kissing scene with so much passion and MOREOEVER it was SEUNGCHEOL??? Oh god, this man drives me insane and when I wrote this draft, their concert in Japan started, and he looked Holy grail like?? Prince, and I imagined that cute little face at times and lost my mind almost at 1 am, because when I wrote this, it was 1 am.

*struggles of a writer*

Anyways, well you can see, they both confessed now and aren't you happy? Hope you enjoyed reading this chapter~

Happy reading!