HOPELESS LOVE [CHOI SEUNGCHEOL]

CH: 24

Seungcheol

After a week.

I checked the time, I was stuck in the traffic, I hope she knows that I'm coming to pick her up and we are going out for dinner and to meet our parents to talk about our marriage. I had to leave early today because of this, I just hope everything goes well. Hopefully, I won't be disappointing anyone anymore.

Marriage is something which will tie both me and Shasha in a bond; a bond which is sacred, and I was going to give my opinion on that. I was going to take a big step today, and it could change my life, my whole life. Not only my life, but Shasha's life as well, because of something I did, and I can't look back.

I will be sitting with my parents, not only mine but with her parents as well, I can feel this is going to be very nerve-wracking, I have no idea how it's going to turn out. I had this one thought that I would handle everything well when I thought I would be sitting with my parents talking about me and Soobin, but things are changed now. I sighed, one step and here I am. I started driving to her shop, I played some music just to not feel very nervous.

I took a deep breath and entered her shop. I heard Iseukie saying "Shasha, I really miss that Azalea flower vase, Azalea looked so pretty on your desk. And Erica Heath didn't look this lonely, it looked lively. Can't you just buy them again? why don't you buy them?"

"I will think about it, Iseukie" her voice was soft as if she was trying to avoid the topic.

"I clearly remember when you brought these flowers, you told me, these remind you of someone and you looked so happy then why won't bring them again, when those flowers were so special to you and reminded you of someone?" frustration was visible in Iseukie's voice.

"Why are you whining about a flower and flower vase? Iseukie, it's been weeks why can't you just forget it? Forget Azaleas ever existed for me, because they don't" she sighed, her voice was low when she said those last words but I could hear her voice only.

"BECAUSE I LOVED IT AS WELL, YOU ALWAYS SMILED AT IT, AND SINCE IT'S NOT HERE YOU LOOK VERY ABSENT-MINDED AND SPACED OUT." She took a pause, "don't you remember you always told me, that you always felt better looking at them because they're dearest to you and they take away your worries, that much you loved them and nowadays you just keep staring at the ring you're wearing and keep spacing out, today you got a cut on your finger again Shasha and what will happen tomorrow? You are distracted for some unknown reasons, it's been days... Shasha do you think I can't notice?-

"oh god" I heard her sigh, I know it's a bad habit to eardrop, and I wanted this conversation to stop, I was feeling a bit off and guilty, without any reason.

"umm did I disturb you?" I finally spoke up and both turned to look at me. She looked exhausted and I looked at her finger, she had a band-aid wrapped around her finger. I don't know what happened and I feel Iseukie was right, she was distracted, and this is the consequence of her distraction. This is unlike her, she had no reason to get distracted when she works because she have to be careful with the things she's working on.

"Seungcheol-

"Are you done for today?" I asked her, and she nodded, "I'm done, please give me a minute. I'll fix myself and come back in a minute." I nodded and smiled at her, she went inside. I saw Iseukie sigh and she walked toward me.

"Umm... Iseukie..."

"Yes?"

"Since how many days she's been behaving like this?" I had this urge to ask about her, there was something bugging me from inside

"If I remember correctly, it's after Jeonghan's wedding. She's spacing out, distracted most of the time, no doubt she completes all the work perfectly but she's spacing out a lot of times and then she gets herself injured, I hate it, she was so lively before that. I know I shouldn't be saying all this to you but I can't help it and I'm worried about her. She was doing okay after her Japan trip but something's been inside her since yesterday that's not letting her to be okay. She didn't tell me what it is but something definitely happened yesterday or the day before yesterday." the day before yesterday we were told to set up a meeting to discuss about us with our parents and yesterday morning they decided the time, is this bothering her?