HOPELESS LOVE [CHOI SEUNGCHEOL]

CH: 30

Shasha

"Shasha" he looked at me, "thank you" I looked at him in confusion. "thank you for today" he came closer, he took a step towards me, which resulted in me to take a step back, he was still walking towards me, I was stepping back until my back touched his car. I was too stunned to speak a single word and my heart beating like crazy, "you-your welcome" he was leaning toward me, I was holding my sanity, he was leaning more and more.

He smiled at me and pulled himself back, I let out my breath. "Get in" and he walked towards the other side of the car. I could feel my face was on fire, why would he do this, why would he do things like this, everything between us was supposed to be fake, isn't it?

I got inside his car and pulled the seatbelt as well. Not to forget about the seatbelt ever again.

"Shasha" he called my name, I turned to look at him and he started driving.

"Yes?"

"do you want to eat ice cream? Your ice cream was due since that night" reminded me, but which night, I remember the last time when I was out with him at night was that night when he gifted me a bouquet of azaleas.

"my mom told me to take you home and grab ice cream on the way don't you remember?"

Reminded me of 'Right, we have some work with your brother and we will be heading home. How about you take Shasha, grab ice creams on the way and drop her? Are you okay with this Jia?'

"Sure, let's go grab ice-creams on our way" I smiled at him. I started looking outside, how would it have been if all of this was real, everything was real for me but him? he still thinks everything is fake, between us and probably will never want anything to be real, right? I wonder how long can I go on like this? how long would I be doing this? I agreed to marry him but what about my own feelings? This would be a marriage for convenience for us, for him.

"Shasha, let's go, think of this as a thank you gift for tonight" he parked the car and we got out. He was smiling, his dimples were visible.

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Can't believe we have officially one month left for Soobin's wedding.

After a long discussion here, we are to check out the venue for Soobin's wedding. I am excited, way too excited for her wedding but, I turned to look at Seungcheol, he had no expressions on his face, which worried me.

We were walking down the streets, Soobin said she wanted to explore this place after we confirmed the venue and she told me how she wants the decoration and the flowers she prefers. Four of us were walking, I was looking around the streets, everything looked so calm here. It was a good weekend trip for me. I wanted to relax here as much as I could, another reason why I told Soobin that I wanted to go and sleep after we confirm the venue but she dragged me here. And my soon to bride sister, was showing her puppy eyes, so I couldn't resist her. I saw her holding Joshua's arms, and without thinking twice, my eyes turned to look at him, Seungcheol's expression said something, something only I could understand, I wanted to talk to him, comfort him but how? How am I supposed to do that when I see him upset, it upsets me as well. How am I supposed to comfort him when I am also broken inside?

I turned to him, wanted to ask him if he wants to go somewhere else, or something but before I could speak, he left. He started walking in a different direction. I saw Joshua keeping his hands on Soobin's and placing a quick peck on her cheeks, they looked cute.

They turned to me, I was taken aback "where is Seungcheol?" and it ticked me, yes he went away from us, he wasn't with us anymore.

"Ah, he...." I trailed off, and scratched the back of my neck. "you guys go ahead, I'll go get him, he is just nearby"