My own kind of RoMeo | Namjin

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KIM GEONG MIN/ NABI

My brother woke up with a slight head ache. Kinuhaan ko agad s'ya ng gamot at inilagay sa side table n'ya. Napansin ko naman na ang mata n'ya ngayon ay namumugto dahil sa kakaiyak kaya tumayo nanaman ako para bigyan s'ya ng packed ice para idampi n'ya sa mga mata n'ya.

"Kamusta na, kuya? Akala ko pumasok ka ngayon pero maabutan kitang naglalasing diyan. Ako pa nagligpit ng kalat ng bahay mo." Hinawakan n'ya naman ang sintindo n'ya at minasahe ito.

"I'm not fine, Nabi." He whispered with sorrow in his eyes. "I said to myself that I can surpass this but– it made me worst." Mapait s'yang ngumiti saakin.

"Hindi naman sa pinapangunahan kita, kuya. Pero kung noong una palang eh pinakiramdaman mo na sana si kuya Seokjin, hindi ka na sana nagkakaganiyan." He looked at me with furrowed brow. "What I mean is... You can do things that made you realize that you are truly into him, then confess to kuya Seokjin that you like him. Wala namang mawawala diba?" Yes! Nasabi ko rin ang gusto kong sabihin!

"No, Nabi. Hindi gano'n yun kadali. I-i'm afraid." He sighed deeply. "What if he didn't like me? And my other thought is, what if he like me but the society didn't?!"

I hug my brother to comfort him. The problem he's facing right now is a serious dilemma. I think he's developing internalized heterosexism and that's dreadful. It may cause negative outcomes to his mental health and lead to depression. I'm not good at this and I can't do this alone, so I video call Yoongi oppa.

"Hey, Nabi. Why did you call me?"  He questioned, flashing his face on screen. I believe he's busy right now. Nung nakaraan ko lang rin nalaman na may jowa na pala s'ya pero hindi ko pa nakita kung sino iyon.

"Uhm... I need your help?" Pinakita ko sa screen ang mukha ng kuya ko. Kagigising n'ya lang kaya sabog-sabog pa buhok n'ya at namumula ang mga mata pero kaibigan n'ya naman si kuya Yoongi kaya okay lang naman siguro ang gano'n.

"Oh, is he okay now? He texted me that he can't go to school today because he's sick." I gasped from what he said. What the heck? He's not sick, he's f*cking wasted. Gan'yan ba ang tingin ni Yoongi oppa kay kuya kapag may sakit.

I glare to my brother while he gave me a pity look and down his head. Ano pa nga bang magagawa ko? He have a problem. I sighed. Tinapat ko naman na saakin ang phone ko at nagsalita.

"He's not sick, kuya. He made that excuse to free himself today and get drunk. Look, he realized his mistakes about kuya Seokjin."

"Really? Congrats then." Yoongi oppa said, smirking. I can sense the sarcasm on him. "Kung hindi ka siguro nag-inom, hindi mo siguro yan malalabas, Namjoon."

My brother didn't talk back.

"Ayun nga oppa eh. By the way, I think my cousin Yin didn't really like Seokjin oppa. I can sense it!" I gulped before saying words. "We can observe them about their relationship right now."

Alam kong may pagtingin si Seokjin oppa kay cousin Yin pero noong una palang talaga, makikita mo na wala talagang s'yang pag-asa na pinsan ko. I knew my cousin in the first place, kaya n'yang mag-entertain ng tao pero kapag sumapit ang ilan buwan, titigil na s'ya. Ate Yin is an academically busy person and she's too focused in her future. Alas to Seokjin oppa, she can't have her.