Secrets

Part 8

"He had cancer!" Finn says. Leaning against a table, his hands on his head Finn closes his eyes and repeats "He had cancer okay?". "W- What? But why are you all acting strange when he has just a fever?" Blaine asks, trying to understand what he got told and what's going on. "He had cancer and one of the symptoms is fever. And in general getting sick, like with a fever, is dangerous for him. After you found out that he has the fever he packed his bags and drove to the hospital with Carol. He's there since Sunday, getting rarely better." Finn explains but before he can say anything more Blaine stands up and says "I- I need to see him." before he rushes out of the room.

Kurt watches cartoons and sketches into his fashion notebook like he did the whole day as someone knocks at the door and Kurt casually says "Come in", thinking that it'll be a nurse. But when he sees who enters the room he drops his pencil. "B-Blaine?" he stutters as Blaine walked in with his school bag and a little smile on his face. "Before you say something, Finn told me and only because I gave him no other choice" Blaine says, sitting down on the chair next to Kurt to keep some distance.
"You can come closer. I won't bite you. Also I guess I have some explaining to do." Kurt says and pats on the bed. Blaine nods and sits down on the opposite of Kurt, ready to listen to the boy.

Kurt takes a deep breath before he starts telling his story "It was the summer before middle school. I didn't feel well, had a fever that didn't got better, had troubles with breathing and my nose often start bleeding. My dad took me to the doctor and it turned out that I have leukemia.". Blaine let's out a sharp breath he was holding but doesn't say a word and let Kurt continue "I had chemotherapy, lost my hair, felt terrible, was to sick for school and got homeschooled. I thought you might don't want to be friends with me anymore and I had a lot to process, not only physically. So I stoped texting you and concentrated on getting healthy again. Concentration is also one of the things that got harder for me. My dad was an emotional wreck because l, you know-". "Your mother..." Blaine answers remembering. He knew Kurt and his family only a few month when Elizabeth Hummel got diagnosed with cancer for the second time and sadly lost the fight. Kurt nods "It brought back the memories and my dad couldn't stand the thought of losing me too.

A nurse, named Carol, was there for him and me and, well now I have a new step-mom and a step-brother but I consider them family because they're always there for me. I tried to tell you but I couldn't and when you noticed my fever I freaked out. It's just- I was finally healthy and strong enough to go to school, start high school like other people and even for after school activities like Glee Club.". The boy is on the edge of crying when he feels Blaines arms around him. Not even a second in the good feeling, warm embrace he pushes Blaine away again "Don't. Another reason why I don't like telling people is because I don't want to be cancer guy. The guy who gets pity attention and pity hugs. I understand if this is all to much for you and you want to go". "Don't be silly. I'm not going." Blaine says laughing but gets serious again when Kurt asks quietly, with his eyes pointed on his hands which are shaking slightly, "Why not? I mean look at me.". "Okay. I look at you and I think you're beautiful. No matter if you're sick or healthy, you're the most beautiful person I know. And Kurt believe me when I say that I'm not going. I'm not going because I love you and nothing will change that. You're the best thing that happened to me." Blaine says, taking Kurts hand. A lonely tear escapes Kurts eye, rolls down his cheek and lands on Blaines hand.

"I love you too" Kurt whispers and feels short after Blaines lips on his. The kiss is followed by a hug and Kurt sighs "What did I say about hugs?". "This is not a pity hug Kurt. It's a complete selfish hug because I missed you" Blaine answers and manages to make Kurt laugh a little.
"Do you mind if I stay here for a while?" the hazelnut eyed boy asks and Kurt smiles a little "I would love you to stay". Kurt makes the other boy space next to him and Blaine shifts positions. Before start cuddling, Blaine reaches for his bag and explains "This isn't a pity gift because I wanted to give it to you yesterday so you don't feel alone over day but as I wrote you Carol send me away". "She had a night shift and came to me to talk before work." Kurt says and Blaine remembers "That's why she was wearing her work clothes". "Anyway" he continues and shows the teddy bear he grabbed from home after he ran out of school "this is for you". Kurt slimes widely "Thank you" and takes the teddy bear. Then he laughs "When I'm not in the room people could think this is the room of a five year old. With the Teddy bear and cartoons.". "Why cartoons?" Blaine asks also laughing. Kurt shrugs and gets lost in his explanation "I don't know. It calmed me back then.