AYANDA: Another Chance At Love

Chapter 36

*6 weeks later*
The bell rings, cutting our discussion short "we'll continue this discussion after break" they all practically run out and in no time the class is all empty again.

I finally get to sit down, I've been very fatigued lately I think it's all the pressure coming from work plus I'm looking to buy a second property and that on it's own has been very stressful, my baby on the other hand is growing and the older she gets the more naughty she becomes so having to run after her the whole house is a real drag.

I open my lunchbox bag while busy checking my phone for whatsapp messages and any status updates, my sisters and I were out for dinner over the weekend and it was really amazing I just couldn't stomach the smell of alcohol which isn't weird considering I'm the late bloomer of the pack, I started drinking very late in my life and so alcohol hasn't always been my thing.

You probably wondering what happened after Nathi left, well according to the pictures that people were uploading, the wedding went on just fine, he's a married man and has since never made any form of contact with me, I shared the second wife request with my older sister and she says I should follow my heart but there's no way I'm ever going to settle for second best, it's either me or the other woman.

I open my lunch and the pasta smells a bit offish, it's probably because it has milk and cheese, the smell of it really makes me feel nauseated so I close it and put it aside. I settled for my nectarine and juice, not very filling but I don't have much of a choice.

The rest of my day goes on pretty much the same as the other 2 days, it's Wednesday so we have our staff meetings after school. I walk to the staff room occasionally greeting some of the teachers along the way to the staff room.

I take my seat then the meeting shortly commences. After the meeting the principal announces that Mrs Adamson one of the Arts teacher has brought cake for all of us to celebrate her birthday. They bring in the cake and are all served.

For some reason as I brought the cake closer to my mouth the scent of it made me nauseated and I felt the urge to vomit so I quickly got up and ran to the nearest bathroom to vomit. I clean myself up and leave the bathroom shortly after only to find Dintle, one of my colleagues who has honestly been so nice to me since I got here, I just didn't really get a chance to get to know her.

"mntase, are you okay?" she calls everyone Mntase. I nodd, "I think you should take the 2 days off and uyobona udokotela, you don't look too good" she's right, I don't feel too good either, "I'll cover your classes for you during my free periods don't worry, you'll email me the work and I'll take it from there" she's a real sweetheart, I smile. We walk back into the boardroom and everyone seems concerned with some asking how I'm feeling.

"I'm all good everyone, thank you" we continue the small chitchat until it's time to go home. My supervisor allows me to take the 2 days off and honestly I'm happy I can get a lot done in this two days like hunting for a good kindergarten for my wami and getting groceries for the month.

The drive home felt so long with all the traffic since it's around 5 o'clock now. I get home, shower and spend sometime with my baby, we didn't cook since we still had leftover rice and lamp from the previous night, she's grown so much she even calls me mama now and trust me I love every bit of it. She's been rather too clingy lately, she cries when I have to leave for work, she wants to always sleep in my arms, when I put her down she expects me to lay down next to her or else there will be a serious fight, she spends most nights in my bed lately, I guess the older they are, the clingier they get.

We finally go to bed, my bed actually, she is very hyper tonight and I'm tired, I wanna sleep so I doze off while she's playing with my face, I guess she also eventually dozed off.

*the next morning*
I woke up late around 10 and my baby wasn't in bed with me anymore, I'm assuming her nanny has taken her for her daily routine already. I get up, take a shower then have some plain yogurt only for breakfast before heading out for grocery shopping.

I get to Woolworths and thank God it isn't packed at all, nothing feels better than doing shopping during the week when everyone is at work. I finish up and pay before heading to clicks for my toiletries, I get to the sanitary pads isle, that's when it hits me, i have not used the packet I bought the last time I was here and that is over a month ago.

Nathi and I never ever use protection with each other, all this vomiting? The nausea? The fatigue! Oh my word!

This cannot be happen, not now of all times, "ma'am are you okay?" a lady wearing clicks uniform taps my shoulder bring me back to reality.

"Uhm, yes, where can I find pregnancy tests?" she smiles, "right this way" I follow her and take 5 boxes before heading straight to the till without even finishing the rest of my toiletry shopping, this better not be what I think it is.

I drive home and get there to find that wami and her nanny went out to the park so great I'm alone, I use all 5 sticks and then go downstairs to gulp down a glass of wine while I wait, I know this is risky but I need something to numb me from how I'm feeling.

Finally the 5 minutes that felt like forever is over, I check each stick individually and for each that I pick up, my sobbs get a bit louder because all 5 tests came out positive! How the heck could I be so irresponsible!